I'm alone. Again.
All my friends are gone, they are all out to get me. At least, that's what Suna says.
I have no one besides him.
Suna said how he wanted me to wait for him in the courtyard by the water fountain so we could eat lunch together for weeks now. But he rarely shows up. So I stand in the middle of the courtyard, looking like an idiot. I've been trying to be the best girlfriend I could be for weeks,yet he barely tries anymore. I go to his practices and games. I gave him homework answers. Helped him cheat on tests. I made bento boxes for him. I loved him. I made an effort. I lost my virginity to this man in a car and he can't even show up to eat lunch with me? It makes me feel.
Sad. Wait no.......
Where the hell was he?
I take a deep breath and put my bento box and the bento I made for him into my bag. I decide to go check inside the school for Suna.
The sound of my shoes against the tiles and my clothes ruffling fills the hallways. That's until I walk down corridor B2. Moans. Is someone hurt?
Did I hear that right?
No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No.
I begin to run, the noises were coming from a storage closet. I stand in front of the door. The blinds are drawn and it looks dark since there in no light coming through the cracks. I felt myself tremble as I feel tears pricking the corners of my eyes. I inhale and slowly reach out a unsteady hand for the metal door knob.
"Ah~ Sydney you feel so good....."
"Better than you g-girlfriend-AH!"
"F-fuck, yeah, way better."
"I love you Suna."
"I love you too s-s-sweetheart....."
My heart clenches and I drop my hand to my side. I felt my blood run cold. Oh, so cold. For nothing could compare. It couldn't even be compared to the December winds in Japan. Not even the cold currents in California or the temperatures in Antarctica. I felt warm tears fall from my e/c eyes. I stare at the ground. He told her the three words he could never say to me.
Was it I wasn't good enough? Am I not skinny enough? Am I not pretty enough? Am I not smart enough? Am I not cool enough? Am I not funny enough? The list goes on. But what have I done to deserve this? I made him bento boxes, supported him at his games, gave my body to him, and gave him all my love. I fall to my knees, bringing the palms of my hands to my face. I cry softly as I hear the moans of the girl and my beloved Suna.
I felt a hand on my shoulder. I flinch and spin around, the familiar brown orbs look into my e/c ones.
She signals with one finger against her lips, telling me to be quiet. She helps me stand up and drags me away. She grabs my hand and drags me outside the school and brings me deep into the tree garden. She stops and lets go of my hand, her back facing towards me. Her long black hair and red scarf sway in the wind. She slowly turns around, looking sorrowful.
"I fucking hate Suna." She deadpans.
My breath hitches "You have no right saying that! You left me all alone! Only Suna was by my side! Not you!" I yell, I instantly slap a hand over my mouth.
She stares at me and burst out laughing.
"YOU THINK I CHOSE TO LEAVE YOU? YOU'RE MY BESTFRIEND! SUNA RUINED IT ALL! HE IS INTOXICATING YOU WITH HIS POISONOUS WORDS! I WAS BLACKMAILED INTO LEAVING YOU ALONE!" She yells while gripping my shoulders, shaking me violently.
I stare at her baffling "B-blackmailed?"
She scoffs "Suna threatened to leak lewd photos of me. They are on his phone, and only his phone."
My heart drops. She continues.
"Osamu misses you. Suna lied to you,he is lying to you. Osamu never said the things Suna has told you!"
I just stare as tears fall.
"HE DOESNT LOVE YOU! HELL, HE IS FUCKING ANOTHER GIRL IN THE STORAGE CLOSET!"
I let a small sob escape my lips.
"OPEN YOU'RE EYES Y/N! THIS ISNT A GAME! YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE!"
"YOU DESERVE BETTER." She yells, her breath is warm against my face. A contrast to Sunas cold breath and venomous words.
I break down crying and let out all the sobs and pain I've felt for months. I fall into her arms and she holds me. I cry and cry. All the times Suna has gaslighted me and hurt me physically resurfaces.
6 weeks earlier
His cold hand made contact with my neck and shoved me against a wall. He chocked me and I squirmed in his grasp, gasping for air.
"Jeez, you are a such a slut. Flirting with Sensei Shoto. Disgusting. How dare you hurt me? I'm your boyfriend. You need to respect me or I can't respect you. So I'll ask nicely, beg for my forgiveness." He deadpans.
I use my hands as I try to loosen his hand that was wrapped around my neck. My eyes were tearing up and I felt faint.
"I-I-I-I'm s-sorry, P-P-PLEASE?" I gasp.
He laughs and stares deeply into my eyes. I felt my eyes roll to back off my head due to he lack oxygen. He lets go and fall to my knees. I go to stand up before he places his foot on my shoulder.
"Say there for a second, so you learn. I'm above, you are below."
END OF FLASHBACK
I cry harder.
3 weeks earlier
"YOU BITCH WHY THE FUCK WERE LOOKING AT MY RECENT MESSAGES!" He yells.
"BECAUSE YOU DONT CARE FOR ME! YOU'RE TEXTING OTHER GIRLS!" I yell back.
"DONT RAISE YOU STUPID LITTLE VOICE AT ME" He yells and raises his hand with his phone, hurling it at me.
I don't have enough time to react before the hard electronic makes contact with my face. I stumble and yelp due to the impact. I grip my face and feel blood trickle from nose. Tears roll down my face as I look back up at him. He stares at me, he looks scared. He runs over to me hold me tightly. Rocking and whispering sweet nothings into my ear. He repeatedly apologized and told me he would never hurt me again.
END OF FLASHBACK
Loud sobs escape my lips. I feel Ashlee begin to cry too.
1 week earlier
"Ah fuck, loosen up a bit. You're so tight." Suna says as he rams himself roughly into me.
I try to take deep breaths but the feeling of him sliding in and out of me is euphoric and distracting.
"I l-love you, Rintaro-kun" I moan.
I look into his greenish yellow eyes. He stops his movements and stares down at me.
"Shut up and be good little slut, you take my cock so well.." He groans and continues aggressively shoving himself into me.
I cant even respond due to the state of pure bliss I was in.
END OF FLASHBACK
"FUCK HOW COULD I BE SO STUPID!" I cry and hug Ashlee tightly.
"IM SORRY ASHLEE! IM SO SORRY," I sob. She pulls back and looks me in the eyes. Tears roll down her porcelain cheeks.
"DONT BE! ITS HIS FAULT ! AND MINE! KUROO TOOK ADVANTAGE OF ME AT THE PARTY THAT NIGHT!" She cries and looks at the ground.
"FUCK HIM THEN!" I cry and pull her back into a hug.
"What are we gonna do?" She mumbles.
"I'll pretend for awhile, long enough so I can delete the photos of you." I say, staring into her brown eyes. She stares back at me in confusion.
"No. It'll get worse. You have to break up now." She says.
"NO! I won't let him leak those photos. I promise you." I say and wipe away her tears. I pull away and wipe my face, standing up slightly taller. I fix up my hair and look over my shoulder at her figure. She has gotten so skinny and frail, was it the thought of the photos being leaked that caused her to look like this? If so, I'll make sure those photos are eradicated entirely. I nod and smile before walking away, away from her embrace into his cold one. To have to listen to his melody of lies that he spoke. And the poison that leaked out of his full lips.
I see the water fountain from afar, Suna impatiently tapping his foot with his arms crossed. He looked slightly sweaty, he hair was a mess and his tie was loose. It was so obvious, I should have known. I approach him with a small forced smile.
"Hey Rintaro-" I begin.
"Where were you?" He asks.
"Erm, I went for a walk." I respond.
He stares at me skeptically. I look at him innocently. He smiles and shakes his head.
"Sorry, I had to talk to a teacher about my grades. That's why I was late." He chuckles.
I let out breathy fake laugh "Can I stay at your place tonight?"
"Sure, miss my body already?" He grins.
I squirm uncomfortably "Yeah totally!"
With that, he laced him fingers with mine and walked us towards a bench. In which we spent the remaining 10 minutes eating, in an unsettling silence.
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