I sit in the waiting room of the hospital, shaking my leg anxiously -even though it still hurts to move-awaiting news about Levi. Every single time one of those doctors or nurses come walking round the corner of the corridor my eye immediately catches sight of them and my posture stiffens as if I am expecting the worst news possible.
Levi is very badly beaten up, his nose has been turned at an angle, his eyes have swollen up to the size of two big, black balloons, his lips are battered and busted, split open on one side. He is in a terrible state. Bloody Rolan, ruining everything. Levi doesn’t deserve this, the roles should have been reversed.
“Ms Coles, you can visit Mr Carter now. He is just finishing up with the police.” The doctor says. He guides me to Levi’s room.
“Thank you for your time, Mr Carter. We’ll be in touch.” The policeman says as he and his colleague exit the room. They both nod at me as they leave.
“Levi, oh my god.” I say, staggering up to his bedside, plopping down into the seat that is next to his bed. “This wasn’t meant to happen, I’m so sorry. Rolan’s just-”
Levi interrupts me, “Jealous, possessive, an asshole.” He replies, stumbling over his words a bit due to the swelling of his lips.
“You can say that again.” I say, laughing lightly.
“But he cares about you...a lot.” Levi says.
“What’s that supposed to mean?” I ask confused.
“This isn’t the first time something like this has happened between me and him. I mean it has never been this severe before, never physical, but...” Levi takes a deep breath in, “he’s threatened me before, told me to keep away from you.”
“What the fuck!” I exclaim, “Why didn’t you say something or tell someone.”
“I didn’t think it would get this extreme at all, but now it has.“Levi says.
“I’ll talk to him.” I say, “I’ll tell him to leave you alone.”
“Mae, it’s fine. That’s just more trouble for you. Besides, I think that will make it worse.” Levi looks down as he twiddles his thumbs.
“But he won’t stop.” I say, “You should press charges against him.” I state conclusively to Levi.
“Mae, that will make it worse. His dad is a billionaire, no sorry, multi-billionaire. He’ll be able to hire the best lawyers and I’ll lose. There’s no point.” He says.
“But how are we meant to work on our relationship if he’s going to turn up every time.” I say quietly.
“Levi looks to the left, unable to look me in the eyes. “I don’t think that we should...see each other anymore. Maybe if he sees that we aren’t close he’ll leave me alone.”
I really do like you, Mae but I can’t have that sort of trouble on my back. I have school and work...” A couple tears spill out of my eyes. I breathe deeply, trying to calm myself down. “Mae, please don’t cry. I’m sorry, I just...” Levi pleads, looking extremely guilty.
“No, no. It’s fine, I understand. It’s not your fault, it’s Rolan’s.” I say as I wipe my eyes. “I’ll leave you be, your mum will be here soon anyways.”
I exit the room as quickly as possible, not wanting to cry in front of Levi even more. Two years ago I used to wonder why I had no guy attention now I’m wishing I didn’t have any at all. I take my phone from my pocket and dial Rolan’s number.
“Mae.” Rolan answers, sounding shocked, “I didn’t think you would call.” I’m taken aback by how defeated he sounds and for a second I am feeling sorry for him, my train of thought going immediately to forgiving him but I reign myself in.
“Don’t sound so relieved.” I say with venom in my voice. “There are a couple things I’d like to say to you.” All I hear on the other side is a strained cough of some sort as if he is trying to find something to say but I don’t let him.
“I want you to stay out of my life.” I say firmly, ” You have no right to dictate who I speak to and who I hang out with. This is my life and you need to leave me the fuck alone.”
“Mae, I’m sorry, just listen to me. I’m sorry about Levi.”
“If you were sorry, you wouldn’t have beat him up in the first place let alone threaten him. What sort of person does that?!” I exclaim.
" I didn’t mean any of it. I just wanted you to be mine, I wanted to cherish you, to spoil you rotten.” Rolan’s voice cracks, “I thought he would take you away from me.”
“Oh you idiot!” I shout down the line, ” He was a just a friend. I bloody liked you so much Rolan my literal soul accepted you as its mate. I fucking loved you, you idiot!” I yell, sobbing loudly. “I can barely walk because of you without everything hurting like hell and that’s not Levi’s fault. Levi didn’t take me away from you. It’s your fault because you couldn’t keep it in your damn pants!”
“Just tell me what to do!” Rolan shouts desperately, “Tell me how to make it up to you. Just fucking tell me!”
“I shouldn’t have to.” I say quietly before ending the call. I slide down the brick wall of a building and sob into my hands, feeling utterly exhausted. Every thing hurts, my heart, my lungs, my skin. Everything is on fire, burning my chest and I can’t stop it. I begin to choke on my breath as I struggle to breathe. I stop for a second, laughing at how clichè I think mine and Rolan’s conversation was just then. “Ahhhhh!” I scream into the air, no one around to hear my torment. I’m going bloody mental! Crying my eyes out then laughing the next. I wipe the tears from under my eyes vigorously, wishing that they would just stop, that everything would just stop.