Never in my life have I felt more dedicated to anything. Not even my mission.
Every day I learn something new about Ace and I was always reminded of how amazing he is. I believed that we could have the greatest adventures of all time, only if I let him.
After we mated, it was almost impossible to stop. I never felt so connected to someone before--never felt so loved.
He had spent the whole day with me since he still had more meetings to get to, but that day was by far one of the best days ever. I felt all his emotions, all his adoration. It was almost overbearing.
He left the next day to continue with his meetings, but it was like he was still with me. Sometimes when I think about our relationship, I wonder: what does the future hold in store for us? What surprises are right around the corner? We have already had so many wonderful, exciting adventures, and it only had been a month and a half.
I cannot wait to see what the future holds for us. With him at my side, I knew that life will always be exciting. From the bumps in the road to the wonderful times, with our fair share of both heartbreak and laughter. I knew that there was no one I would rather spend my future with.
He was my special person.
When I thought about the fact that he is in my life, I truly cannot believe how lucky I am to have found him, despite the circumstances.
Over the past month, things have been both great and heart wrenching.
Aiden submitted the first report to dad, and I knew the plan was already in progress. Aiden didn't seem to mind that Ace and I were fully mated, but he released me off undercover duty until I 'learnt how to properly control my link with Ace'.
If I was being honest, I purposely didn't try, since it was still too much to bare. It hadn't helped that Ace wouldn't talk to me about my pack. Every time I brought the topic up, he would shut it down before it even started, and I didn't understand why.
I still had my questions about the woman that could possibly be my mom, but Ace wouldn't say anything for some reason, and no one else knew about it.
I still had to do my part at trainings, and I convinced Ace to let me do physical training on Fridays too. I needed it.
The end of the month was drawing near, and Aiden will submit another report as long as I was planless.
And planless I was.
Nonetheless, things with Ace had been great and I've allowed myself to develop a relationship with the others. I refused to believe that this war will be the end of us. Something will work out.
It has to.
"Happy birthday Ryan!" I exclaimed excitingly as I approached him. He flinched when I attempted to hug him. He was still afraid of me a little--so cute.
"Chill bro I'm not going to crush you "
"Sorry. It's just reflex I guess. And thank you" He returned the hug shortly after we shared a life, and I proceeded to get a water from the fridge.
It was a cool Friday evening, and I had just got back from training. I didn't forget his birthday, but it was too early when I left this morning and he wasn't awake yet.
"Lil bro is finally 16" Calum teased as he ruffled his hair.
"I'm 19 you dick! " Ryan defended as Calum burst out in laughter.
"Well whether 16 or 19, you have a party in two hours. Go get ready" Lilly ordered sweetly. Ryan rolled his eyes at that.
"I'm not a girl you know. I don't need twenty hours to get ready" He chuckled while he grabbed an apple and left anyways. I scoffed.
"I don't take twenty hours to get ready" I mumbled and glared in the direction he left.
"I'm sure you don't. But let's go get ready anyway" Lilly sounded excited as she dragged me out the kitchen despite my protests.
"I can get ready in thirty minutes Lillyyyyy" I whined when she wouldn't let me go. However, she still dragged me up the stairs. I saw Ace on the way to my room and he just smirked at me.
"Ace help" I pouted, but he just smirked wider and glanced at Lilly then me with an amused look on his face.
"I'm gonna stay out of this one babe"
"You traitor! " I shouted but the door closed in front of me before I could get the words out.
"Now now Roxy, not everyday is about sweats and leggings" Lilly sounded as if she was scolding a child.
I cocked my eyebrow at her and crossed my arms over my chest. "What's wrong with my clothes? "
"Nothing. You rock them better than anyone. But.... " She trailed as she picked up a dress bag from my bed that I didn't even notice was there. "Some days you gotta dress up"
I looked between her and the bag like they were kidnappers, then backed away slowly. "I don't know... Can't I just wear a pair of jeans and my cutest top? "
She gave me a deadpanned look then pointed at the bathroom door.
"Shower and fix your hair. I'll be back in thirty minutes" And with that, she left.
Red heads. Always so bossy.
Thirty minutes later I was sitting in my armchair, fully showered and my hair neatly pulled into a high ponytail with a few loose strands.
As promised, Lilly emerged in a robe with her hair let loose in all its fiery beauty. She held another dress bag, and I saw that she wore light makeup.
She already looked so lovely.
From my whole heat incident, I realized that we weren't ashamed of our nakedness around each other, so we got ready together.
As much as I didn't like dresses, I had to admit that mine was absolutely gorgeous. I didn't even think I could pull it off, but Lilly said I looked great in it.
It was a mid thigh purple bodycon dress, with a half shoulder design with a silver lining around the top and bottom. It was simple but beautiful. Lilly got me matching silver heels to go with it, and she spent the last thirty minutes helping to learn how to walk in them.
She also gave me a light layer of makeup to 'enhance my features' but I actually liked it. Once we were both dressed and I was confident enough that my feet wont break, we headed to the living room to meet the others.
Ace and Aiden were talking when we entered, and the moment they saw me their conversation stopped. At first I felt self conscious, but then the look on Ace's face made it go away.
The others had already left and it was just the three of us.
"You look great Rox " Aiden complimented, breaking the silence.
"Thanks Aide. It was all Lilly actually. If it was up to me I would've worn my leggings"
"And you would've looked stunning nonetheless" This came from Ace as he made his way to me. Aiden smiled and left us, so it was just the two of us.
I suddenly felt shy under his intense gaze and my stomach churned a bit. When I thought about it, I was getting sick quite regular nowadays. If I didn't know better, I'd thought that I was-
"You look beautiful" Ace whispered once he reached me, cutting me from my thoughts.
"You don't look too bad yourself Mr Handsome" I smirked.
"Give me one good reason why I shouldn't take you to my room and have you all night" He cupped my cheeks and stripped me with his eyes.
"Because it's Ryan's birthday and we can't miss his party" I said sweetly, biting my lip at the thought.
"Right.. " He trailed and clicked his tongue against the top of his mouth. "But I can have you after that"
"Hmm... Be on your best behaviour and I'll consider it" I attempted to pull my best seductive look and voice, and it seemed to work.
He harshly gripped my bum, making me yelp in surprise. He gave me a victorious smirk when he saw how affected I was.
"No promises there love"
I simply chuckled and pulled him in the direction of the kitchen towards the back yard.
"Wait one more thing" He said as he stopped me.
He gently tugged at my band that I used to hold my hair, never stopping until it was completely gone. My hair fell all over my shoulders in all its bundles, and he smiled widely at it.
He combed through it with his fingers, and ruffled to his hearts content. When he was done, he sighed contented and gazed at me lovingly.
"There. Now everything is perfect"
He bent down and captured my lips in a sweet kiss, something I've come to learn that I can't get use to. I only pulled away when my lower body started to get vivid.
"Let's get to that party before we don't make it" I suggested breathlessly, as I attempted to reapply my lipstick.
"I suggest you go lipgloss free. Unless you want to reapply every ten minutes" I rolled my eyes at him, but didn't say anything else as we entered Ryan's party.
But indeed I took his warning seriously, since I know I'll give in every time.