Chapter 46: Save Me
Both times now when I get the blood afterward I feel sick to my stomach. I don’t know if it’s the lack of eating or what it could be. But, on top of that, my mind has been racing non-stop. I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to say. There are so many things I want to tell you, so many things I want to say. I look at the back of Sasuke head as we begin to walk down the hall, away from Chris’ office. Why couldn’t I get in sooner and pull you aside to talk to you alone before all this? I don’t know how I’m going to get used to calling you a cousin. You’ve done so much for me, even before we knew we were blood-related and now you’re putting yourself through all this pain and suffering just to help me. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to face you if something bad happens to you. It’ll be all my fault.
“You know, you shouldn’t blame yourself for everything. And face Sasuke like you always do. He’s not going to be upset with you or mad at you. He has put all his trust in you. You’re his best friend, being his cousin is just a bonus to him.”
“Yeah, did you think I couldn’t talk to you via thoughts?”
But, you’re not even looking at me…so…
“How? That’s simple, I don’t need to be looking at you to read your thoughts. I can close my eyes and just listen to what others are thinking if I want. I’ve listened to Sasuke and Aaron’s thoughts countless times over these past months. I’m the sight prodigy after all.”
You realize that explained nothing, right?
“Yeah, I know. If doesn’t mean I can’t skip around your questions.”
You can be a real ass sometimes ya know.
“I’m aware I can be. But, you shouldn’t worry so much about Sasuke. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but he’s strong and when he has his mind set on something, he goes through with it, no matter what the rest of us try to say to change his mind,” I glance at the back of Gil’s head and he’s looking forward with his hands behind his back as we walk down the hall. Gil’s walking alongside Aaron as Andy and I walk behind them, and Sasuke is walking up next to uncle. “You can see it too, can’t you? The tension in Sasuke’s shoulders?” I look between Gil and Aaron to get a better look at Sasuke’s back. He’s holding his shoulders up so they’re perfectly square and he’s walking without the slight slump that he normally does. It means that he’s hiding something from all of us.
Do you know what it is?
“No, I don’t. He has a heavy wall up and I can’t get past it. It means that it’s something that he doesn’t even want me to know.”
He did get the spirit element a little bit ago, do you think that’s what’s causing it?
“No, him changing elements has no effect on my abilities to read his mind. But, knowing that, I wonder if he saw something once he received that element.”
What do you mean?
“There’s a temporary link that happens between Sasuke and the person that he’s receiving the element from. There are things that the moon elemental is allowed to see. Such as a part of the elementals past for example. Or something that’s not allowing them to do certain things. The person who is giving the moon elemental their element can’t see or control the glimpse that the moon elemental has required. And it’s up to the moon elemental if they wish to voice their opinion on what they saw or keep it hidden. But honestly, I don’t think that Sasuke even realizes that he gets those. He can be oblivious sometimes.”
Then how is he supposed to know about anything then?
“I’m assuming they could creep up on him while he’s sleeping. Either way, he’ll end up seeing it at some point.” Gil let go of his right hand and brought it back in front of him and up to his face. I’m assuming he was pushing up his glasses. He then let his hand fall back to where it was behind his back. “So, I’m very curious if this tension is a part of him not telling us something or from his body reacting to something that Sasuke has yet to see. It could also be a combination of both.”
Hua… I put my hands in my pockets. How long do you think it’s going to take for someone to come get us?
“It won’t take long. The only ones capable of making portals are Mr. Sonnen, Mr. Zimmer, and Mr. Caito. But, I’m sure that Mr. Caito has got to be here for some other reason. I kinda have a feeling that he surprised both Otto and Chris with his presences here.”
Any guesses as to why he was here then?
“No, as soon as I tried to read some of his thoughts he noticed my presence and instantly pushed me out. I haven’t been able to enter his mind since.”
I wonder why… I smirk and lightly shrug my shoulders.
“Don’t stare at me like that. I can feel your cocky smirk.”
Says the person who’s being quite talkative. I don’t think we’ve had this long of a conversation in such a short period of time.
“Don’t get your boxers in a bunch, you’ve had a long conversation with me before and you know it.”
Getting information on dragons shouldn’t count as a conversation ya know.
“True, because you were trying to help out Andy, so I guess I’ll count that out.”
You just called him Andy.
“Hua? Oh, yeah, I did, didn’t I? I guess that means I consider him a friend, doesn’t it?”
I wasn’t paying attention and ran into Gil’s back when everyone stopped, “Well someone’s a klutz today,” Andy snickered and I glared at him as I pulled away from Gil.
“You two were having a conversation, weren’t you?” Aaron whispered looking between the two of us.
“N-No we weren’t,” I hissed at him and Aaron just snickered.
“Na, you were. I’ve run into countless things while Gil and I were having thought conversations,” He waved me off. I look over at Sasuke and he’s not even looking at the rest of us. He’s not even paying attention.
Chris opened the door and we all walked into the room one after another. Andy came into the room last and shut the door behind him.
“Sasuke, I need you to stand here. I just want a small distance between you and others just in case something happens. I want everyone else along the wall somewhere. And I want at least two of you close to Sean just in case,” Chris pointed at the spot that was in the center of the room. We all did what he said. Gil stood on my right while Andy stood on my left and Aaron stood next to Gil.
“What are you doing?” Andy questioned putting a hand in his pocket and looking over at Chris.
“I’m taking down the radar that’s creating a barrier around the building. That way the wavelength that will be set off will easily make it to Amoura and they should be able to pinpoint a location. With you discovering your half-dragon the other day Andrew, it has probably already put the elementals on Amoura on high alert and watching the scanners. So, it’ll more than likely only be minutes before someone shows up,” He explained not looking at us as he clicked away on the panel.
“Ah wait, we still have another half an hour before we can do this. Otto gave Sasuke the spirit element so he can change into any other element yet,” I said moving from my spot and going over to Chris to stop him from clicking away on the panel.
“I know,” Chris answered me and pressed a button with the arm that I didn’t have a hold of. Four chains with cuffs attached to them came shooting out of the block that Sasuke was standing on and attached themselves to him.
“Sasuke!” Aaron shouts and I look at him then at Sasuke. He has a sad smile on his face as he looks at Aaron.
“It’ll be okay,” Suddenly, everyone is frozen in place. I look back at Chris and he’s facing toward me now.
“You can’t do this. You could seriously hurt Sasuke if you go through with this,” I clench my fist that was free and squeezed his wrist, “Please wait the half an hour, don’t do anything to him.”
“Sasuke knows what he’s getting into, and he’s willing to do it, in order to help you,” Chris said calmly to me, “With being a decent of a time element you technically already have the time elemental blood in you and because of that it was able to slow down your element enough to cause it to go dormant, but not fully dormant considering you were able to activate it twist instead of just once like the common gift that a non-elemental is allowed from their born element.”
“I don’t understand what you’re getting at. What does any of that have to do with not waiting?” I asked him and he pulled his free hand away from the panel and brushed my bangs away from my forehead. Leaning forward I felt his lips lightly press against my forehead. It only lasts a moment before he pulls away, but I can still feel his lips where he kissed my forehead, “What was that fucking for?”
“It was the get you to calm down. I would do it to your mother whenever she got hot headed,” He chuckled, but his smile was sad, “What I’m trying to say is, time and time again it should have worked with Sasuke switching his element. When we told you that it was weeks or days after we took the blood from Sasuke, it was only a max of a day old. But every time he switched his element it never activated. Therefore, waiting isn’t an option. Sasuke agreed that the only way to get it to work is to put his body under so much of a threat and stress that it would force it to switch elements, and during that time he would have to make sure he switches to the time element instead of back to his base element.”
No, he can’t…he can’t do this…I can’t let him do this…this isn’t right. I can’t let him put himself in so much danger just for me.
“This isn’t fair. I can’t do this to him,” I clenched my fists, “He’s been nothing but supportive and my best friend,” I lock eyes with Chris, “Please, don’t hit that button, I’m begging you.”
“I have to,” He said quietly and I let my hand slip from his wrist. I left a hand print with how tight I was holding him. “How can my own father, be willing to hurt his own nephew?”
“Because, I want to be able to help my son have the life he deserved from the start,” Those words pierce my heart and I fall silent.
“…I know what I’m getting myself into. I mean, if shit hits the fan then what’s the worst thing that’ll happen?” Sasuke finishes which mean that Chris started time once again.
“You’ll die, that’s the worst thing that can happen,” Aaron screams at Sasuke. I look over at him and tears are welling up in his eyes.
“I’ll be okay,” Sasuke smiles. Moments later his smile instantly changes and his body tenses up then starts shaking.
“SASUKE!” I scream and look back at Chris. His hand is still on the button. I grab his wrist once more and rip his hand off the panel and go to punch him and stop with my arm cocked back. It feels like my heart skips a beat and my body starts pounding. W-what is this? I let go of Chris’ wrist my hand shaking violently in front of me as I pull it back in. I clutch my shirt above my heart. Everything hurts…why does everything hurt? Where is this pain coming from? I stumble back a few steps away from Chris, but I can’t seem to keep my balance. Sh-shit, I can’t keep myself up. My legs buckle out from under me and I go crashing to the floor. My body, it feels like it’s on fire. I can’t even open my mouth, what the hell? Is this because of Sasuke’s blood? I force my head to move so I can see Chris, pain screaming through my body from the slightest movements that I’m making.
He’s standing above me and looking down at me. His hands are at his sides and there are tears trickling down his cheeks.
“Sean!” I hear Andy yell my name. I hear other footsteps around the room, but I can’t move my body to see where people are going. High pitched ringing is blocking out any sound. I can’t hear anything other than the damn ringing. My heart pounds even harder than it already is when I read his lips. “I love you.” Tears begin to blur my vision and I blink as the room starts spinning. When I open my eyes, he’s gone. You damn asshole. My pain was bad enough and you had to fucking go and say that…what they fuck…CAN THE FUCKING ROOM STOP SPINNING?? I feel like I’m going to fucking throw up. I close my eyes and try to get the spinning to stop. When did something cold press against my cheeks? There’s a strong popping feeling that rushes through my spine. Why does it feel like my body is tearing itself apart? Come on me, fuckin open your eyes damn it.
My eyes are burning, but I force them open, though it’s all I can do. I feel sick, my vision is blurry. I think someone flipped me onto my back. I can see an orange blur, that looks like Andy, but I can’t hear him. I can’t tell if he’s yelling at me or yelling at someone else. Another red blur flashed into my vision. Is it Aaron or Gil? I feel myself start coughing and I can’t keep my eyes open because I’m coughing so hard.
“Sean, Sean, can you hear me?”
“Can you open your eyes again?”
I don’t think I can. They feel too heavy. Another strong popping sensation runs up and down my back followed by pops from my shoulders, hips, knees, ankles, shoulders, every place that there’s a joint in my body they popped. I feel my body tense up for a moment and then I feel nothing. Like my body just went completely numb. There was nothing, I can’t get my body to move at all. There’s nothing, I can’t feel or hear anything.
“Se…Sea…Sean, Sean, please wake up!” Gil’s voice echoed around me.
I open my eyes, but there’s nothing but darkness around me. What was the point in opening my eyes if it’s the same thing that I was seeing with them closed? I roll onto my side and start coughing and dry heaving. When I finally calm down I push myself up. What’s going on? I can tell I’m not awake, awake considering it’s completely dark. Am I dead? Oh for fuck’s sake please tell me I’m not dead.
“No, no, you’re not dead. I thought you were for a few minutes there. You stopped breathing and your heart stopped. So, Andy and I were performing CPR on you. Thankfully after the fourth round, your body responded, but you were coughing up blood.”
Oh god, I was coughing up blood. I’m gonna fucking die. What the hell am I going to do? I don’t know what to do.
“Sean, calm down. I promise it’ll be okay.”
Gil, how can it be okay? I can’t actually wake up, I can’t even feel my own body. I don’t know what’s going on or what’s going on with Sasuke. Where did Chris go? What’s even going on? I just want to wake up. I can’t see Gil, but I know that he’s at least close to my body.
“I promise you’ll be okay.”
A bright light makes me close my eyes for a few seconds before I put my hand in front of my face and slowly open my eyes. What’s going on? It’s like a video that’s in front of me. I don’t get what I’m seeing and I feel myself go stiff when I see Sasuke bloodied and Aaron holding onto him practically in tears. Then a weird warp looking thing appeared out of nowhere and Mr. Kaisai came out of the thing and slid on his keens over to Sasuke and Aaron. What am I seeing?
“You were wondering what was going on.” Shortly after the image cut out and I was left in the darkness. “Sorry, I can’t hold that ability for very long. It’s not one that I’ve really been able to practice.”
Who else is here? What’s going to happen? Are Andy and I going to end up being left behind? I ask, but I don’t get a response back. Instead, I get another surge of pain pulsing through my body as my answer. Grabbing my head and tears blurring my vision, I can’t get myself to think straight anymore.
I want to open my mouth and ask what he was trying to say, but I can’t get myself to move or even speak. I can’t get words to form…I don’t know if I can even talk anymore. My throat feels like it’s on fire. I feel like I’m going to spontaneously combust into flames. I can’t tell which way is up or down. This darkness is never ending it seems. I hate this. I don’t know what’s going on. I’m scared. I’m so fucking terrified. What’s happening to me? I don’t understand. Can someone please tell me what’s going on! Gil, where are you? Can you even hear me? Please, I don’t want to be alone. I don’t want to be left all alone. I hate being alone, I hate it so so much. Another surge of pain hits me like a truck and I fall back down in my own mind. I’m drowning in pain.
I don’t understand what he’s saying. It’s so broken I just don’t understand it. My consciousness starts fading in and out. I just lay there in the darkness and let my eyes close. Someone, please…please help…save me…save me from this pain…I can’t take it anymore…please…