Two days until the fight against Dave.
The guy who has my mom.
Only four days have passed since we all got to the pack house of Becca’s mate, but it feels like a year.
Today is the first real day of training, since all the neighbouring packs arrived last night, and I’m exempt since there’s no real reason for me to train. I already know what I’m doing, and I have my energy power to keep all the attacking wolves away from me.
So instead of moaping around all day, trying to avoid Asher, I decided to call up Jade.
We planned to meet at the food court in the mall we met at, so that’s where I’m headed now.
The drive there was silent, but not peaceful. When I’m alone and have nothing to distract me, the thought of what I’m doing to Asher tortures me.
Thankfully the drive wasn’t too long and soon enough I was siting next to Jade, sipping a chocolate milkshake while she grimaced at me over my cliché choice.
“I don’t know why yore judging me so much for liking chocolate milkshakes, it’s the most popular flavour.” I said in my defence, then quickly added “Do you have a boyfriend?” To change the topic before we started debating over which milkshake flavour is better again.
“No.” She said quietly, and blushed like mad.
“Are you lying to me.” I asked, feigning hurt.
“No. Well not really. I mean, sort of?” She muttered hesitantly, never meeting my eyes.
“So you are?”
She dropped her head to the table and groaned.
“I don’t know!” She exclaimed, suddenly sitting back up and throwing her hands in the air.
It took everything in me not to burst out laughing, but by some miracle, I kept it in.
“I think he likes me, and I know I like him, but he hasn’t put a tittle on our situation.” She explained.
So it’s one of those relationships. I bet the guy she’s talking about is one of the most popular guys in school, and he’s probably pretending to be a ‘player’ so he looks cool.
“I think you should talk to him about it, and if he tries to avoid it, threaten to stop the friendship or whatever it is.” I told her, hoping that he likes her enough to do whatever she wants.
“What if he doesn’t care and moves on to a new girl?” She whispered, probably imagining how it would go down.
“If he doesn’t care, he’s not worth it.” Was all I said, and the determination in her eyes was enough to tell me that I had given her the right advice.
“Okay enough about me. Do you have a boyfriend?” She asked, changing the subject.
My heart dropped at the question. I knew she’d ask this but I still wasn’t prepared.
“Not really.” I replied, looking down at my milkshake.
“What’s going on?” She asked sympathetically.
“It’s just, he’s left before and I was crushed. And now he’s back and I don’t know if I should let him in. I don’t want to be hurt again.” I explained, swirling my straw in my lumpy ice cream drink.
“I think that if you love him, getting hurt is a chance you should be willing to take.” She answered, and when I looked up at her she had an encouraging smile on her face.
“You’re right. I need to stop being a dramatic baby and just forgive and forget.” I stated.
I needed to stop torturing both myself and Asher, and embrace the time we have together.
I might not have much time left with him. There’s two days until the fight, and we could die. And if we don’t die, he could always leave me again.
So I need to take advantage of the time we have together and enjoy it.
“Go make it right with him.” Jade encouraged, taking the final sip of her milkshake.
“And you go talk to your player.” I replied, smiling teasingly at her.
After that we went our separate ways, and soon I was back at Garrett’s pack house looking for Asher.
“I haven’t seen him all day.” Becca told me when I asked about my mate’s whereabouts.
I sighed and tried to think of where he might be.
Two hours later I was still walking around the pack house, looking for Asher. I even asked some of the pack members if they’ve seen him but no one has.
What if he left again?
Have some faith in your mate the snarky part of my mind said.
I had to agree with it, I can’t keep up thinking so negatively, it could ruin everything for me.
I sighed in defeat when I asked another person about Asher and they didn’t have an answer.
I decided to go back to the pond I found the day Ava and I had our talk and I freaked out. It was a peaceful place that I could properly gather my thoughts in.
As I walked through the woods I tried to think of the good things that could come from me letting Asher back in.
We’d both be happy.
The pain would go away.
I wouldn’t feel guilty anymore.
That all sounded really good to me. As soon as I found Asher, everting was going to go back to normal.
I finally made it to the little pond, but someone else was already there.
“Asher?” I asked when I realized who the person was.
His head quickly snapped in my direction, not expecting anyone to be here.
“I’ve been looking all over for you, I wanted to apologize.” I said, taking a seat on the ground beside him.
He gave me a confused look, “Apologize for what?”
I looked down at my hands in shame as I explained to Asher that I was staying away from him because I was scared he’d leave again.
“But I’m not scared anymore. I trust you and I love you. I just want things to go back to how they were before all of this.”
Asher pulled me into a tight embrace when I was finished speaking.
“I love you so much.” He whispered into my hair, pulling back from the embrace a few moments later to sweetly kiss me on the cheek.
“What do you want to do now?” I asked after a few moments of comfortable silence.
“Well.” He began, getting up and offering to help me up, “We could make some popcorn and watch a move on the pack house.”
I nodded in excitement at his suggestion, it sounded like something so normal to do. We’ve never been good at normal.
Together we walked hand in hand back to the pack house, chatting the whole way.
When we entered the pack house we ran into Jay and Ava.
“You two look happy. I’m glad you made up.” Ava said, a smile that didn’t reach her eyes, plastered on her face.
“We’re meant to be together, nothing’s going to come between that anymore.” I told her, my voice slightly mocking, but not enough for anyone other than her to detect. She knew exactly what I was saying.
My talk with her only made me doubt Asher. If she was really my friend she’d want me to be happy with my mate.
“Garrett and Becca cooked tonight so I suggest you guys get something else to eat if you’re here for supper.” Jay warned us, effectively changing the topic.
Asher nodded, “Thanks man.”
After that Jay and Ava left and Asher went to make some popcorn as I went to the living room to pick out a movie.
I ended up choosing New Moon, the second Twilight movie, just for the irony. It’s a movie about supernatural beings, New Moon revolving around werewolves, so I couldn’t not pick it. We are going to die laughing during the movie.
“Really? This?” Asher asked, plopping a bowl of popcorn on my lap, his face screwed up in disgust.
“It’ll be funny!” I exclaimed, laughing at the face he was making.
True to what I thought, throughout the whole movie Asher and I laughed hysterically. The way they romanticize werewolves is out of this world!
“That was awful.” Asher chuckled as the credits rolled.
I nodded in agreement, a smile spreading across my face.
This moment was perfect.
“You know I love you right?” Asher asked out of the blue.
I took his hands in mine and looked him straight in the eyes as I replied, “I know. And I love you.”
Asher gave me one last smile before leaning in to kiss me.
I kissed him back with all the passion in the world, and the usual sparks were intensified.
This kiss was different than all the others, filled with so much emotion, fire, and hunger.
“Maybe we should take this back to your cabin.” Asher whispered between kisses, his voice low and husky.
“Yeah.” I breathed.