Chapter 1
As Clarke walks around camp, she places her right hand on her pained stomach. Every now and then she could hear a huge grumbling from her tummy. It wasn’t a pleasant sound. She thinks about the camp – the teenagers here. Bellamy is taking charge over the wall and it’s going really well. Murphy has been banished because of the whole Charlotte thing. She can’t help but feel like it’s her own fault. Maybe it is, maybe it isn’t. But Clarke will never know. Clarke tilts her head back and closes her eyes. Letting the wind do the magic of being on earth. Having nature all around them but the grounders- that’s the problem. The dream was that everyone is to come down to earth, and they are living the dream. Unfortunately, it’s more like a nightmare.
Once Raven came down Clarke found out that Finn, whom she slept with the night before, were an item back on the Ark. Annoyingly, they did seem right for each other and they stay together. Clarke was so broken, she ran to her tent and cried her heart out. Hoping for it to make her feel better but it didn’t. Not one bit. She tried to stay cool around them, to not give anything away. Luckily, she didn’t.
Clarke and Bellamy though, they are seeing each other. At first she really hated Bellamy. She thought he was an arrogant twat, who thinks he’s the king. Saying ‘whatever the hell we want’. Obviously, they couldn’t. After the whole Charlotte thing and finding out that we needed the Ark to come down to us. He started changing. His personality became sweeter overall. Clarke figures that they have a connection together. Nothing like what she had with Finn. She can’t trace what she felt for him and now she’s 100% she doesn’t feel it anymore. All she cares about it Bellamy. A few months ago she told Bellamy that. Praying for him to say the same. And he does. Bellamy’s smile was so magical, so beautiful. Clarke kissed him. He kissed back. She thought it felt magical and sweet. Something she loves feeling. Clarke remembers the feeling of his bare chest on hers. His smooth hands on her bare back. She knows she will never forget that night and she hopes he doesn’t either. When the wake up the next morning Bellamy asked her if she wanted to be his girlfriend. Clarke was so happy when those words released from Bellamy’s mouth. The best thing Clarke remembers from the might was the way Bellamy looked at her. Supposedly, stunned by her beauty. But what Clarke thought was love. Real love. They have been spending the night together a lot now.
The sun is shining over the camp. Clarke could hear laughs and cheers. She knows that everything is going well. Until she feels her stomach again and that’s when it hits her. The stomach pains. The swollen feet. Having sex every now and again. Clarke realizes that she might be pregnant. And with that she feels like she is going to faint. Having a baby? She isn’t confused she’s just worried. Worried about what Bellamy will say. What everyone will say. They are already starving- and they can’t afford to feed someone else. Clarke wipes her eyes to stop the tears giving here away. She knows she has to tell Bellamy but she just doesn’t know what his reaction will be. She pushes out her fear of telling Bellamy, she strolls casually over to him. Ignoring everything else and just focusing on him, she is so close now when she asks a question to herself – is Bellamy ready to be a father? Is he? Bellamy is talking to Miller about the grounders. When she steps in.
“Bellamy can I talk to you please?” She asks as politely as she can.
He shoos Miller away and turns to face Clarke. “What is it princess?” His smile so welcoming.
Clarke opens her mouth to try to get the words out but she feels like her throat is clenched shut. Her face starts turning red with embarrassment. “I, I. I think I’m having a baby.”
At that second everything freezes. She feels like there are millions of eyes on her. She doesn’t know what to do. Bellamy has no expression on his face at all. It’s just blank. Clarke quickly turns away and run back to her tent. Not caring about what people will think. ‘How could I be so stupid?’ she thinks to herself. She realises that Bellamy isn’t ready for a baby. Neither is she. Clarke lies on her bed and tries to calm down. There is nothing she can do is there. Nature has punished her and Bellamy.
Someone enters the tent. Bellamy comes down and sits next to Clarke.
“If you are here to shout at me then please leave me alone.” She states angrily.
“It’s not your fault or mine Clarke, it just happens.” He says, his face still blank.
“There isn’t enough supplies for all of us and the baby.” Clarke exclaims.
“Listen to me, I won’t let anything happen to you or our baby. Clarke, I love you. And I can’t wait to love our baby as much as I love you” He tells her, brushing his lips on Clarkes cheek.
“Thank you for saying that.” She smiles to him. Placing a kiss on his lips. “I love you too.”
And that night Clarke sleeps with Bellamy. His hand around her stomach. Clarke now knows that Bellamy is ready. And so is she.
