I wobbled my way out of Judah's home and sat on a bench on the porch. The rain has stopped early in the morning, but it is extremely humid outside with a dense fog. The sun could barely peek through the grey clouds in the sky. Yet there is still a soft billowy breeze that I am appreciative of.
My science teacher wasn't joking when she said that newly marked mates tend to be insatiable. After dinner last night, we went another two more rounds. I am hiding from him outside because it is the only place I can run to without my knees buckling and me falling flat on my face.
The front screen door opened and the man I was just thinking about stepped out dressed only in a black athletic short that is low around his waist. I can see everything, right now down to the v-line running down his short. I clenched my thighs together; pretty sure my desires came doubling back. Did I forget to mention that I am also sexually crazed right now?
"It stopped raining." An attempt in averting our attention to the weather.
He looked out his front yard before his eyes flew back to me. His lips twitching into a barely noticeable smile.
"It has." He walked over to sit next to me before pulling me onto his lap. I started a protest only to end with a soft sigh when I felt his nose buried into my neck and his arms tightened around me.
"You need to give me a break," I whispered.
I felt his lips curved into a smile against my skin before he placed a chaste kiss right there. He lifted and pulled back to look at me. I turned my head to look at him. His eyes were soft, not brooding and dark.
"I know," he replied simply, "but I can't resist you."
"Learn to," I argued.
He chuckled. "It's hard to when you are my mate, Rose."
"Do you realize how many times you came inside me since yesterday?" I glared at him.
His lips pursed a little while he thought about this.
"Exactly!" I growled, even he can't remember how many times.
Birth controls do nothing to werewolves. We fight it off like an infection. He can try wearing a condom, but the chances of conceiving will only go down by a few percentages. Yesterday, I thought about it briefly but I haven't come to terms with this until now.
I release a heavy sigh and my shoulders sagged. I know that if I do end up conceiving, I will want the baby. There is no doubt about it. It is my child—and Judah's but it's a life growing inside of me. Yet studying medicine is important to me too.
Judah's hand came up and he smoothed back the hair on my forehead. He hooked it behind my ear to get my attention. My eyes found his again.
"What if I am pregnant?" I asked him.
He blinked and I can see that he hasn't thought about this at all. If he didn't look so adorably confused right now, I swear I will smack him on the side of his head. Did he not realize what he did yesterday? The risks?
"Then you are pregnant," he replied stupidly.
I rolled my eyes. "Do you want a child?"
"Do you?" he questioned.
"I asked you first." I deadpanned him.
His hand dropped back down to my waist. His eyes were softer than the green grassed valley.
"I want kids, Rose, but I don't want them if you aren't ready," he replied.
"I don't think I am ready," I told him honestly. My voice has dropped to a whisper and I looked down at my hands in my lap. I couldn't look at him.
He went quiet and I am afraid he will be upset with me. Pregnancy is a natural progression of mated couples. They find each other, mate, conceive, and live happily ever after. Yet we are here and I do not want to get pregnant.
When he didn't say anything, I looked back at him. He sighed and cupped my cheek before leaning in to give me a chaste kiss on my lips.
"It's okay. I want kids. No doubt about it but I am not going to force you, Rose," he replied finally.
"Are you sure about that?" I asked.
He nodded. "I will wear condoms but what if you are already pregnant?"
I thought about this too and I stand by it. If what we did yesterday caused me to conceive, this baby is staying. I'll fight through it. Who said women can't go to school and have kids at the same time?
"Then I am pregnant." I shrugged.
"Will you be happy?" he asked, unsure about my feelings.
I looked at him with an affirmative look. I nodded my head several times. I placed a hand over my stomach vaguely but his eyes zeroed in on my hand that is resting on my stomach.
"If I am pregnant than I already love this child. I will not show him or her that I regret conceiving them because I don't. This child will be born loved."
His eyes flew to mine and his eyes glazed over with admiration and for the first time, he gave me a broad, genuine smile.
"I will be here with you, every step of the way," he promised.
Pregnancy in werewolves works a little different than humans. As the male is more primitive and fast in nature, their sperms work the same way. A female werewolf can get pregnant with their mate's sperm within the first few tries. If werewolves slept together and they aren't mates, their chances are lower. They can still conceive but their body is not favorable to the sperms. The female's anatomy will fight off the invasive attack. If I am pregnant, I will know within a week. My body will start to change and Judah will notice before I do because he will smell the change.
"If I am not pregnant, I want to study medicine." I waited for him to respond.
His jaw ticked a little and I can understand why. He is the Gamma. He needs to stay within the pack in case there is an attack. He is there to help. However, with me wanting to study medicine it will require me to travel outside of the pack. I will be miles away from him.
"I don't want you to go," he told me and I appreciated his honest answer.
"I won't be gone too long. Plus, you can visit me on the weekends and I can come home for breaks." I gave him a supportive smile.
He didn't look very happy with those options. It will be hard for both of us. I have a feeling I will miss him terribly but I really want to do this too.
"Let me see what I can do," he simply responded.
I tilted my head to the side in question. One corner of his lip lifted before he leaned forward in an attempt to capture my lips only to be stopped when we heard a vehicle rumbling down our driveway. We both pulled back to see Beta Ace and Alpha Hunter stepping out of Alpha Hunter's black truck.
They didn't look very happy to see us. They wore a grim look. Judah slowly stood up, removing me from his lap to his side. His hand intertwining through mine.
"What is it?" Judah skipped introductions and went straight to the reason why they were here.
"One of the guards that went with Bethany returned. He is severely injured with silver and is currently in the medical wing. They were attacked by hunters right before the storm got worse. As far as the guard that returned has told us, all guards are either dead or captured," Alpha Hunter's eyes moved from Judah to me.
Judah's hand tightened considerably in mine.
"What about Bethany?" I asked, seeing that my mate is tense and angry I moved a hand to rub his shoulder to ease his worries.
"Bethany is not dead. The hunters took her."
"But that means our pack—"
"We could be in danger. We need to find her before they can break her or use her against us," Beta Ace added.
"Ok, let's go," I agreed.
Judah turned to me. The soft look in his olive green was no longer there. They were dark and brooding again. His eyebrows furrowed deeply into a scowl.
"You aren't going," he snapped.
"What? Why not?" I argued. "You need as many people as you can."
"I think Judah is right. You should stay," Alpha Hunter interjected.
I scoffed. "Is it because I am a female?"
"You know damn well it isn't because of that," Judah growled. "I've trained you myself. I know what you are capable of, Rose. I just can't have you out there—not right now."
Alpha Hunter and Beta Ace nodded their heads in agreement. I glared at the three men in front of me. I swear I believe it is because they think I am incompetent. I can handle myself well. Granted, I have never been to a real fight and have been safely harbored in this pack, I still believe that I can fight. Yet just as that thought crossed my mind I found it to be ridiculous. I sounded ridiculous. I have been trained by Judah but it is only to defend myself. I didn't train myself to become a warrior because I don't want to be a warrior. I trained myself to be a doctor.
I huffed when I realized they were right. It was better off if I stay behind until I am confident in not holding anyone back. These three have gone out and fought many times already. Comparing them to me, I am a baby riding a bike on training wheels.
"We will take you to the packhouse where you will be safe," Alpha Hunter assured me.
"You should stay with your mother," Judah added earning my attention.
I looked at him with a pout to my face. He turned his body to face me, eliminating the little spaces we have between us. His eyes softened for a moment as he pinched my chin and ran his thumb over my lips gently. Sparks fluttered on contact.
"I know you want to help but it is better if you stay here for now. When we return, I will tell you everything," he promised.
I nodded before we all got into Alpha Hunter's truck. He pulled out of the driveway and back to the packhouse which was in the center of town. Once we arrived at the tall sturdy mansion, I saw that my mom was already waiting for me outside. She looks a little anxious but I also noticed a male arm wrapped around her shoulder. My eyes snapped to the man standing next to her.
I recognized him. His name is Galen. He is a pack warrior but a warrior who has gained merits and seniority over the years. He works under Judah. He is very kind and we spoke only on a few occasions but why was he holding onto my mom affectionately?
"Rose!" My mom broke away from Galen and ran to me. She took hold of my shoulders and pulled me into her chest, wrapping her arms tightly around me.
"Are you okay? I was so worried about you," my mom asked.
"I'm fine," I replied.
My mom pulled back and her eyes immediately found Judah's mark on my neck. Her eyes widened and she looked back to me with a question in her eyes. I responded with a smile to my face. She smiled back before hugging me again.
"My baby is all grown up," she whispered.
"Catalina," Galen's thick brogue voice interrupted from behind my mom.
I looked up to see him looking at me. My mom pulled back to look at Galen as if she just remembered he was behind her before she turned to me.
"Rose, this is Galen. He has been very kind in helping me out in the kitchen." My mom blushed.
I don't know how I feel about this. My mom is clearly attracted to this man and there is no doubt he is attracted to her too but what about my dad? My mom doesn't talk much about him and when I try talking to her about it she will always change the subject.
"Mom?" I looked back at my mom.
Judah moved to stand behind me. He placed a hand at the curve of my back to calm me, already sensing my agitation.
"Let's talk about this when we are alone," my mom looked at Judah with an appreciative glance before looking back down at me.
"Galen, I need you to prepare thirty experienced pack warriors. We are going on a mission. Meet us back here in ten," Judah commanded.
Galen's hand touched my mom's shoulder and gave it a good squeeze before disappearing in the mansion. Judah took hold of my hands into his. He pulled me away from my mom and closer to him.
"Try to behave," he spoke.
"I am always on my best behavior," I responded with a pout.
He leaned in and kissed my lips quickly to get rid of the pout.
"I mean it, Rose. Your mom seems happy. Before you get angry with her, put yourself in her place. Let her explain first and be rational, my little Rose."
"I am not that irrational," I grumbled.
He smirked before pulling me into his arms.
"I'll come back. I'll be safe," he buried his nose into my hair and breathed those words softly for me to hear only.
"You better or else I'll really go away and not come back," I threatened. This lie is really starting to get old. I don't think he will ever believe me.
I watched the pack warriors fill the mansion front lawn until everybody, male and female warriors, were accounted for. Alpha Hunter made an announcement of what was happening. Their objective and mission that they needed to complete before returning home. He explained the danger and risk to his warriors before I watched all of them lead the pack warriors out of our sight.