I slam the door to my room shut with a loud bang, not caring if I wake anyone up. I face plant into my bed still sweaty from my workout, that is in till Dimitri came and talked to me. I think over what he just said to me and about why he left.
"I wanted you to have a full life, I couldn't give you a family, I was taking your chances of guarding the princess, I was taking so many things away from you so I thought if I took myself you of the equation it would solve the problem."
I bitterly laugh out loud, he was so wrong when he though we has right… at the time apparently.
I had no idea of what to think of what he told me. Part of me was happy to know that he still loved me, the other part of me was royally pissed that he left me. I was contemplating on whether I should talk to Lissa about all of this. I wanted it to be like the old days when I could tell her anything, but on the other hand things had changed between us.
The sound of a knock on my door brought me out of my thoughts. I went to open the door and; speak of the devil.
"Hey," I greeted the blonde girl that I was thinking about just moments ago.
"Hey, I know it's a bit early," I looked over at my bedside table, 5:42 I had been awake now for about an hour. I turn back at Lissa and motioned for her to continue speaking. "Well I was hoping we could talk, you know since I saw you again we haven't really talked."
"Yeah I know it's just, I've changed and I don't know how thinks can go back to how they used to be."
"Well lets talk then." I think about her proposition for a moment.
"Sure." I gesture for her to walk into my room and she does. She pointes over to my unmade bed and I nod my head, she sits down. "So, what do you want to talk about?" I ask.
"How have you changed the past three years?"
"Well…" I trailed off, I didn't know where to start. "I found out I have a brother."
"What! Really that's great… right that's a good thing?" She asks.
"Yeah it's a good thing."
"So can I meet him?"
"You already have."
"What when?" She asks her green eyes showing confusion.
"My brother is Kiran." Realization dawned on her and she looked up to meet my eyes again.
"Really, I though you two were, like, I don't know, a thing."
"It's not my fault I didn't know! You two are really close and it's the first thing that popped in my mind." I chuckled.
"Well no, he's my brother, half-brother really but whatever." I thought about telling her that Abe was my father and went for it. It couldn't hurt right?
"And I have some other family here as well."
"Is he your uncle or something?" I shook my head.
"He's my father."
"Yeah, I know right I am related to Zemy, I am Zemy Junior." Lissa laughed.
"Well a family is what you wanted it isn't it?"
"Yeah, and I'm happy I found them, well, Abe found me but whatever."
Just like that we went back to our old ways, Lissa and I talking and talking for god knows how long about anything and everything. I even found out that Lissa and Christian had gotten married, and it was only three months ago as well. I also found out that Eddie and Mia were a thing, they had been dating for about a year now apparently. She also said they held a funeral for me, I have a tombstone here at court and everything.
"I need to see this tombstone, then we need to smash it because I am in fact, not dead." I stated.
"Sure thing Rose." I bit my lip and decided to talk to her about Dimitri, why not I told her everything else… well other than how I died I wasn't about to tell her everything in a matter of seconds just because she came knocking at my door.
"Can I talk to you about Dimitri?"
"You can talk to me about anything at any time." She stated calmly.
"Well he told me the reason he left me."
"Why did he leave you?"
"He said, and I quote; "I never intend to use you Rose, I loved you and I still do, I just couldn't live with myself knowing all the things I did to you while I was a Strigoi." Then he went on to say; "I wanted you to have a full life, I couldn't give you a family, I was taking your chances of guarding the princess, I was taking so many things away from you so I thought if I took myself you of the equation it would solve the problem."
"Well that's better than the alternative."
"I know it's just, I don't know what to do now."
"I think you should give him a chance."
"Well you clearly still love him. And you should have seen him when you left, and when he thought you were dead, god he was a mess, I never want to see him like that again, really.
"Really?" I ask to make sure I didn't miss hear her.
"Yeah, I really do think you should give him a chance, make him work for it, but still…"
"Give him a chance." I looked out my window to see a bit of mist coming down from the dark sky. I think about what I should do for a while till I heard Lissa clear her throat.
"Well? Did you make up your mind? You've been sitting there for, like, almost twenty minutes."
"Yeah, I guess I'll give him a chance."
I looked over at Lissa.
"I have a feeling you won't regret this." She spoke as a soft smile appeared on her pink lips.