Discussion With A Side Of Injury
I was four months pregnant, and god did it feel weird. The small baby bump had turned into a small sized round ball jutting out from my stomach. I put my dish in the sink and leaned against the counter. Jacob had left around half an hour ago to go to the Cullen's.
He had told me he needed to talk to Renesmee about what he was going to do about this whole situation. I sighed and pushed myself off the counter ledge. I wasn't myself anymore, I hadn't been a bitch for a long while.
Somehow, I couldn't find it in me to act like that anymore. I got what I wanted so far, I'm going to be having twins in five months, I have this amazing house, and that's about it. I won't say I have Jacob, cause at the moment, I don't think I do.
I felt like shit for Renesmee though, because I didn't know what Jacob was going to do. AS odd as it sounds, I feel bad for pretty much breaking them up. I noticed the steady stream of tears trickling down my cheeks.
I sank down onto the floor, and hugging my knees I did something I haven't done for a while.
"What do you mean she left? Where did she go, who did she go with?" I asked Edward. We were standing on the front porch of his house.
"She left around about an hour ago with Seth; he asked if they could go down to First Beach and talk about, the situation at hand" Edward said. I was a bit shocked that Seth had come by, to comfort Nessie. Well at least someone was there for her, unlike me.
"Don't think like that," Edward said, grinding his teeth.
"I'll think whatever I want to, and what's it to you anyways?" I asked, trying my best to keep my cool. No need to phase right in front of Edward, no matter how fun it would be to see him jump.
"Because, no matter who the person is, they have no right to think that they are any less significant then everyone else," Edward said.
"Yeah, whatever so why aren't you upset that I'm pretty much breaking your daughter's heart?" I asked, I had to admit it was strange how surprisingly calm he was acting.
"I understand your situation, on one hand you need to be with Leah because she's carrying your kids, but on the other hand you want to be with Renesmee" He said, well at least he was right. However, he was a mind reader, when was he suddenly wrong.
"You know, no matter how much you say you understand, you really don't I'm on the verge of breaking a girl's heart, you can't possibly have any idea how that feels. I don't mean to be rude but yeah," I said. There was a lasting silence between us until Edward spoke up.
"No, but I did stop a girl's heart" he said, looking behind him into the living room where I could see Bella. I guess he did understand, a bit but still not enough to know how I was feeling right now.
"I know, I uh, got to go back to Leah now tell Nessie I came by okay" I said, he nodded and I ran back to the house.
I heard the door click as Jacob came inside. He was back already. That was a quick talk. He came over to the couch I was sitting on and sat down beside me. I turned my attention to the T.V.
My eyes were still really red from all the crying and Jacob would think it was odd that I was crying while watching Two and a Half Men. Plus, I didn't feel like explaining everything to him right now.
He must have caught on that I was crying, because he sure noticed my eyes weren't normal.
"Leah, why were you crying?" Jacob asked, getting a bit closer to me, I just shook my head.
"Nothing, Jacob you don't need to be worrying about me" I said, Jacob for one looked like he just someone being shot. He didn't buy it, but of course Jacob had some brains in the field of lie detection. Just ask Bella.
"Leah, no one cries during Two and a Half Men, now something is wrong, and right now it is my job to worry about it" He said, I shot a look at him but that didn't even make him flinch at the least.
"Everything! It's all bothering me! Jacob in five months I'm going to be having twins and this thing going between Renesmee, you and myself is exhausting me right out. I'm anything but okay and I shouldn't be feeling the way I'm feeling now! This really isn't helping me feel any more confident about becoming a mother!" I shouted at him, jumping up off the couch and standing in front of him.
"Leah, you also have no idea how hard this is for me! I've got myself tied right up, I mean I have to care for you because this mess is half my fault but on the other side of things, I'm still trying to figure out what's going to happen with Nessie and I" He shouted also getting up.
He put himself right in front of me, and Jacob being the giant he was freaked me right out. I took a step back and tripped over the carpet. I felt onto my back on the hard floor. The pain shooting up my spine made me gasp. This could not be good for the babies.
Jacob was beside me in a second, he had one arm behind my back helping me get up. I swear I was becoming like fucking Bella now. I laughed at that thought, mind reader wouldn't take too well to me bashing on his wife.
"You okay?" Jacob asked, sounding concerned I nodded and leaned against him. Right now, I didn't really care that I was showing all these feeling for Jacob Black.
"It would seem every time we start yelling at each other I'm the one who falls down" I said, he just laughed lightly.
"Yeah, I know, you really need to stop being such a Bella" He said, I laughed even harder and if I could I would have doubled over too. However, I learned when I got up this morning that doing that made my back somewhat hurt.
"Funny, I was just thinking that same thought, I was also thinking I really want to sit down my lower back really hurts now," I said as we made our way to the couch. Jacob sat down first and then pulled me onto his lap. My head was just below his shoulder.
"I wonder why" He said, smiling my favorite smile. Sheesh Jacob sure knew how to please a girl, and not just in bed. Not that he wasn't good he was fantastic, but I will not get into that because an expression will appear on my face and it won't be pretty.
"Yeah, so when do you think you're going to talk to Nessie?" I asked, I already knew that he hadn't talked to her yet.
"Soon Leah, you don't need to worry 'cause no matter what happens I'll still stay and help you out" He said, pulling me in closer, and kissing the top of my head.
I wondered if our kids would have his sexy charm.