Chaotic Mind

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Ever thought about what it would be like, if Chaos was a real person? Seems insane, doesn't it? Well, Chaos doesn't agree with you.

Fantasy / Scifi
Ally K.
4.7 6 reviews
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Chapter 1. Bad news

“I am so bored!” I shout out in my desolate living room sitting on the enormous couch, the words quietly echo through my home.

Okay, I guess I need to do something about this. It’s not healthy for me to be in this state. Might as well go out today.

I go into the bedroom and open my walk in closet. The lights turn on immediately and I rush through my things. It’s summer, so I’ll need to look as if I’m warm. I guess shorts and a floaty tank top would be okay.

When I’m done I take my little purse, car keys and get out of my always empty, dreary home.

Driving back into the city lightens up my mood. Why did I decide to live so far away from civilization? When I'm close enough I remember the reason--the noise.

Parking in front of the first Starbucks I can locate, I take out my enhanced iPhone XR Plus, which isn't even released yet. I don’t know why I decided to live like a normal human, having all these gadgets feels so stupid in comparison to what I could actually have and do. But what would I do really?

The last few hundred years felt like torture. Humans are too productive to help them evolve. I thought that it would be better to live like them for a while, but that didn’t help much. I’m as bored as I ever was. All these humans are so alike, it doesn’t really help much getting to know them better. Even if I don’t rush through their minds, they all act the same.

The only creatures that I feel drawn to are the Mortis Auxilium. But most of them live isolated, tedious lives. The only one who I had fun dealing with was Arianna, but even she couldn’t fully handle the depression.

Speaking of... I haven’t heard from her in a while. I think I’ll check up on her now. Not like I have anything better to do. Maybe I should try to get a job after that? Well, now we even have something to discuss.

While I wait for my chocolate frappuccino I try to locate Arianna. I hope she's still in Seattle because searching for a Mortis Auxilium is not easy and, quite frankly, very confusing. Their minds are so complex, I really prefer to stay out of them when I can.

Yep, she's still in Seattle, still in that company of hers. When will she finally understand that she should stop working and finally get to know her own daughter while she still can? I get the whole adoption-for-the-sake-of-the-child stuff, but she doesn't have enough time to keep dancing around fate's plans.

I get back into my car and drive to the most isolated place I can get a feel on. When I'm sure that no one is able to see me I make myself and the car invisible, climb out and teleport myself to Arianna's office.

She's alone, working, aging with every second. Of course to a human she would seem younger than her real age, but I see the real her, I know that her kind shouldn't look like this in their sixties because they actually should be long dead by that age, but she found a way to survive and soon will pay a high price for it.

I check my surroundings again, looking for anyone who could enter in the next ten to fifteen minutes. When I'm sure that it's clear to reappear again, I dramatically make a shadow show, coming out of the corner of Griffin's office.

"Arianna Griffin, your work will kill you someday and you know it," I say with a smirk. "It's not healthy for you to do this in your age."

"Eris!" She whispers, shushing me at the same time. "What are you doing here?"

"Wow, keep your pants on, you might explode with all the excitement from seeing me again," I make a sad face. "And here I thought we're on good terms."

"Ugh, sorry. I am glad to see you, I'm just not keen on anyone else noticing your sudden appearance," she walks up to the door, looking out and closing it again. "You know how paranoid I am."

"And you know that I never appear like this when it's not safe."

Now I have her full attention, she comes up to me and gives me the warmest hug. In my human like lifetime, I've hugged a lot of people, but she really has a gift, making you feel special even if you know how extraordinary you are.

I make myself smaller to match her height and hug her back, relishing in her affection. Even if she is Mortis Auxilium, she still has so much love in her, which makes her so much more irresistible.

"I've missed you," I tell her, pulling away from the hug and looking at her tired yet still beautiful face. "So, tell me. What have you been up to lately? I see that death still hasn't caught up with you. That's good."

"Yeah, I don't think that's quite true," she chuckles but her face falls, expression sadder than I have ever seen.

"What happened?" My usually light and fun mood is now serious, leaving no room for humor.

Arianna leads me to the couch, heavily falling on it and putting her head in her hands.

"I recently found out that I have heart cancer, stage four," she looks back up at me. "I don't know how much I have left. For humans, it's usually up to twelve months, for my kind it's probably longer but I already feel the pain and it's going to be worse."

"Oh, fuck..." Is all I can say. I've never cared enough for anyone to understand the emotional chaos within me now. I do however manage to ask her. "Does your daughter know?"

"What?" Her eyes almost pop out from surprise.

"Griffin, I'm Chaos incarnate, I know everything I want to. You shouldn't be that surprised," I sigh heavily, looking her deep in the eyes. "Of course I know that you have a child. One that you gave away for adoption and who is now working as your PA. I would know the answer to my question too but you know how much I hate to look into your kind's minds."

"I guess you're right," she looks at the air in front of her, not actually seeing. "I wanted to give her a normal life, wanted to keep her away from all the death our kind faces early on."

"That's not how it works and you know it," I put a hand on her shoulder, squeezing it a little. "She still faced death, just not in the full scale a Mortis Auxilium usually does."

"Don't call her that," her look drops to the floor but I still see the tears gathering in her eyes. "I know what she is, I just don't want to hear it. It's easier to live denying the fact that your child is existing only to keep life and death balanced."

"You think much more like a human these days, that's not good for you. Denial and grief aren't emotions you can afford to have," I let her go and stand up. "Let's go back to your place. Take the day off, I'll wait for you in the lobby."

"Okay," Arianna says, inhaling deeply. "I know better than to argue with you."

I disappear again, teleporting myself to the nearest dark corner outside the building. This day just got interesting, too sad it's not the good type of interesting.

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