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angst (can be triggering, read at your own risk)

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the day felt as if it wasnโ€™t ever going to end for (y/n). she trudged her way home, feeling more numb than usual.

she promised herself that it wasnโ€™t going to be today. that she could continue being โ€˜happyโ€™.

but hell, she didnโ€™t even know what being happy felt like anymore. her special boys came to mind, no matter how much she tried, she couldnโ€™t shake the feeling.

regret.

(y/n) tried so hard to be strong, to live, to actually be happy. but it seems as if the world didnโ€™t care.

she looked up at the moon from her bedroom window. the stars shined so bright, as if they knew what she was going to do that night.

a small horrific smile graced her lips as she thought of the peace sheโ€™d feel when she was gone.

opening her window, she could feel the breeze dancing through her hair. she wanted to feel that again, even though it was late, practically almost three in the morning, she climbed out of her window.

taking her bike, the one she used to ride so much, memories filled her head as she peddled down the road.

she knew exactly where she wanted to go.

(y/n)โ€™s heavy breathing filled the cold air around her, pinching her lungs. she calmly walked up the staircase of the abandoned building.

each step, she took she felt more and more at peace. it was as if she could just flow up them.

when she reached the top, she pulled out her phone.

the electronic lit up, giving her a view at her wallpaper. it was of her lovers and her, they had gotten icecream on that hot summer day.

and koutarou had accidentally dropped his, making keiji share.

she immediately started a call with the two of them. wanting to hear their voices once more.

keiji had heard the noisy mobile device wake him from his slumber. the caller id showing โ€˜my owlsโ€™, he instantly picked it up.

โ€œhello? (n/n), kou, what are you two doing up?โ€ keijiโ€™s groggy voice filled the air.

โ€œi wasnโ€™t up,โ€ koutarou finally spoke, not wanting to be scolded this late.

โ€œsorry, i couldnโ€™t sleep.โ€ (y/n) lied to her boyfriends.

โ€œdo you need us to come over? is something wrong?โ€ bokutoโ€™s voice perked up.

โ€œno no, i just..wanted to hear your voices one last time.โ€

those words grabbed akaashiโ€™s attention, making him get ahold of his senses.

โ€œ(y/n), (y/n) what do you mean by that? Where are you?โ€ he got up in a rush, grabbing a hoodie and shoes.

โ€œ[random/abandoned place], but it doesnโ€™t matter. not anymore. just know that i love you both, so much.โ€ she could feel the tears welling in her eyes and the lump in her throat grow.

bokuto had already woke his parents up to try and get to (y/n) before it was too late.

โ€œ(y/n), baby, please stay on the line, please.โ€ the desperation in bokutoโ€™s voice grew with every word.

โ€œiโ€™m so sorry, but you know that i will cherish everything we have.โ€ she sniffed, her voice breaking.

โ€œwhat about always and forever..?โ€ akaashi had already stormed out of the house, running frantically to where she was at.

his throat was burning but refused to cry, he wanted to believe they could save her.

โ€œsadly, always and forever will not be in this life. but i hope to meet you both in our next one.โ€ she moved her feet closer to the edge.

looking up, she saw the night sky, twinkling so bright.

โ€œi love you so much, keiji, koutarou. take care of one another, would you please?โ€

bokuto had been yelling for her to stop her movements and for the car to go faster.

akaashi slowed his steps, breathless, he begged her to stay.

a small โ€˜i love youโ€™ escaped her lips before she backed away, getting a running head start.

she flew off of the building, her phone still with her. the air surrounding her sounded like whispers, giving her chills on her way down.

her body hit the pavement, blood almost immediately seeping out of her delicate skull.

once her phone hit the ground, it busted, ending her end of the call.

the pain radiated through keiji as he was on his knees, tears flowing down his cheeks as he screamed.

bokuto refused to believe that she was dead, he wanted to marry her and keiji one day, she had to be alive.

his eyes filled with tears as his heart felt like it was ripped out of his chest.

โ€˜this isnโ€™t fair..โ€™ both of the boys thought strongly.

as the car neared the building, the headlights shone her body. which was now lifeless and covered in blood, her neck bent in a weird shape.

bokuto ran out of the car, almost instantly taking her dead body into his arms.

โ€œplease come back, please come back..โ€ he whispered over and over, cradling her bloody, lifeless body to his.

bokutoโ€™s mother gasped sharply at the state of his girlfriend. she immediately called an ambulance, however it was too late.

her blood was covered over his clothes, making the crime scene look even worse.

keiji finally had the strength to continue his saddened walk, pushing himself off of the ground.

his sniffled came about in the cold air, he neared the building, seeing bokuto cradling her body.

as he walked closer, the harsh pain in his throat grew and the empty pit in his abdomen was increasing.

keiji crouched down once again, his head in his hands.

he started blaming himself, thinking he should have kept a better eye for her. she would still be here if he had.

โ€œkoutarou, sweetie, please let go..โ€ his mother hiccupped, not wanting to finish the sentence.

meanwhile, his father had been on the phone with akaashiโ€™s parents, (y/n)โ€™s parents and the hospital.

โ€œno- i canโ€™t,โ€ his voice, now rough, cried out. clenching her body to his.

the remembrance of her last words had been running throughout both of their minds.

a loud siren sounded, flashing lights coming closer to the gore scene.

โœงโœฆโœงโœฆ

Itโ€™s been a week since (y/n) (l/n) committed suicide. it had been raining every since then, and the mood was a damper too.

the walls of the fukurodani academy were almost silent. but no one had been affected the most by her death except for two people. keiji akaashi and koutarou bokuto.

a week full of despair.

once again the sky clouded over, preparing itself for the heavy amount of rain it was going to release once again.

the boys had hardly shown up to school that week, much less practice.

being in each otherโ€™s embrace without (y/n) was too much.

while it being the end of the school day, akaashi had sat on the steps of the school when everyone left.

an empty feeling inside of him, numbness.

he was overwhelmed by his anxiety and fear most of the time. due to his life without you, his future, his grades.

until he just couldnโ€™t take it no more. keiji had unknowingly walked to the building you once stood at. letting the rain wash over him, trying to sooth him.

he finally let it out, a long painful scream sounded through the air and the harsh rain. he started releasing his tears, sobbing loudly, it being covered by the rain.

pulling out his phone, he texted his last living lover. it was a simple, i love you.

unknowingly, bokuto had been visiting the building everyday because it was the last place you were at.

while he walked up the stairs, he got a ping from his messages. not seeing a double meaning behind keijiโ€™s text, replied. but a sinking feeling filled him.

he opened the door to see akaashi fall from the edge of the building. his eyes widened, reaching out to him, but he was too far away.

koutarou held his hand near his chest, putting his head down. It was as if electricity had struck him.

it wasnโ€™t fair.

he had lost both of his loves in a span of two weeks. it wasnโ€™t fair, he put his hand in his hands.

โ€œwill you forgive me if i jump too?โ€ he said to them, hoping that theyโ€™d heard him from wherever they were.

the sudden realization sparked in his brain, if he goes, heโ€™ll see them.

he yearned for them, their life, their touch, the happiness.

koutarou walked and looked down at his lovers body. the rain flooding his blood, making it stream downwards.

flashbacks of the same thing happening to (y/n). he swallowed harshly, letting his tears mix in with the rain.

he slowly turned around, putting his arms up. bokuto wasnโ€™t thinking of anyone else, there wasnโ€™t anyone in the world he would want more then them.

โ€œsee you soon.โ€

koutarou fell back from the building, his heart racing. it all seemed surreal, peacefulness wrapped around him as he plummeted downwards.

his body laid close to one of his lovers on the black pavement.

a entire new feeling took over his senses, he opened his eyes to see no rain but two people.

they had watery eyes, holding each others hand and one out for him to take it.

koutarou rushed into their arms, the embrace of his partners relaxing him.

no words were spoke except, โ€œalways and forever, right?โ€

(a/n): the story is over from here but i want to write in first person from when reader-chan jumped. you can exit if youโ€™d like)

i felt peace surround me, as if all my worries were taken away.

seeing the situation in front of me. my body laying in a weird manner. i mentally gagged, i did look disgusting.

i watched my lovers arrive at the scene, but when i saw them a dreading feeling came about.

one week.

their death is in one week, iโ€™m not sure how or why but i knew.

i had been watching them this entire time, i even went to my own funeral, which was kind of a power move.

my partners tears werenโ€™t something i liked to see though. the days of school that they skipped, the lack of practice. i didnโ€™t mean to cause any pain to them, i just wanted to be selfish once in my life.

i hoped that theyโ€™d be strong together so they wouldnโ€™t die yet. however, everytime they did see each other, they would burst into tears almost immediately.

sighing, i sat beside Akaashi, his head in his hands while he sat on the school steps.

i watched the tears roll down his pretty face, looking away because i knew i couldnโ€™t do anything to help him.

he picked himself up, leaving his school bag on the steps. i followed him to the building where i had committed suicide a week ago.

hearing him break down, broke my heart. iโ€™m sure no one wants to see their significant other painfully cry.

knowing what was about to come, i headed down the steps, i wanted to meet him there.

i froze when i saw Koutarou, he was on his phone, which lit up his face. his eyes were sucken in a bit and i could see the red after marks from his tears.

peeking over his shoulder as i heard his phone ping, it was a text from akaashi. stating an, i love you. my eyes widened as i booked it around the building.

when i came around, i saw keijiโ€™s body fall off the building. It almost looked as if he was smiling.

tearing my eyes away from him as his body cracked on the ground.

looking around, i was met by a frantic looking akaashi.

running up to him, i embraced him in a longing hug. tears pricking my eyes because i was met with him once again but he had died.

โ€œkeiji,โ€ i buried my head into his chest as he squeezed my body close to his.

โ€œi missed you so much..โ€ he cupped my face, salty tears running down his face.

โ€œi missed you more,โ€ i paused, hearing bokuto say something from the top of the building.

โ€œwhatโ€™s wrong?โ€

โ€œitโ€™s kou, heโ€™s coming.โ€ i buried my head into his chest once again, not wanting to see his death either.

when i was sure he had fallen, i peeked my eyes open, seeing him.

engulfing us both into a hug as i felt our bodies trembling by each otherโ€™s.

โ€œalways and forever, right?โ€ i heard bokuto say, his voice muffled.

โ€œalways and forever.โ€ akaashi and i whispered back.

now i knew why i hadnโ€™t moved on when i died. i was waiting for them. but now that their here, we all could finally start a better life together, in the afterlife.

cherishing each otherโ€™s bounded souls.

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