one: the kiss
I walked with Draco to the train station. Narcissa and Lucius felt we didn’t need them, and neither of us minded it.
“Have you heard from Theo yet?” Draco asked.
“No, he hasn’t answered my last couple of letters. I’m just hoping to see him on the train.”
Draco and I didn’t talk any longer as we walked onto the train. There hadn’t been any sign of Theo, but we did see some of our other friends. Well, they were technically just Draco’s friends. My only friends were truly Theo and Blaise, and the people we saw were Crabbe, Goyle, and Pansy.
I was sitting in the compartment with the four other Slytherins, barely listening to their boring conversation. I shot up in my seat when I saw Theo.
I was about to walk out of the compartment when Pansy grabbed my hand. “Where the hell are you going?”
“None of your business, Parkinson.” I tore my arm from her grasp, and ran to Theo.
He saw me, and at first he looked surprised, but then looked happy. “Hey, you,” Theo smiled.
“Theodore Sileo Nott, why have you ignored the letters I sent you?” I yelled.
He grabbed my arm and pulled me into an empty compartment. He shut the door and cast the silencing spell just in case I screamed. He pushed my back against the door and hovered over me.
“I’m waiting for an answer,” I said.
“Don’t give me that attitude, Scar,” he demanded. “I just got busy.”
“Bullshit. I want the real reason.”
He backed away from me and ran his fingers through his hair. “I don’t know, okay? I saw your letters, read them, but I couldn’t respond,” he mumbled.
“What do you mean you couldn’t respond? Did I do something? Are you mad at me? Did something happen that you’re not telling me about?”
“No, I just- I couldn’t, alright?” Theo sat down on the seat, so I walked over to him. He saw my eyes start to water due to the confusion and hurt I felt, so he pulled me to straddle his lap. “I’m sorry.”
“I waited and waited for your response. I looked so incredibly stupid telling everyone you were going to come with us to the Quidditch World Cup. I stood outside my house thinking your letter just got lost somehow and you were going to show up,” I cried.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
“You didn’t show up, Theo. You didn’t show up.”
“I’m sorry, Scar,” he said with tears starting to form in his eyes.
“Sorry doesn’t work right now, Theo.”
“Just hold me for the train ride, would you?”
“I got you,” he said while wrapping his arms around me. He started to run his fingers through my black hair to calm me down, and it worked.
I dropped my head against the seat of the train, and in turn, Theo placed his head in the crook of my neck. He placed a few gentle kisses on my skin, but this was normal. We would both occasionally give a forehead, neck, or even a cheek kiss to one another. It was just another way of saying ‘I’m right here’.
I felt Theo inhale the scent of my hair, which made me giggle. “Your hair smells nice,” he laughed.
I smelled some of his and responded, “So does yours.”
We talked about little things for the rest of the train ride, not moving from the current position. We found out we were at school when Blaise barged into our compartment.
“Whoa- Hey, lovebirds,” Blaise said.
Theo and I rolled our eyes. “What do you want?” I asked.
“No need to bite my head off, Scar. Just wanted to let you guys know we’re at school. Figured you were together and didn’t feel like hearing you complain if a teacher found you,” Blaise snickered and ran off.
I looked at Theo and we both laughed. “You go. I’ll meet you outside. I just need to take care of something really fast,” Theo said.
As I got off of his lap, I understood what he meant. I looked down at the bulge in his pants, blushed, and then ran off the train. I saw Blaise and went to him.
“Where’s Theo?” He asked.
“Oh, uh- He had to do something with his,” I stuttered while gesturing to his pants.
“Got it,” Blaise laughed. “You really did a number on him in there didn’t you?” Blaise winked.
“Oh my Salazar, no! I was just sitting on his lap. He’s just a horny git,” I said, pushing a laughing Blaise away from me. “We should probably wait for him.”
“We’re going to be so late.”
“No we won’t, but if you wanna get there early, go ahead. I’m waiting,” I stated.
“You know I can’t leave you. Not to mention, Theo would kill me,” Blaise laughed.
We waited for Theo for about twenty minutes. He came out of the train with a flushed face, and when he saw us, his eyes widened. “What are you guys doing? You didn’t have to wait for me,” Theo said, swinging an arm around my shoulder.
“We were being polite,” I spat.
“I would’ve done things faster if I knew you were going to wait,” Theo laughed and so did Blaise. I sent both of them a glare, but Theo just laughed. He kissed the top of my head while walking. “I’m sorry, love. We shouldn’t be late though, so don’t worry.”
“I’m not,” I responded quickly.
“You angered her, Nott. Never a good thing to do,” Blaise whispered to Theo, but he wasn’t as quiet as he thought.
“Piss off, Zabini,” I said. He just put his hands up in defense and we all laughed.
We walked to the carriages that pulled us and I saw the bony creature that pulled them. I reached my hand up to touch it, like I had every time I saw it. “I still don’t know what these are called,” I whispered.
“I swear you two are insane. You both see whatever it is, and I don’t,” Blaise laughed.
“I don’t know why you can’t see it. It’s almost like a horse,” Theo said, looking mesmerized at the creature.
“I see them too, you know?” An angelic blonde announced from the carriage.
The three of us got on it with her and sat down. “You do?” Blaise asked, looking the same way at the girl as Theo did with the creature.
“Yes. It’s called a Thestral. The legend is only those who have witnessed death can see it. I saw my mother die when I was younger. An awful sight,” the girl said.
My heart sunk in my chest at her words. “I watched my mother die too,” Theo mumbled. My heart sunk even more because I knew Theo hated to talk about his mother’s death.
“I’ve never seen anyone die though. How can I see it?” I asked myself. No one said anything, so I introduced myself to the girl. I stuck my hand out to her. “I’m Scarlett Lestrange, but you can call me Scar if you’d like. This is Theo Nott and Blaise Zabini,” I smiled while pointing to the boys as I introduced them.
“Nice to meet you. I’m Luna; Luna Lovegood,” she responded with a smile while shaking my hand back.
“Nice to meet you, Luna,” Blaise muttered.
The four of us walked into the Great Hall just in time. Theo, Blaise, and I walked to the Slytherin tables while Luna walked to the Ravenclaw one.
We had all been sitting at the table waiting for Dumbledore to talk, but once he did, all I could do was drown him out. I had been so hungry, I couldn’t focus on his speech. I did hear something about a Triwizard Tournament though.
“But now please join me in welcoming the lovely ladies of the Beauxbatons Academy of Magic, and their headmistress, Madame Maxime,” Dumbledore announced. We all looked at the door to see multiple girls dressed in blue.
They weren’t just any girls though, they were angels. At least, that’s what some of the guys said as they whispered around me. I saw Blaise watching them walk in, so I looked at Theo to see if he had been too. I didn’t care, but I was curious.
I looked to my left and saw who Theo was looking at. He hadn’t been looking at anyone from the school, he had been looking at me. He smiled at me, so I smiled back.
“And now our friends from the North. Please greet the proud sons of Durmstrang, and their headmaster, Igor Karkaroff,” Dumbledore added. After he said this, multiple boys ran into the room. Some of them were attractive, but not my type. I could see and hear some of the girls’ reactions, and they were loving it.
I put my head on my hand as I watched them all walk in, but quickly moved when I felt something. Theo brought up two of his fingers to brush against my cheek. I turned to face him. He brought his fingers up to hold my chin, and it sent butterflies through me. I had never felt like this with Theo. Sure, we had moments where we would get butterflies or something, but the amount of times he has been making me blush today is unbelievable.
“This is all pretty crazy, yeah?” Theo spoke, his hand still on my chin.
“Yeah,” I mumbled. He moved his hand down to my neck and ran his fingers up and down it. I think he noticed my breath start to become shaky because he just chuckled.
Once the food appeared in front of us, we started to eat. We had been eating for a little while and nothing happened other than small conversations. I don’t know what was going through Theo’s head at the moment, but as soon as I took a sip from my drink, he placed his hand on my thigh. I nearly spit my water up.
“Scar, are you alright? You’re acting weird,” Blaise said.
“I’m fine. Just drank it too fast,” I lied. I turned to Theo to see his large smirk. “What are you doing?” I whispered in his ear.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about, Scarlett,” he whispered back. I got chills when he used my full name. He barely ever did. Only when he was mad at me or he was trying to fluster me.
He moved his hand closer to the inside of my thigh. He ran his fingers up and down my thigh, never letting me forget he was there. Theo would occasionally brush his fingers over my core, which caused me to whimper.
The dinner went on as normal, but after a while Dumbledore spoke up about the tournament again. I tried to drown him out since it didn’t really affect me since you had to be seventeen to enter, not that I would’ve entered in the first place. The whole room started to shake from the sky, but the sky was calmed down once Madeye Moody put it out. He was apparently our new Defense Against the Dark Arts professor.
The rest of the week started to go on normally, but Theo started to act weird. He would constantly flirt with me and show affection, but after a couple days he just stopped. I hadn’t figured out why, but after he did this, I knew why.
Daphne, Astoria, Pansy, Lilith, and I were all sitting in a corner in the common room when Theo came over. “Hey, Lilith, can I talk to you for a minute?” Theo asked. He was avoiding eye contact with me, so I knew something was wrong.
“Yeah,” she said while getting up. They walked over to an empty area in the common room. I couldn’t really hear what they were talking about, but I heard the aftermath. “Yes! I would love to be your girlfriend, Theodore,” Lilith screamed.
My heart dropped in my chest. I had never been so utterly confused in my life. Theo had been flirting with me for days, not to mention that day on the train. Lilith also treated me like shit. No one gave me a harder time than Lilith Deluxe. Why did he ask her out? I’m his best friend. He would’ve told me if he was interested in her. It has to be some sort of love potion. Right?
They had been together for about two weeks, and it was the worst two weeks of my life. I had barely talked to Theo, but that’s because he’s too busy sucking Lilith’s face. I tried talking to Blaise about it, but he just told me it wasn’t going to last long. I hoped it didn’t. I wanted my best friend back.
That night, I went up to the astronomy tower to look at the stars. I either did that because I was stressed or the sky was filled with light, and right now, it was both.
I sat on the edge gazing up into the night sky. I let the past two weeks memories roam through my mind. While thinking of the way Theo acted on our first day versus the past week, I figured out something I didn’t want to admit. I liked Theo. I had feelings for my best friend.
I quickly shook my head to get the thoughts out because I can’t like Theo. That’s not how it is supposed to go.
I sat on the edge for a little while longer until I heard footsteps approaching me. I didn’t turn around at first because I knew who it was. No matter what was going on with us, he always found me up here.
I finally turned around to face Theo. “Hi,” I mumbled.
“What are you doing?”
“Watching the stars,” I responded quickly.
“Mind if I join?”
“Not at all.” With that Theo sat down besides me, but he sat awfully close. My mind was filled with the thoughts of Theo and Lilith immediately. I didn’t want to ask him about her, but I literally couldn’t stop myself. “Why her?”
“Why are you dating Lilith?”
“You know how she treats me, your best friend. I thought I meant more to you than that,” I whispered, tears threatening to break the surface.
“You do. You mean the absolute world to me,” Theo said while looking at me. My eyes were still glued to the sky. I didn’t want him to see how hard it was for me not to cry right now.
“Then why her?” I asked again.
“It’s not like I have any other people interested in me,” he said, still looking at me. I scoffed, and, in turn, he brought his hand up to my cheek. He turned my face to finally look at him. “I don’t, Scarlett.”
Neither of us said anything, but we didn’t have to. Our faces started to lean in closer, but we stopped before doing anything. “Theo, make sure you think about this before doing it because it will change everything,” I whispered.
“Trust me, I think about doing it all the time,” he whispered back. He moved his hand down to my neck and pulled me into him.
Our lips crashed and nothing has ever felt so right. Kissing Theo set something off in my brain. There was nothing that could ever amount to how amazing this felt.
Theo backed up against the wall and brought me up to straddle his lap. His hands roamed everywhere on my body, and mine were in his hair. They grabbed and pulled on his long brown locks.
Theo ran his tongue along my lips and grabbed my ass. When he squeezed my ass, it caused me to moan in his mouth, and he took the chance to slip his tongue into my mouth. He explored everywhere almost as if he didn’t know when he would get to do this again. However, for me, I never wanted this to stop.
I unknowingly rocked my hips against his, which caused Theo to moan in my mouth. The chills he sent through my body were so euphoric, I knew I needed to feel that again. I continued to rock my hips, and Theo continued to moan.
We kept doing that for what felt like forever, but Theo pulled away breathless. “Princess,” he whispered. The new nickname, I had never been called before, gave me hundreds of butterflies. “If you keep moving on me like that, things are going to escalate.”
I placed my forehead on his and sighed. I had never told Theo this before, but I was a virgin. Sure, I had done things with other guys, but I haven’t fully been with one. I always thought I would lose it to Adrian Pucey since we had an on and off thing, but now everything was different. I think I wanted it to be Theo. I mean, out of everyone, he’s the person I’m most comfortable with. I just didn’t want it to be gone yet. I wasn’t ready.
I looked in Theo’s eyes and he looked in mine. “What is this? Everything’s different now, so what are we?” I asked bluntly.
“Scar, I’m still dating Lilith,” he mumbled.
“Bu-But what about us and what just happened?” The tears were starting to form again.
“I want to be with you. I always have, but I just can’t break up with Lilith yet,” he said, running his fingers through my dark hair.
“Give me one good reason why you can’t break up with her.”
“I don’t like her, Scarlet. I like you. It’s not like that. I only asked her out for a dare, and I can’t break that dare.”
“Why not? It’s just a stupid dare.”
“It’s more than that. At the beginning of every year, the Slytherin boys are each given a dare, and if they break it, they have to do something bad in return. So I decided to go with my dare because I can’t hurt-” He stopped himself.
“I just can’t do it, alright? My dare is to make her fall in love with me, and that is what I am going to do. The second she says ‘I love you’ I am ending it. I promise.”
“What if you fall in love with her in the process?” I asked, tears slipping down my cheeks.
Theo brought his thumb up to wipe them away. “I won’t, and I can’t anyways. I’m already in love with someone else,” he whispered, sneaking a kiss on my cheek.
I blushed at his words. “So what does this mean for us? We have to wait until she confesses her love for you?”
“We could always sneak around behind everyone’s back and keep doing this,” Theo suggested.
“Like an affair?” I giggled.
“Yup. It would serve Lilith right from all the times she hurt you.” I think Theo could tell I was thinking about it because he just chuckled. “C’mon, Princess, it’ll be fun.”
“Fine, but only if you promise to never stop calling me ‘princess’,” I laughed.
“I promise you with my dying breath,” Theo said before kissing me on the lips.
We stood in the Astronomy Tower for a little while longer before Theo walked me back to my room. We both set off and dreamed about all of the things that were going to come from our lustful affair.
HI GUYS! Wow, so I can’t believe I am writing my second fanfic. If you haven’t read my first one it’s called “Fearless Love” and it is with Fred Weasley. I am going to try and update as much as I can, but it can get tricky with school.
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