"You know, I really thought that my worries went away when I met you" I started out saying.
Gabriel looks at me with emotionless eyes, while I continue, "Before Lucifer, I wasn't really open to anyone. I felt alone all the time, but then I met him, and everything felt alright for a while."
"I don't know where you're going with this, Stella." Gabriel says while sighing.
"I met him, but then I also met you. I finally felt like I had a friend. A friend that I could trust. Someone who wouldn't make me feel alone. Also, someone that just wasn't Lucifer. Can you imagine what I felt like when I found out that it wasn't genuine? You were just using me, Gabriel. I was so shocked when I found out. I didn't know that it was possible for my best friend to betray me like that. Although we weren't really best friends from the beginning, I was just a pawn to your plan. How could I be so naive? How could you do this to me?" I said.
Gabriel looks me in the eyes. He does not say anything for a while. He just remains quiet. I still wait for him to speak. The quietness in the room made me feel angrier. Why doesn't he say anything?
"How can you remain silent after everything I just told you. Are you honestly this emotionless? I know that you are not! Why else would you try to overthrow Lucifer from his throne? Which is something that you never will be able to achieve. Never!" My emotions are getting to me. I can't control them anymore.
"Why are you beginning to like Lucifer again? Has he manipulated you even more? I didn't think it was possible to be so naive" Gabriel just shakes his head at me. As if he is disappointed.
I stare at him in shock. Why is he insulting me? I honestly can't believe that he is avoiding everything.
Gabriel continues, "I'm glad that you found out. I honestly hated everything about you. All I ever wanted was to destroy Lucifer, and I thought that maybe you could help me. Although, that did not happen. Maybe someday it will. Why won't you understand that I am a demon?"
As I listen to his hurtful words, the anger begins to slowly fade away, only to be replaced by sadness. I feel helpless as I look at Gabriel. The trust I once gave to him is crushed to tiny pieces. When will I learn to trust again? When will I learn to know better?
I sigh in sadness and wrap my shaky arms around myself. My erratic heartbeat did not really help me. I try to focus on something in this despicable cell, and I find comfort in the dark and stained corner. It was disgusting but it made me focus.
Gabriel must think that I have gone insane. That I have officially lost my senses. That I live in my own imagination. I could not care less. I just needed to calm down before the panic attacks happen. I did not want to deal with Lucifer witnessing my panic attacks.
"You're such a weakling. I can't believe that the devil himself found an interest in you. Someone says a couple of mean words to you and then you're shaken. You can't handle anything." Gabriel says while using a cold tone towards me.
Gabriel continues, "You will never be able to manipulate me. I will never be your friend again. I hope that you will die lonely and that Lucifer will see you for what you truly are. A weak emotional wreck that can't be fixed."
His words echos in my head and it's all that I can suddenly focus on. A wreck. I can't be fixed.
I try to calm myself down.
Don't listen to him, Stella. He just wants a reaction. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Deep breath.
I hear a loud laugh, "How adorable. You are trying to ignore me. It's impossible to ignore me. Remember that I was once your friend? No, sorry I meant your only friend! How pathetic." Gabriel taunts me.
Tears slowly roll down my cheeks. My vision is getting blurry. How could I ignore his words? He was right. I looked at him and he was smiling maniacally at me.
I turned around and hurriedly walked out of his cell. I needed to be alone. Today was not a pleasant day. I hope that Lucifer will not find out what has happened. He'll think differently of me. He won't accept me. I can't handle him being cold towards me again when we have just started getting along. The small steps we have taken will be forgotten, and we will start back again at square one.
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