“I know you are hurting.” My mate finally decided to speak up. I was still straddling him, my head tucked underneath his chin and our arms around each other. My tears all dried out.
“But I want to talk to you about what happened to your parents.” He said in his usual cold tone.
“Yes, Alpha.” I mumbled. I felt him getting tensed when I said it. It’s so weird, I’m sitting on his lap, holding him for my dear life, but there is still so much formality between us.
“Your parents were killed by the same creatures who are attacking the packs that are not under my rule.” I lifted my head to look at him. As soon as our eyes met, I felt intimidated. His eyes were cold, all the softness in them gone. I immediately looked down and played with my hands.
“Nobody is allowed to touch these dead bodies because it is toxic for them. Two wolves died when they touched those bodies. They felt pain everywhere. They screamed as if someone is ripping them apart. That’s why I didn’t let you near their dead bodies.” He told me.
“But why were my parents killed? They were under your rule.” I decided to ask. He sighed.
“They were at the wrong place at wrong time. They were coming here to meet you, it was a sudden attack. To reach the castle they have to cross the lands which are not under my rule.” My eyes teared up after listening this. They were coming here to meet me. this is all my fault.
“It is not your fault.” He spoke up as if he could hear what I was thinking.
“Do- Do my brothers know about it?” I managed to croak out.
“Yes, they have been informed. We will leave for their pack the day after tomorrow. They are organizing the funeral, and your eldest brother will take over the Alpha position.” He said simply, no emotion in his voice.
“I want to clear one thing up.” He said, placing his fingers under my chin to make me look at him.
“I’m here with you right now, this does not mean I accept you as my mate and you better understand that. I did you a favour by holding you, you were able to tolerate this pain, now, you’ll do me a favor and not run your mouth in front of your brothers. You’ll let them know that you are taken care of here, got it?” I was shocked to hear this. What? All this was just an act.
This time, the tears fell down from my eyes. I really thought that everything will be fine now. He gripped my cheeks hard, making sure it hurts.
“Got it?” he asked through gritted teeth. His eyes blazing with anger. I was scared.
“Ye- yes, Alpha.” I managed to say it. I was shaking out of terror now. He picked me up from his lap and pushed me on the bed roughly. He got up from the bed and stood beside it.
“You will not leave this room. I don’t one anyone to know about today’s events.” His arms shot forward to take a hold of me and pulled me towards him. I was on my knees, over the bed. He ran his thumbs over my cheek where he gripped earlier, it was bleeding because he dug his nails into my skin.
I was so terrified of him that my body went limp. I couldn’t feel a single thing.
He buried his hand in my hair and gripped them hard, tilting my head so that my neck is exposed to him. I was breathing heavily. My heart was about to explode. What is he going?
My mind went into overdrive and I starting squirming in his hold.
“Leave me. please leave me.” I begged him, my voice, small and scared. He didn’t let go. I began thrashing in his hold. His grip on me tightened, restricting all my movements. He brought his face closer to me, I closed my eyes instantly. What is he doing? It’s like he wants to rip my hair out of my head.
“It hu- hurts.” I mumbled. I started squirming once again. Not in a million years I was prepared for what he did next.
He ran his nose along the length of my neck, breathing in my scent and let out a loud growl. I was trembling in his hold. his other hand wounded on my waist to steady me. I’m sure I’m going to faint. His loud growl really scared me.
“I don’t want you.” He spoke up, nose still buried in my neck. My heart shattered into pieces after hearing this.
“But I can’t let you go.” I couldn’t control my body’s reaction to his deep voice. He placed his lips on my neck and a gasp escaped my lips. My body was humming with pleasure. His hand left my hair and held my face.
He slowly started sucking on my neck. If it wasn’t for him holding me, I would’ve fallen down. My hands gripped his shirt and I let out a loud moan as I felt myself getting aroused. He stilled immediately, he removed his face from my neck and sniffed the air. His chest vibrated as he let out another growl, even louder than before.
A growl of approval.
My face turned red out of embarrassment. He could smell my liquid arousal.
My mind couldn’t register what was happening. One moment he was so cruel and the other he was busy assaulting my body with his lips.
He laid me down on his bed and hovered above me. he pinned my arms on both sides of my head and again buried his face in my neck, breathing heavily. He was trying to calm himself down. But I was becoming a mess because of his actions.
My body was craving for his attention. I could feel him losing control of his own body. He nipped at my neck a few times, eliciting a series of moans from me, his teeth scrapping my skin. His lips traveled down along my body, over my dress.
“Al-Alpha!” I screamed out when his hands traveled down my body and parted my legs wide open and settled in between them.
Oh my god! What is he doing? Why am I not stopping him?
Why did I have to wear a middle length dress today? Now my knickers are exposed to his heated gaze.
He held my legs firmly and started pressing light kisses to my thighs. He is getting closer and closer to the area where I want him the most. All I can think is him, all I want to feel is him.
He pressed a kiss on my upper thigh and my liquid desire gushed out of me. He stilled at that position, lips pressed to my upper thigh. oh god, I want to die right now!
Then he did something unimaginable. He buried his face in between my legs, his nose pressed firmly against the ruined material of my knickers.
“Aaahh!” I cried out loudly and tried to push his head away, but to no avail. He was breathing in the scent of my arousal as if a suffocated man is breathing in oxygen.
Oh god, I can’t handle this. I’ve never experienced something like this ever before.
I want more. What do I want? I don’t know. Just, more!
A knock on the door cleared the lusty haze that surrounded the bedroom.
“Alex!” Ryder yelled from outside the door. My mate immediately stood up straight and fixed his clothes that were wrinkled because of me.
“I’ll be there in a minute.” He replied. My eyes roamed up and down my mate’s body and I could clearly see why he needed ‘a minute’.
“Go take a shower. And control yourself from next time. I don’t want you to wet yourself in front of others, you filthy wolf.” He spat at me angrily and left the room after slamming them shut. I remained on the bed taking deep breaths, trying to calm myself down and wondered what the hell just happened?
Why do I never think before I do anything? I just went inside this huge bathroom and took a shower without even thinking about my clothes. I don’t have my clothes here. My bag was left in the garden when Ryder dragged me back. Thankfully there was a towel here, which of course belongs to my mate.
Now, I’m standing in the bathroom just in a towel wrapped around my body.
Deep breaths Berry, deep breaths.
I’ll just go out and take his shirt and boxers. Yes, desperate times, desperate measures. I opened the bathroom door and went outside. Surprisingly, my bag was placed on the foot of his grand bed. I heaved a sigh of relief. I quickly got changed and was about to leave this room when I remembered my mate’s words.
“You will not leave this room. I don’t want anyone to know about today’s events.”
It’s better if I stay in this room until he says so. I have nothing to do so, I made myself comfortable on his bed.
What the hell happened today? How could I do this? My parents just died and I was being a wolf in heat. Oh god, what did I do? My parents would be so disappointed in me.
I don’t what got into me. It was like I lost the control of my body. I couldn’t get enough of him. I couldn’t control my desire. When he touched me, all rational thoughts left my mind and I could only think about him.
This mate bond is impossible to resist.
And then he blamed me, called me a filthy wolf. We were both equally involved in this. He even acted to care for me just so that I don’t tell anything to my brothers. He is heartless.
I’m sorry Mother, I’m sorry Father.
Please forgive me.
What should I do now? I have no means to contact my brothers, I don’t know how are they holding up. I don’t know how will I face them.
“WHERE IS SHE?” the loud noise coming from downstairs broke me from my trail of thoughts. Who is shouting?
“BRING THAT DESPICABLE WOMAN IN HERE!” the voice was getting louder and louder. My curiosity got the best the best of me and I went out of the room to look for the owner of this voice.
My eyes couldn’t believe the sight in front of me when I reached down. The red head Stella was the one yelling like a maniac and the guards were trying to stop her to enter further into the castle. Her clothes were smeared with blood, her hair all over her face.
She was trying to go towards the wing where all the house workers stay.
“What’s happening?” I asked one of the guards. Stella realized that I’m here watching all this, she turned and looked at me with her murderous gaze.
What did I do?
“YOU?” she shouted and stormed towards me. I didn’t realize she’s holding something in her hands until she threw it straight at me.
I caught it before it could strike my face and I couldn’t contain the scream that left my throat when I saw what it was.
I threw it away immediately. I was shocked, disgusted, confused and scared. I couldn’t look at it anymore. His eyes were wide open in fear, it looked like someone ripped his head straight out of his body while he was alive.
How can someone be so cruel?
Before I could recover myself from the shock Stella tackled me to the floor. She started giving me punch after punch.
“You did this! You bitch! I’ll kill you!” she screamed at the top of her lungs. She picked me up by my throat. My face was busted open and I’m sure was bleeding heavily. I was hanging in the air, my throat in the clutches of this cruel woman who was hell bent on cutting my oxygen supply.
It was getting difficult for me to breathe. I scratched her hands to get free of her hold, but for no use. I was just a weak human without my wolf, defenseless.
This is the day I die.
I thought of closing my eyes forever when suddenly she was ripped away from me. I fell down to the ground and started inhaling lung full of air. She was about to choke me to death. My neck region was hurting.
When I managed to pull myself up, I saw my seething mate had her up by her throat in the air.
“What were you doing?” he said through gritted teeth.
“Xavier is dead because of her!” she managed to speak up despite that the situation she was in, she didn’t hide the bitterness in her voice. He threw he across the hall and she slammed hard into a wall.
“What is she talking about?” Ryder asked him, confused. When did he get here?
“I don’t know.” Came my mate’s response.
Will someone tell me what’s going on?