It was almost two months, after I joined back in hospital. I did not remember a day without Drake’s flowers, welcoming me in my office. Today I did not have much work. I even had time to chat with Juliana and Cathy. Cathy said that they were are all surprised that I was Drake’s mate. They still could not understand why I never uttered anything about that.
I then started to think the situation from Drake’s side. I knew that no one was to blame for me, not knowing his pack’s name. But this gave a new light to see from his point of view.
Drake did not deliberately hide the pack details. Even if I wanted to blame him for that, my conscience said that I am equally to be blamed. I could not have the pleasure in blaming Drake completely, could I? I sat straight as another thought hit me. Was this how the pack sees me? As a mate who did not want to reveal herself even after seeing Drake. Would they believe me, even if I tell the truth? Then the memory that Drake he did not believe me struck in my mind.
What should I do? I could not prove myself to each and every person around me. But could I live with the knowledge that people around me thought about me otherwise? Could I able to move freely with people, with a nagging suspicion that they were thinking badly about me? I could not live a life to prove myself every day. I felt suffocated and stood up suddenly on this thought. Both Cathy and Jacintha looked at me with surprise.
Mumbling some excuse incoherently, I left for my room. I shut the door and sat on my chair with tears falling down my cheeks. What could I do? Why was this mate thing becoming more and more difficult in my life? Or was I making it complicated by having unwanted thoughts?
I looked up at the sudden sound of the door to see Drake standing in the doorway. I frowned at his sudden entrance. It was not lunch time yet and I wondered what he was doing so soon. He came in and stood next to me. He knelt down in front of me and took both my hands.
“What happened?” he asked softly.
I furrowed my eyebrows and ask him “What are you doing here?”
“I felt like I am needed here. So I came.” I was taken aback with this.
“What happened?” He asked again.
May be I was very confused and my mind was jumbled with thoughts. Or I was moved by the fact that Drake could sense my uneasiness. So I let out my thoughts I had so far. Drake looked at me for a moment and stood up. He excused himself and left the room. I was now more confused on his reaction.
In minutes he came back. “I checked with Richard. He said that you don’t have any work today. So I got his permission for you to leave early. Come, let’s go.” He offered his hand.
I did not take his hand, but asked “Where to?”
“Somewhere” He shrugged his shoulders. The need for fresh air after the sudden burst of emotion made me to take his hand.
We were just driving in his car for almost an hour. He then took a turn towards the city. We reached a park. Drake shut the engine, got out and opened the door for me. I got out and we strolled across the park in silence. It was quite a sunny day to enjoy in the park and so we had quite a crowd in there. We just strolled across. Drake took my hand in his. He nodded his head for us to go towards a corner. We moved there to see a small lake with benches across. We sat in one of the benches. We were sitting on the benches looking at the water in silence.
“This is my favorite place after my accident.” Drake voice broke the silence and I looked up to see him. He was still looking at the front with a smile. I did not utter a word.
Drake spoke again. “After I lost all my memories and my wolf, I started roaming across the human territory often. I even contemplated on the thought of leaving the pack and living as a human in the city.”
I was surprised at his revelation, but did not say anything. As if understanding my cue, Drake continued.
“Many a times, I decided to accept the situation and embrace the human life. Sometimes my depression peaks and I could not accept the fate. Once when I was strolling aimlessly in such a mood, I stumbled in this park. I came in and sat on this same bench. I don’t know how to explain, but I felt a sense of peace. My heart said that something very important happened to me in such a place. Even then I knew it was not the same place, but similar to this. Every time I come here, my mind feels peaceful.”
I sat straight at his words. I realized what he was trying to say. Even though he did not remember at that time, he was able to connect to the time when he confessed his feelings for me. I looked at him with wide eyes at this revelation. Drake looked at me with a smile.
He slowly took my hand and encased in his. “No one knows about our past. No one knew that I had found my mate before my accident. Only Derek and Olivia knew about that. No one judges anything about you. The pack can understand you. In fact, they think that you love me so much to sacrifice your life for me. Everyone feels the same what I feel.”
“What do you feel?” I whispered at him.
Drake gave a small kiss on my hand and looked into my eyes. “That I am lucky to get a mate like you.”
“Are you?” I asked him.
“Do you need to ask?” He asked back.
Did I have to ask? Yes, after all, the assumptions I had, did not turn as I expected. Rather, assuming something and suffering later, let me get the assurance in words. I looked at him with determined eyes.
“Yes, Drake. I need to ask. I want to know what is my place, in your heart, home and in your life. I want to hear it from you.” My voice was a mere whisper when I finished the last sentence.
Drake stood up and took my hand and made me to stand with him. He stood facing me completely.
“I am not good with words. So I don’t know to explain my feelings properly. Sunshine, you are my life. You are like the air for me. Without you I am nothing. Even when I was not able to remember the memories with you, my heart was giving me hints about you. That’s why this place gave me sanctuary whenever I was very low in my life. That’s why I was so disturbed when I saw you again. Even when I decided mate with Aubrey…” he stopped with a humorless smile and continued.
“I cannot get you out of my mind. I have been always in war within myself about you. I know that some of the decisions I made, does not give a good impression about me. But only you, own my heart, mind and soul. I lay my heart bare in front of you. It is up to you to take it. Whatever decision you take, I will accept it. But you will be the only one for me in my life. Just tell what else I can do to prove myself.”
I looked at him with eyes wide. I could feel the sincerity in his eyes and in his words. Somehow by the way he accepted his mistakes, made me feel closer to him. He did not deny his actions, but took responsibility for them, which proved the truth about his feelings.
I hugged him very tight sobbing at the impact of his words. Drake hugged me back and we stood there hugging for a long time. We felt peace in each other’s embrace and did not want to part.