Tobias sighed as he looked at the woman who he should have realized was his Geliebte days ago. All the signs were there.
Her glorious gardenia scent instead of the sour mild smell of a hunter.
His unreasonable attraction to her.
His need to kiss her…it was all there.
He had ignored it though to the point that she had become almost deathly ill. He was so stupid, but he had been scared, and he still was if he was truthful about it.
“You’re frowning Tobias. Is it something bad you need to tell me?” Kendra asked in a whisper.
“Nein. Well, I suppose it depends on how you want to look at it whether it’s bad or not,” he muttered almost too himself. “I don’t really… okay, you know that vampires have a Geliebte or beloved, right?”
She nodded. “Yeah. Kimmy told me about them and according to her, they’re hard to find. So, most vampires give up ever finding theirs… wait…?”
He watched her eyes widen as she figured it out and stared at him.
“Ja, you are mine,” he informed her.
“Then why did you try to get rid of me? Don’t you want a beloved?” She questioned, her eyes still wide as she watched him.
“It’s not that I don’t want one, it’s a bit more complicated than that,” he told her, trying to explain. “It has to do with the fact that you’re human. If you had been a vampire, it would have been so much easier.”
A hurt look crossed her face, and she looked as if she was going to cry. She then pulled out of his arms and stood up.
“If you don’t want me, then you should leave now,” Kendra told him as she turned her back on him. “I’ve done what I came here for, so I’ll be going back home tomorrow. I had planned to stay longer and spend more time with Kimmy, but I’ll tell her they need me back now.”
“Nein!” He shouted as he stood up. “You can’t leave me!”
She turned to face him and shouted back, “Why not? You don’t want me, so don’t make this any harder Tobias. Just leave now and go on with your happy little life. Go find yourself a vampire woman, since apparently, that’s what you want!”
Striding over, he grabbed hold of her arm when she would have turned her back once more.
In a pleading tone, trying to make her understand, he said, “You don’t understand! I’ll never be “happy” with anyone but you, Kendra. You are it for me, and if you leave now, you’ll only become sick again because I haven’t marked you. The touch of another will always burn because you are mine.”
She looked at him, her big green eyes barely holding in the tears.
“Bitte (Please), just give me a chance to explain!” He begged.
Finally, she nodded.
So, picking her up, he carried her back to the chair and sat down. He handed her what was left of her water, and she slowly drank it while he gathered his thoughts about what to tell her.
“What I am about to tell you I have never told another. It is my shame to carry, but you need to hear it. Hopefully, it will help you to understand where my concern about you being human comes from.”
“Okay,” she said, giving him her undivided attention.
“When I turned twenty-five, I decided I was tired of being alone. I was tired of waiting for that perfect person for me. I figured what I needed was a girlfriend to fill the empty place in my life that family didn’t fill. I met this pretty blonde who only seemed to see me, instead of Leo. Leo was a lady’s man in his day and had all the girls swooning when he walked by, young and old alike. Next, to him, I might as well have been invisible.
“Anyway, we went out for a few months and I enjoyed her company. We could laugh and have a good time. Then I decided it was time to take it a step further, so I convinced her to have sex with me. She was my first, although I wasn’t hers, and I found I really liked it. So… um… we had sex… a lot that night,” he said almost whispering at the end as he dropped his gaze from hers. “The problem was that every time we did, I bit her. I found I really liked taking blood during sex, the blood was… sweeter I guess, more flavorful with arousal. I also couldn’t seem to… to release, until I bit her.”
“So, you bit her because you needed to, to find satisfaction?” She questioned.
“Did she want you to bite her?”
“Nein. She had no idea what I was, Kendra, that was something I couldn’t tell her at that point in time. To her, I was just giving her a lot of love bites,” he answered. Then he told her sadly, “She kept talking about how all the other girls were going to be jealous that she had sex with one of the Vogel boys, and had the bites on her neck would prove it. I realized then it wasn’t truly me she wanted, that any of us would have worked. I’d just been the gullible one who had fallen for her charms.”
“Oh. So, did you keep, um, going even after realizing that?”
“Ja, I did. As I said, I liked it,” he reminded her, his cheeks heating a bit. “Anyway, I didn’t think… at least not with my brain, my cock was very much in control of me, and continued to be, until I realized she had stopped responding verbally to me anymore.”
Kendra gave a gasp then. “You didn’t drink her dry, did you?”
“Nein, Nein I didn’t,” he denied with an emphatic shaking of his head. “She passed out, but I was so close to doing exactly that, that it scared me. I realized that in my aroused haze, I could have killed her since she was human.
"So, I dropped her off at a hospital and told them that I had found her in the street. They probably thought she was a hooker or something, but I ran out before they had a chance to ask me any questions. I didn’t touch another woman after that for four years because it put so much fear in me,” he finished. He then added, “I know Falco had problems when he was learning to feed, and it didn’t end well. He bit a girl in his hunger and she happened to be a hunter’s daughter, because of that, we had to leave Germany.”
“I remember Kimmy telling me about that. I thought you get your blood from blood banks or something though, not humans,” she murmured.
“Ah, we’re supposed to, but back then sometimes I would slip out and drink from the vein. My Mutter would have killed me if she ever caught me.
“Anyway, after four years of being celibate, I met a pretty girl that loved to flirt with me. She made me feel like a man, and I guess I let it go to my head. When she asked me to come in after our date one night, I-I knew I probably shouldn’t, but it had been so long! I thought perhaps it was just a thing of the past and it would be alright,” he told her earnestly. “It had been so long, four long years, and I could still remember what it felt like to feel, to smell, all that is good in a woman.
“So, I let my guard down and let her seduce me into going to bed with her. That time…” he felt his voice fade as shame filled him. “that time, I did kill. She was my first and last victim. I-I killed her Kendra, in my lust for her body and her blood because of my need to bite, I killed her!”
Then, laying his head on her shoulder, he cried. He cried as his shame filled him with the knowledge that Kendra would probably hate him now. Although, her hate wouldn’t be any stronger than his own self-hatred at his own actions.
By law, as a hunter, she had the right to kill him for what he’d done.
She didn’t scream at him though or go get her stake. Nein, she pulled his head to her chest and held him as he cried out his grief at what he’d done. He had lived with this, telling no one, for a hundred and twenty-seven years.
“So, you have never told anyone this, not your parents or your brothers?” She asked when he’d calmed a bit.
He shook his head.
“Oh, Angel, it’s okay. You know, as a hunter I see the most depraved of vampires, the ones with the blackest of hearts. You aren’t one of them.”
He looked at her then. “Don’t you understand? I could kill you the first time we make love. I can’t control myself, I don’t know why, but I can’t. I know when I would feed from the vein, I know when to stop, but when I mix it with sex I lose it.
"I don’t want to hurt you, Kendra, that’s why I pushed you away. You made me want you with just a look, and I feared taking it any further no matter how desperately I wanted to.
"Now that I know you are my Geliebte, my fear is even greater because I can’t live without you,” he gave a soft sigh as he caressed her cheek. “That’s why I turned to vampire women if I become desperate because with them I didn’t have to worry as much.”
With the mention of vampire women, he saw her face fill with jealousy.
“When was the last time you… um…?”
“It’s been a while, not since way before Falco and Kimberly’s wedding,” he told her. Then, he sheepishly admitted. “Although, I tried last night. I thought if I could find relief from the aching arousal I was sporting, it would help me forget about you.
“So, I went to a club where I know vampires hang out and found a vampire woman that I thought could help me. She was lovely enough I suppose, and willing. I have been fighting an almost constant need for you since that night in the back lot of the dealership, yet as soon she kissed me, it was like taking an ice water bath. She wasn’t you Kendra. She didn’t smell like you, feel like you, kiss like you.
“I had just gotten home when you called. Sadly, the minute I heard your voice, my arousal was back even harder than before,” he whispered, his eyes locked in on hers.
Kendra smiled with a look of female satisfaction.
He groaned at the look before taking her head in his hands and kissing her. The kiss was rough and aggressive because he had been holding back his need for her for so long. Nipping at her lip until she opened, he shoved his tongue in. Then he tasted every inch of her mouth before sucking on her tongue which caused her to moan.
With her needy moan, he was encouraged.
So, while his mouth still ravaged hers, his hands began to roam up under her shirt. Her skin was so soft and covering her breast with one hand, he gave a light squeeze. Pulling away from her mouth then, he began kissing along her jawline before traveling down to her throat. She continued to make little noises that had his cock twitching and wanting what only a woman could give.
Unfortunately, it also made his fangs drop as his beast rose, thirsting for a taste of her blood. He began to swirl his tongue around her pulse point, licking, anticipating the first taste of her liquid essence.
“Toby, I want you to make me yours,” Kendra whispered.
Her words brought him from his lusty haze. It was like ice water being dumped on his head, causing him to jerk back breathing hard.
Her eyes were closed, but feeling his retreat, she opened them to stare at him. “Tobias?”
He shook his head. Standing up with her in his arms, he crossed the room to place her on the bed.
“We can’t, I can’t, it’s too dangerous,” he mumbled.
“Tobias, surely since I’m your beloved you wouldn’t take too much. Or, you know you could just not take any at all,” she suggested.
“You don’t understand Kendra, I have to complete the bond, or you will feel burned if someone touches you. Even your sister’s touch will hurt until it is completed,” he explained. “As much as it scares me, eventually it has to be done.”
She nibbled at her lip, as she ran her hands through her hair. “Okay, then what do we do exactly to complete this bond?”
“I have to take blood from you, then you will take from me.”
“An exchange of blood, that isn’t so bad, right?” She asked.
“Except I want to do more than just exchange blood with you. I want you Kendra, all of you and my body needs you badly. I’ve been denying it to the point I can’t anymore. I want to bury my cock in you right along with my fangs.”
“I want that too, Tobias, I won’t deny it,” she told him. “We’ll just have to be extra careful. We can do this Tobias, we can! We’ll get the bonding out of the way, then… then we’ll figure the rest out.”
Standing up then, she began to pace as she mumbled to herself before turning to face him.
“Okay. Would it make it easier if we weren’t alone? If we maybe have one of your brothers to come and pull you back if they need too?”
Tobias frowned. The exchange of blood was one thing, but he knew how easy it would for it to become more. She didn’t understand how arousing it would be, not only for him but for her also!
So, nein. Just the thought of one of his Bruders watching something that was as private and intimate as the bonding made him feel like hissing.
“Just the look on your face tells me that would be a no,” she told him. Then she came to stand almost toe to toe with him. “Take a deep breath and be calm. Tell me what I need to do.”
He took that deep breath as he slowly lost himself in her green eyes. “I just…”
Then he stopped as the need for her became undeniable. The time for talk was now over and it was time to act.
Bending his head down, he ran his nose along her neck. “Just a taste Geliebte, may I have just a taste?”
“Yes,” she replied.
He felt his fangs descend and sank them deep into her neck. Her taste was even more delicious then he had dreamed it would be and he soon fell into the delirium of her flavor. His hands moved over her, under her shirt, the feel of her bare skin had his arousal growing.
He wanted her under him moaning his name now! He began to tug at her clothes, wanting them off so he could make love to her.
“Toby, angel, you have to stop now,” she told him before giving her own breathless moan. Grabbing hold of his hair, she pulled slightly. “It’s my turn, what do I do?”
He heard the question as if from a great distance but all the same, he managed to pull his beast back inside even as he hissed.
He pulled back his head, fangs still down and most likely covered in blood. He shook his head, trying to clear the haze that had him wanting more.
Kendra stared at him, her eyes big in her pixie face as he struggled within himself to calm his need for her. Finally, he was able to retract his fangs and take a deep breath.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered. “I just need you so desperately.”
“It’s fine, Angel, and I promise you will have me,” she told him. “We need to get this done though, while you’re still able to.”
Reaching up, he cupped his hands around her face. “I wish for us to be one, Geliebte. From this day forward, I can age as you do, or make you as I am, so that we may live together until we are no more. Do you also wish me to make us one?” He asked her.
“Yes,” she agreed.
“Then I will give you a bit of my blood as I have taken yours,” he continued.
Then, stepping back slightly, he pulled the t-shirt he was wearing over his head. Next, he picked her up and once more took a seat in the desk chair before causing his nail to lengthen. Last, he sliced open his chest, causing it to bleed heavily, and pulled her head forward.
“Drink, Baby,” he whispered.
She began to lick at the blood.
“Ah, nein, Baby. You need to suck the blood from me, just like making a love bite,” he whispered to her in encouragement when he felt her uncertainty at what she was doing.
He felt her suck his skin into her mouth and begin to suck. He moaned, and his head rolled back to land on the back of the chair. It felt so good to have her taking his blood this way and it caused his cock to harden to the point of pain. He almost whimpered at the thought of her mouth on it instead of his chest and grabbed at her hand to place it there.
“Bitte!” He wasn’t sure what he was begging for, but she seemed to, and her hand began to slowly move across his jean encased arousal.
The wound on his chest closed, and Kendra moved her mouth from there to his neck. Her hand continued to squeeze and rub until he was ready to explode.
“Let’s lose the pants,” she whispered. He felt her unfasten and unzip them. She stood up then for a moment, so he could lift his hips.
He quickly pulled his pants and his briefs down.
Kendra sat back down straddling his hips and gave him a flirty smile. Her hand once more headed for his arousal, cupping it and giving a gentle squeeze.
He had a feeling he was really going to enjoy this!