Chapter Nine: Hysteria
Walking through the town I found a nice playground. Luckily, I could keep from sinking my teeth into anymore locals. I don’t know if I could handle anymore death. I don’t know how they thought they could keep me contained in that building without feeding me. Who were they going to send on a hunt with me, and more importantly, who would want to go hunting with me?
I found a swing set and sat down. I began to think about my past, and how good my life used to be. I had my whole life when I moved to New Orleans. A dance academy, and I was the top student, and I was a great athlete. I dated the hottest guy in school, and we had decided we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together.
Then I got to thinking about my family. That car crash was horrible, and then Max’s disappearance. I was alone, and I thought I would always end up that way. Now I am here, in a town I have never heard of; and I am to be kept under lock and key. They think I could be taken by mistake for some witch.
As I looked around the playground I remembered all the times my mom took me to one. She would push me on a swing much like this one. My mom and I used to have so much fun together. We talked about everything, and we did lots of activities together. She taught me how to dance.
My mother was so gracious and understanding. She always gave me good advice, and it was usually advice I had failed to follow.
What I would give to have her advice now. What would she think of me? Would she be disgusted with who I have become? Would she still love me and tell me to try harder? I really understand missing something when it’s gone, and I just know she would tell me to not give up.
So, as I sat on the swing set, and listened to some more rock music; I did some serious thinking. Everything seemed to be too late. No one could save me, and I knew I was doomed to die. Perhaps it would be for good this time. I’m really of no use to anyone.
I was alone once more. My mother used to tell me that if I felt alone to pray that God was listening. After Justin, I kind of lost my faith. Do vampires even get to pray? Would I even be heard?
I was so down in the dumps, that when an upbeat pop song came on, I felt a little better. This sort of got me pumped up a little. There might be some hope. So, I sat there and sang along and felt happy. I haven’t been happy since this fiasco.
A voice calling out to me broke me out of my reverie.
“Destiny!” Taylor called.
He sounded angry and worried. He probably thought I would find the rest of his family and kill them.
“I am here,” I answered.
“What are you doing?”
“I’m thinking, and I am trying to have a moment to myself.”
“You had me worried. I thought you were leaving for good.”
“I thought about it.”
“What the Elders said, don’t worry about it. I'm not entirely sure they know what they're talking about. I think part of it is a scare tactic.”
I could feel the hysteria washing over me. I was scared. Suddenly, I started laughing and crying. I couldn’t stop. The laughter and the tears just kept coming.
“Destiny, are you okay?”
“No, I am not. I am scared and I don’t want to be at the center of it all.”
“I won’t let anything happen to you. They won’t be able to hurt you.”
I laughed. Taylor looked really hurt, and I didn’t mean it that way.
“You won’t be able to stop them, not if they want me bad enough.”
“I am sure I wouldn’t be the only one trying to protect you. Everyone seems fond of you.”
I laughed hard at this.
“Except Melena, Taylor, I don’t think she likes anyone.”
“She puts the cold hearted in cold hearted snake, doesn’t she?”
“I’ve never met someone so cold.”
“Okay, so everyone but Melena would defend you. You were really alone in all of this weren’t you?”
“I was. I thought it would be cool at first, until I accidentally killed my boyfriend. I haven’t been able to get passed that yet.”
“I was born a shifter. The only thing is though, I can only transform into a really large jungle cat. So I am kinda defenseless against faster beings. Vampires are a serious problem, they like to kill us.”
“I am so sorry. No one seems to have had things easy.”
“This life can be a lonely one. If you can find friends, it’s a good idea to hold on to them.”
“We’ll then I won’t let them go.”
“You’ll be okay, I just know you will be.”
“I don’t know. I have to die, and maybe I should considering how much pain I’ve brought everyone. How many sons and daughters have I taken? I just want all of this to be over.”
He nodded. I went to stand and I couldn’t. I was so scared about what may happen I couldn’t walk. Taylor picked me up and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He carried me back to that old abandoned building.
It was a nice distraction. We talked, we laughed, and I managed not to feel too guilty for talking to another guy. It was wonderful and easy. What I didn’t realize was that I had no idea how right I was to be hysterical.