How could I have been so stupid?! She was finally giving me a chance! Until I went off and killed a man in front of her..... Why was she even there?! She should have never been in that part of the house! That man deserved to die for his actions, he went against the law and he causes so much trouble. It put me over the top when he started arguing against me. I am a king (future) and you never go against your King. My Lycian took over and killed him for going against us and our laws.
It breaks my Lycians heart knowing he scared our mate away. Normally I can never get him to shut up but after scaring our mate he won't speak or respond to me in any way.
Its been a few days since the incident but I haven’t seen Alisha and from what everyone else has been telling me, she doesn’t want to see me... I miss her so much. I hate myself more and more with each minute that goes by without her.
I can’t believe I saw a man die... Someone was killed right in front of me... I haven’t been able to sleep because every time I close my eyes I watch it happen all over again. He killed someone... I don’t think I can ever forget that...
All I want to do is go home... I want to go home and back to school so I can see my friends and family I don’t want to be near him anymore...
Just then Olivia walked in the door with a suitcase. “Are you going on a trip?! You can’t leave me here alone!” She forced a smile and shook her head no. I don’t like the way she is acting right now... “What’s going on? Is everything okay?”
“Yea I guess, just a little sad. The bag is full of your stuff. Robert said you can go home if you’re ready.” I’m happy but sad at the same time... “Olivia, you know this won’t be the last time we see each other! We are going to hang out all the time I promise!” That seemed to put a little bit more of a smile on her face but not as much as I wanted... I want to go home but at the same time, I don’t want to leave Olivia, Queen Samantha, and Alice..... They make me want to stay...
Wait a minute should I stay? If I stay I will able to spend time with Alice makes me want to stay but I don’t want to risk the chances of running into Robert. I hate knowing that when I leave I probably won't ever come back...
"I’m sorry Olivia! I want to stay here with y’all but..... I just don’t know.....” She just nodded her head and left the room... I don’t know what to do anymore... All I wanted to do was go home and now that I have the chance to, I don’t want to leave.
Of course, as if knowing I needed her, Queen Samantha walked into my room holding baby Alice. “Hey sweetheart, I heard you were feeling conflicted.” I could feel the tears pooling in my eyes, “I’ve been wanting to go home but now that I can, I don’t want to... I don’t want to leave you, Olivia and Alice. But at the same time, I can’t bring myself to see him... I’m scared of him....” I felt a little awkward talking about him negatively because he is her son but it’s how I feel.
She slowly nodded her head, “I know sweetheart, I’m not trying to change your mind about him but I do have to speak for my son when I say that he was not in control of his body at that point. His Lycian had taken over and one must never go against a King they have very short tempers. I know that may make you scared of his Lycian but you shouldn’t be, neither one of them would ever hurt you. They would give their last breath for you. But I also understand that you are scared and you need time to grasp everything, all I ask is that you don’t give up on him.” I processed every word she said and placed the information in the back of my mind to think over later when I’m alone and can think straight.
“For now I do have an idea of where you can stay! We have a small house available on the pack grounds that you can stay in. There you will have your own privacy away from Robert and you will still be able to visit everyone and some nights if you’d like, Alice can stay with you.”
I started jumping around the room, on my good foot of course, “That is perfect! Thank you so much, Queen Samantha!” I wrapped my arms around her and Alice giving them a tight squeeze.
Olivia came in to help me grab all my things, she even had some of her own stuff so she could stay with me tonight. Grabbing my crutches we headed to my new house.
Doctor Emma finally let me have crutches so I could start learning to walk again. I can walk but I have the crutches in case my ankle gives out, I’ll have something for support. So far everything is going so well I may get off of them soon and be back to normal!
As we exited the pack house I could feel his eyes burning into me as I walked through the living room. I hoped he wouldn’t be in but of course my luck he was... I wanted to turn to look at him but I forced myself to look at the floor. At the last second, before the door of the house closed I glanced at him briefly and instantly wished I hadn’t. His blue eyes were glassy and his tear-stained face was pale.
The bags under his eyes showed he hadn’t slept in days... He seemed as if he was all around weak... I know he’s not, he is the strongest person I know but at that moment he was at his all-time low. Something deep inside me wanted to run to him and try to fix him but that was shut down as the pictures of the man's lifeless body flashed through my head.
"He hasn’t eaten or slept since the incident,” I turned to Olivia who had stopped a few feet behind me. I hadn’t noticed I was staring blankly at the closed door until she spoke. “The whole incident broke the both of you.” she slowly looked to the ground and whispered, “His Lycian is so broken that he won't respond anymore....” I was shocked. What does she mean his Lycian isn’t responding? I was about to ask her but Queen Samantha interrupted saying that we needed to get going.
The house was so perfect! It’s small but it’s perfect for me. After Olivia helped me put all of my things away we flopped onto my bed. It had been silent for most of the time we spent unpacking. It gave me time to really think things over. I don’t know what to do anymore... I rolled on my side, facing Olivia and asked the question that had been running through my mind for hours. “Olivia, what did you mean when you said Robert’s Lycian won't respond anymore?”
She let out a puff of air and sat up, turning to me. “His Lycian won't speak to him anymore. We can talk to our Lycians or wolf's in our minds but now his Lycian won't talk to him. He tries shifting and his Lycian blocks him out so he can’t shift. His Lycian doesn’t want to control anymore. The sad part is if he can’t let his Lycian out every once in a while his Lycian will slowly die....” I was in total and complete shock. “Why is his Lycian acting this way? Is it because of me?” I felt horrible for being the cause of his pain.
“Yea, he scared you and it broke his heart to know that he hurt you. We need our mates and when he scared you he knows he lost all his chances of having you so he has no reason to keep going. We live for our mates and without them we are nothing.”
I’ve earned so much today that I think my head is going to explode but nothing prepared me for what she said next. “Robert is going to turn down a king position... The Kingdom won’t have a king....”