You were still in denial.
In situations like this it’s hard to move on, you know. Especially when you loved them the most.
Right now you were cuddled up around your blanket, crying nonstop. You knew somehow you needed to pour out your feelings somewhere, so you got your diary.
“You know my biggest fear was losing him,I knew one day it would have happened but I didn’t expect for it to be so soon. Now I have to face it.
I wished i kissed you longer that last time
I always told myself “don’t get too attached something bad will happen” and i wish i would have listened
You were the light to my life
Fuck i would do anything just to hug you one last time
I want to go back in time
Go back when we first said our “I love you’s”
Back when we admitted our feelings for eachother
When you showed me love
When we would talk for hours
Back when we were happy
Now i will have to live on with our memories”
Timeskip to 4/11/21
Today was the day, where many people pay their respect to Kuroo.
Many people went. It was mostly half of the school,Karasuno’s volleyball team & Fukurodani’s volleyball team also.
Kuroo was known for his kindness and many other things which is why a lot of people respected him.
His death really shocked most people
His parents decided it was best for the casket to be closed during the ceremony out of respect for him.
The ceremony had begun around 7:30 pm and the priest had just started talking.
After 30 minutes of talking he ended his sentence with “the lord look kindly on you and gave you peace, Amen”
It was now time for his parents to give out a speech which took another hour of them talking about how good their son was and how much they will miss him.
It was now for kenma speech you weren’t too sure about it since he has social anxiety but he insisted. Surprisingly, the ones who didn’t want to talk were Bokuto and Akaashi. You knew it would have been hard for them so you respected their decision.
“Man i don’t know where to start, i guess i’ll start off with this.
Welcome everyone today we are gathering here to say goodbye to one hell of an amazing person.
He was an amazing person and most importantly a good friend
I’m glad I got to meet you man. This whole thing is hard for me. It feels like yesterday you were telling me how you were going to be successful and marry y/n and I laughed at you saying something like “dream on, she’ll probably won’t marry you” times like those were amazing, i hate the fact i took advantage of those conversations.
I love you kuroo thank you for everything, you fought well
Look after me, yeah?”
And that was his speech it may have seemed a little bit but you knew that Kenma would rather keep to himself instead of expressing his actual feelings to everyone.
Now it was time for yours
“Hi everyone i would like to say a few words but I’m going to keep it short since I can’t stand the attention here.
Kuroo was an amazing person, words can’t express how much I will miss him. I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t want us moping around but he would want us to move on, be happy and live our lives”.
You paused for a moment thinking what to say next.in situations like these were your weakness.
“Give me a moment please” you exclaimed
“Our time together may have been cut short but the happiness we shared will be forever, a lifetime. I will continue to mourn the loss of my boyfriend but I will find comfort in the knowledge that he loved me until the end.
But this isn’t goodbye,but a thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and loving me. Thank you for all the memories I will never forget, but instead cherish forever.”
After your speech other people decided to give one to, but it eventually came to an end late at night.
You were heading out, not wanting to stay there any longer until you heard a similar voice,his mom.
“y/n wait” she called out to you. You turned around facing her “i think it’s better for you to have his phone,this was the only thing they found on him and i think he would have liked for you to have it” she handed you the phone
“Oh and it isn’t dead” she added
“Thank you ma’am i’ll keep this with me forever” you smiled while walking a way
“Bye i’ll talk to you guys later” waving at his parents
Once you got to your car you couldn’t hold it in any longer you started sobbing uncontrollably, you decide to turn on his phone only to see a bunch of notification from you, Kenma,and Bokuto
99+ missed calls from y/n<3
20 missed calls from kenmaa
34 missed calls from bokuto
& other text messages
“Look at all of those missed calls” you cried