Jess felt stupid to go and see Rory earlier. He knew he was wrong and he messed up big time, but he is changed. All he wanted was for Rory to notice that in him. Well that and maybe to see her for the last time. He slammed his car door and went in the house he shared with his friends.
His hands trembles a little as he opens the door. He made his way to his room up stairs. A surge of pain course through his body, so painful that he grasps the stairs rail until his knuckles turns white. Holding anything he could supporting himself with so he could make his way to his room.
A coughing fit took over him and he sat quietly on his bed. Looking at the red speck on his palm, he somehow knows his time is getting shorter.
6 months ago Jess was diagnosed with a stage 4 lung cancer. Years of smoking is not helping either, or rather the main contributor. He was given 6 months to a year to live.
Almost 3 years ago he moved or ran from Stars Hollow as a punk. And now he is some what changed. With a little sister by his side, he is some how having the time of his life. Suddenly the world does make sense to him. Although luck seemed to be on his side, he felt somehow it is too late for him to change.
"Jess?" A voice that is too familiar to him said from the other room. "Is that you?" She asked. The upper floor has three separate rooms and occupied by four boys and a girl.
"Ya." Jess answered. His voice is a little coarse from all the coughing. Jess smiled to himself. Proud to be a brother to a noble little sister who he only knew through letters and occasional phone calls.
"Where've you been?" She asked as she was coming in Jess' room and sat beside him. "You scare me." She said.
"You missed me, Bella?" Jess teased.
"Very funny, Jess." Isabella leaned on Jess's shoulder. "I was worried." She looked up at her brother.
"I'm fine." Jess said wrapping one arm around Isabella's shoulder. "You worry too much you know." Jess said kissing her forehead.
"So, where were you?" Isabella asked seriously.
"Just distributing." Jess answered.
"I thought we agreed to go together." Isabella pouted.
"Hey, you're upset." Jess smiled. "What's wrong?" He asked.
"What's wrong?" she backed away just enough to see Jess' face. "What's wrong is you missed your appointment with your doctor and been gone for three days and didn't even bother to call." Her voice a mix of hurt and disappointed.
"You know where I went?" Jess asked.
"If I do, I wouldn't ask would I?" Isabella said.
"You know where I went. Bella, look." Jess started. "I'm fine."
"You're not fine, Jess." Isabella snapped. "You coughed out blood for god's sake. You missed your chemo-session again. And you drove too Connecticut, to see your ex girlfriend who, right now have no feelings what-so-ever for you." She said raising her voice.
"Okay, you're freaking me out. What's going on Isabella?" Jess asked carefully, trying not to raise his voice.
"Nothing. Forget it. Do whatever." Isabella said lowering her voice and starting to storm out of the room.
"No. no." Jess said grabbing Isabella's hand. "What's wrong? There's something you're not telling." He said.
"There's nothing. Okay." Isabella said sighing. "Let me go now?" Isabella said looking at Jess.
"No smiles?" Jess teased. Isabella rolled her eyes as she forced a smile on her face. "Sit." Jess instructed. Isabella did. She sat right in front of Jess. "I called you, Bella. You hate that. But you didn't say anything. You kept yammering at me but you had not said a word. You're angry, I understand. Now please, talk to me." Jess said trying to force a smile on Isabella's face.
"It's nothing. Really." Isabella said.
"Look at me." Jess said.
"I went to see dad." Isabella said raising her eyes to Jess' level. "Our dad."
"You did what? When?" Jess asked, shocked.
"Yesterday. I called Luke, but no one was there. Next place I thought you would be at is at Jimmy's." Isabella answered.
"What happened?" Jess questioned.
"He have no idea I existed. He didn't even remember my mom." Isabella said as her eyes rimmed with tears.
"Ah, princess, I'm sorry." Jess said hugging his sister.
"How can he forget, Jess? I'm I that worthless?" Isabella said between sobs.
"Hey, don't say that. You're not worthless." Jess said.
"I am. I lost my mother now I'm going to lose you. Why? What did I do to make god so angry at me?" Isabella said.
"You're not going to lose me. Not anytime soon." Jess said soothingly. Isabella looked up at him. "It's going to be okay." Jess said as he wiped Isabella's tears with his thumbs.
"I'm sorry." Isabella said.
"What for?" Jess asked.
"Getting angry at you for an invalid reason." Isabella said.
"I just have to get used to it." Jess teased. "Bella Brat."
"I'm not 10. I'm not going to hit you and you know that." Isabella replied, smiling a little.
"At least it got you smiling." Jess retorted. "Why won't you hit me again?" Jess said almost thinking. "Yeah, because I'm dying." He teased.
"Don't say that." Isabella uttered barely audible as a tear rolls down her cheek.
"Hey, it's just a joke." Jess said touching her hand. "And I like calling you Bella. It does sound better than Iz."