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Do you know that moment, when you're dying and all your life flashes in front of your eyes?
All I see is her. That young women, my brave one, you are all I see.
They didn't know, of course they didn't. Nobody knew. He would kill me and they, well I
have never met them. The One who survived and Ginger kid, I'm not sure what they would do
to you. From that moment in the Ministry on, you were on my mind and apperently I was on
yours. You came on one of ours missions-I saw you hidden behind the tree. I said nothing-
our mission was to kill mudbloods. And we did. After, they appareted to their homes or in
headquarters and I appareted behind you. You were scared I saw it in your eyes when you
turned around and then you saw that it was me and it was gone. You held no fear in your eyes.
I didn't understand why there was no fear. That moment you looked into my soul. I knew I
had to run. Run from the eyes who saw me, just me and not murderer everybody else saw.
I tried. I swear to Merlin I did. I tried to stay away and not to find you. But I quickly gave
up. Two weeks later I appareted near Hogwarts. I saw you and others walking to the edge of
forest- Care of Magical Creatures. You saw me and looked towards me- Ginger asked you
where are you looking and you just gave him that adorable angry glance and he just turned
went to Hagrid and said something and you left. In the shadows I followed.
''Why are you here?'' you asked
''I don't know.'' I really didn't.
''Why aren't you trying to kill me?'' again question I don't know answer on. You
continued, before I had a chance to speak
''Why can't I forget your eyes?'' you said turning towards me. ''Why is impossible for me
to sleep at night? Why every time I close my eyes I see your face? What are you doing to
''I don't know.'' my honest response. ''I can not say that I know the reason for your troubles
or mine. I can not stop thinking about you. You are all that's on my mind. And I know it
shouldn't be like that. You and I are on opposite sides. You fight for one thing and I for...
I don't know for what anymore. It dosen't matter, we aren't on the same side. And I know
you are Muggle born and still I can't stop thinking about you. I was raised to hate people like
you, yet I can't help but to feel my heartbeat quicken every time I see you.''
''So, what now? What are we going to do? We aren't suposed to see each other and let
alone near Hogwarts. You shouldn't be here.'' you said
''Meet me tonight by The Black lake, please come.'' I said and appareted.
You came that night. And every night after. You took Harry's Invisibility Cloak and came to me. He said nothing to Ron- I knew the boy was in love with you and that he was the best choice for you. But I still didn't had a heart to let you go. We were there every night for three weeks, just you me and the beach. Every night you fell asleep in my arms, your head beneath my chin, your small beautiful body against my own. You were so light, like a feather. We talked about you, muggle world and me and my history. Our last night on the beach. You said that love is finding someone who completes you, makes you angry and joyfull at the same moment. A person who knows you will cry even before you feel tears, whose arms will always be open for you and whom you will never forget. You said that you found the love of your life and that you were in her arms. I was never happier. I sweared to you that you were the love of my life. And I didn't lie. You kissed me and I made love to you. We weren't careful that night. You fell asleep naked on my naked body, I was woken up by first rays of sunshine. You were so beautiful in that moment, I saw a figure walking towards us. I woke you up and we just had time to half dress when we saw it was him. Dumbledore. He never drew his wand or tried to stop us. Love conquers all, he just said that. He took you that day to a cabin. We spent our remaining days there. You would come at night and leave by the morning. So did I. They didn't know you were gone. Only one who did were Albus and Minerva. She didn't understand but still supported you. I didn't understan too, why me? Me, murderer and cold bitch me, the one who has nothing to offer to you. Love dosen't see it that way, my heart dosen't see it that way you said. My heart has chosen you because you are my other half, you said. Then Dumbledore died and Golden Trio run away. I didn't know where were you, I was so scared but you manged to come to me again. And you keept coming every second day.
Narcissa knew something happened, she was still my sister. Rod never knew anything, we shared a house not our hearts or beds. He never find out. But then they bringed you to me.
I said I will torture you. I whispered into your ear that I love you. You said, do what you must. Scream like it's the worst pain in the world I said. Crucio. Crucio. Yelling. Crucio. I tried not to use my full strenght. And Cissy saw. You were hurt but not as you were supposed to be. I picked you up and hold my knife to your throat, whispering I'm sorry. I saw that elf and let it be, I pushed you to Ginger you were gone. I didn't think you would come that night, still I came. But you were there-crying in my arms. We fell on the floor. I carried you to our bed. The next morning they found out you were gone. Ginger and Harry started to yell and scream at you. You appareted back while I was still there. After you calmed down you went back. My heart broked a little. All this you had to gone through because of me.
I knew it was going to be our last night together. You knew it too.
''We can run away.'' you said
''Where would you want to go?''
''Somewhere abonded, somewhere we could be alone. Surrounded with woods and I would like to have a dog and a horse. Big, black horse. Somewhere far away from this world.''
''If we survive this and you still want it, we'll go.'' liar I said to myself, I knew if they win I'll be sent to Azkaban. If we win, she would be dead. We won't win. I know. They have love on their side. Either way WE won't win.
''Promise me?'' she asked lifting up her head from my cheasts. '
'Yes, I do. I would do anything to make you happy.'' true, I would.
We made love whole night. I kissed every part of her body. I needed to savour the smell, the taste of her body. I need to have it memorised in my mind. Forever. She came on my arms so many times that night. I remember her hair pulled back, her body covered with sweat and illuminated with fire from the fire place. Her moans and whimpers filled the room. I worshiped her body and she did the same to me. She played me like Paganini played the violin.
Time to say goodbye.
''Don't you dare to die today. Do you understand Hermione?''
''I won't die I promise.'' you aren't sure, of course you aren't. Nobody knows if we'll live.
''You are the only light in my dark world. You are a person full of a compasion, full of pasion and joy. Smart and stuningly beautiful. And you are the love of my life.'' this is probably the last time I'll get to say this.
'' You are the love of my life. You showed me myself. You are my other half, and I love all of you, dark and light combined. This short period of time were the happiest in my whole life. I love you and always will. You had my heart with first breath you took away from me. You had it from the day my eyes saw you.''
I took two chains from my pocket. On both a ring. Indetical rings. I gave you one and put another around my neck.
''I know we can't be married now, but if we survive this, I will marry you. And if I don't survive then this ring will always show you how much I loved you. It will show my will to be forever yours.''
''I am forver yours. No matter what happenes. Forever and always. Just yours. You are the only one who can make me feel like this.''
Last kiss. We parted with tears in our eyes.
He died, I knew he would. I saw her fighting and I saw something red headed near me and then I felt pain. I fell, I heared a scream. I saw her runing towards me. And now I see her sweet eyes looking down on me with tears in them, she is telling me to stay and I do try but I can't because darkness is all I can see.
''I love you'' I whisper.