I woke up early in the morning due to my slight case of insomnia. To better prepare myself for the day I look a long shower. I put on my robes and let my medium-length black hair flow down my back with a Slytherin green headband on top. Typical look for me. I don't really wear makeup, mother used to say I had a model like face and no makeup was needed. The only thing I did was mascara. Eyelashes? What are those.
Pansy was still getting ready when I headed out to breakfast. I wasn't really in the mood to stop and socialize with anyone, so I found a spot at the Slytherin table where people didn't typically sit. I just wanted to be alone.
I'm assuming my friends got that when they came up to me, all of them gave me a look, then gave looks to each-other and walked away. The only one to stick around was Fred.
"Vic what's wrong?" He asked
"Just in low spirits" I said and smiled softly. Fred pulled me up out of my chair and wrapped his arms around me.
"I- Freddie" I said
"Sorry mate! You just looked like you could use a hug" he said smiling "I'll be off now" he kissed my forehead and went to join his twin brother.
I sat alone until it was time to go to charms class. Then I sat alone in that class too.
I wasn't really paying attention to Flitwick. I was too deep in though. I'd went to sleep yesterday in good spirits but when I woke up everything felt off. I didn't determine whether I liked the kiss with Fred or not, and I was beating myself up about it during breakfast. I was just about to doze off when I felt something hit my arm. I looked up and Malfoy was standing by my seat.
"What do you want?" I asked
"Flitwick said to partner up to practice spells, don't you listen?" He said harshly
"Oh- he did? I must have zoned off..sorry"
"Don't apologize to me you idiot" he said "anyway we're being partners because Zabini and Goyle partnered up"
"I- ok" I said.
Flitwick took us outside where we would practice spells as partners. Nobody was truly listening to Flitwick and everyone decided to just cast spells at people, harmful and non-harmful ones.
"Stop spacing out, stupid" Draco said for the 100th time
"Oh- sorry" I said, again and again.
Once I finally started to pay attention things started to get fun. Malfoy kept making me bursts into random fits of laughter with Rictusempra.
Some of the students next to us were using battle charms and one accidentally hit my making me fall down onto the concrete. Which hurt like a bitch, let me tell you.
Things went cloudy and my vision was blurred. I heard muffled yelling and saw Malfoy over me telling me to snap out of it. I looked at him, the best I could and managed my best "piss off" which came out very slurred. Then next thing I knew, everything was dark.
I heard mother weeping from the other room. Father had just died and she was a complete mess.
People would stop by often to check on her, ask her how she was doing. But never to check on me.
I'd cry often in my room, but only silent tears. I missed father so much.
Mother was so different now. She'd get upset at the littlest things and hit me whenever I messed up very slightly. I used to have to only wear long sleeves and jeans to cover up the marks she left.
I remember one time I was doing dishes, and I accidentally broke one of mother's favorite glasses. She's gotten so upset, she was yelling up a storm and telling me how she was tired of raising me alone. That I was a pathetic and worthless child and I didn't deserve the life or things I had. She'd end up taking one of the pieces from the glass and slicing my arms a bit. Her eyes were filled with complete rage.
Why mother? What did I do? Did I do something wrong? I'm so sorry mother. Please forgive me..
I'd spent a lot of time alone after that. Until Hogwarts I didn't have many friends. I just seemed to be falling...