Chapter 26: Waking Up
Disclaimer: I don’t own Star Wars.
Rendal and I continued to hold on to each other for what felt like an eternity, or possibly even longer, and even though I have now calmed down, that doesn’t mean I am ready for this to end.... Actually I don’t think that I ever want to let go of the boy in front of me.... Which is why I panicked as Rendal went to pull away and headed for the door.
‘No! P-Please.... I.... I don’t want to have another nightmare....! W-Will you stay with me? Please!’ I pleaded desperately, not wanting to be left alone to face my terrible fears as a flash from the nightmare! He must have seen how much I needed him because he nodded and came back to my bed side. He then gently took my hand in his and held it, all the while giving me his small, caring smile.
‘Alexa, you know I don’t want to leave you here by yourself-’
‘Then don’t.’ I cut him off.
‘But how can I sleep here?’ He asked. It was then that a though came forth through the haze in my head and, while I knew I must be crazy to even think of this, I moved over towards the wall, pulled the blankets back and patted the mattress in front of me, inviting him to sleep in my bed.
For a moment he just looked at where my other hand lay, as if it was some kind of gem sitting in front of him, waiting- no! Daring him to take it and accept the offer. However, the look didn’t last long and despite how insane this is, he nodded and actually climbed in with me!
‘Thank you.’ I smiled as we resumed our earlier embrace, with his arm around my shoulders and I laid my head in the crook of his neck.
I knew that if the Council, or Anakin, ever found out that I had let a boy sleep in my bed we would both be toast, but right now I couldn’t care less!
With that thought in mind I snuggled into my friend and soon began to feel myself become sleepy.... Slowly my eyes began to close and I heard Rendal whisper in my ear.
‘Sleep well Alexa.’
I stood outside Alexa’s room, glad that I could finally sense her fears easing. It broke my heart to see her like this again and I swore to myself I wouldn’t try to sleep again until I knew she was alright.... Unlike Obi Wan who had gone back to bed already.... Right now though, I must have been so focused on trying to feel how she was doing that I didn’t even realise I had company until I heard a voice from beside me.
‘How is she?’
I jumped and turned to see Ahsoka looking at me with concerned eyes.
‘She’s been better.’ I replied sadly.
‘I feel sorry for her, I know it’s hard to get rid of those nightmares....’
‘What do you mean?’
‘Not long after I became your padawan and I began to see the horrors the war was creating I started having nightmares.... About the people that were dying, the amount of blood that was being spilt and the innocents that were being slaughtered.... It took me a long time to get over, but I managed. Of course my dreams were nowhere near as frightening as this, but.... I know she’ll get through it.’ She nodded confidently.
‘Ahsoka I had no idea.... Why didn’t you ever tell me?’ I asked shocked.
‘I knew such things were natural, I was only fourteen at the time, Anakin. But this isn’t about me, this is about Alexa, and right now I think she is in safe hands. If you want to help her then go and get some sleep, then be ready to help her get on with life tomorrow.’ I nodded.
‘I guess you’re right.... But I don’t like feeling so helpless and just leaving her care to a thirteen year old.’
‘I know, but admit it, the nightmare was about him, therefore she wants to have him near her so she knows that he’s alright and if that stops her from waking up in the middle of the night screaming, don’t you think that’s worth him helping?’
‘Yes.... If he is what Alexa needs, then I agree that letting him help is good, but I don’t know if it’s wise to let Rendal spend the night with her; if the Council ever found out they’d be furious!’
‘Sense when have you ever worried about the Council, Skyguy?’ She asked smirking.
‘Alright, I’ll let it slip. Goodnight.... Snips.’ I replied and headed to bed.
I woke the next morning I woke up with a strange weight on my chest and as I opened my bleary eyes and looked around I saw Alexa’s head resting on my chest, I felt my breath hitch in my throat and my heart leapt in my chest at how close we were. I then took to studying the back Alexa’s head and she was surprisingly without her hood up so I could see the pretty blue lines on her lekku and headtails. I then used my eyes to trace them until I reached the end of it and came to the black clothing of her cloak.
I then realised that her arm was draped over my waist and I felt her chest press into me as she breathed in and out. Then I felt her begin to stir as she woke up and I was more than a little concerned about what she would think when she saw what position we were in.
Unfortunately I was right to be nervous.
She groaned and started moving her head slightly, the next thing I new her arm was digging into my side as she moved with lightning speed so she was kneeling on top of me! Her hands then found their way to my throat, squeezing it and she flipped us off the bed so that we rolled on to the floor where once again she was on top of me and she glared at me intensely!
‘Alexa it’s me don’t!’ I gasped and cried out as my bad leg and arm hit the ground with a heavy thud, pain rippling through me.
The Togruta’s eyes widened as she stared down at me and she let go of my neck before climbing off me and backing away to her bed.
‘S-Sorry.’ She shook her head.
‘That’s ok....’ I replied trying to keep in a groan.
‘Not it’s not, I hurt you!’
‘Really, it’s nothing, don’t worry about it.’ I tried to shake it off, but I watched as Alexa closed her eyes and used the Forced to slowly lift me into my wheelchair! ‘Thanks.’ I smiled once I was in it.
‘It’s the least I can do considering what I did to you.’
‘Really don’t worry about it.’
I had experienced a surprisingly pleasant sleep last night and only now I was beginning to wake up, but as I came to my senses I realised that I was partially lying on someone!
Why is someone else in my bed?!
I panicked tightening my grip on them before bolting up and sitting on them and wrapping my hands around their neck! I then forced us off the bed and we rolled on to the floor! I could sense the pain the other person was feeling as a thud echoed around the room and I continued shutting off their air way, to frightened to realise who I was hurting...
‘Alexa it’s me don’t!’ It was only when I heard his voice did I look at him properly, it was Rendal!
I felt my eyes go wide as I stared at him for several moments before letting him go and retreating to my bed. My heart was racing and my hands began to shake a little, I had just attacked my best friend! Even after everything he did for me last night! I remembered what had transpired the night before and thought of how we came to be in that position in the first place....
‘S-Sorry.’ I shook my head, in disbelief of what I had just done.
How could I be so stupid?!
‘That’s ok....’ The boy replied, clearly trying to keep me from seeing how much pain he was really in.
‘Not it’s not, I hurt you!’
‘Really, it’s nothing, don’t worry about it.’ Knowing that he wouldn’t be able to get up on his own I then closed my eyes and used the Force to slowly and carefully lift Rendal into his wheelchair! ‘Thanks.’ He smiled once he was in it.
‘It’s the least I can do considering what I did to you.’ I replied rather ashamed.
‘Really don’t worry about it.’
‘How can I not worry about it?’ You were so kind to me last night and how do I repay you? By tackling you out of bed, pinning you to the floor and chocking you! I am a terrible friend...′ I sighed shaking my head, disgusted with myself.
‘No you’re not, you just panicked because you’re not used to finding another person sleeping in the same bed as you. I know you didn’t mean to do all that, it was just a reaction. It’s perfectly natural.’
‘Maybe, but I wish I’d remembered that it was just you.’
‘Really Alexa, don’t beat yourself up about it, please. I think you’ve beat me up enough for the both of us.’ He joked and we laughed together.
I smiled, our friendship might be weird, but at least I know he’ll always be there for me.