I watched Cal leave my room with a heavy heart. He'd asked me if I loved him and I just froze and after my little show, I'd asked him to leave.
Everything was just so upsidedown and I didn't even know where or how to begin. Even True felt my grief. Well, it was our grief so, of course she felt it. I didn't want to deprive him of sleep again so I did my best to stop thinking about him and sleep which after a few minutes, I did.
I closed the door, walked to my bed with tears still streaming down my face and collapsed on the bed. How did everything get so wrong so quickly? Daphne, Calvin...and then I remembered Kenneth. Kenneth who'd tried to make me a deal. A deal which I hadn't replied to. He'd said when Daphne left but I...correction, we'd missed that meeting.
My head started to pound a little and I felt like something was drawing me into sleep. It was a familiar sensation. I lay comfortably in my bed and embraced the feeling.
I found myself in the usual spot. An all white room with nothing or no one in it. I got up from the floor and waited a little before I decided to call out to her.
“Mom!” I yelled.
“Took you long enough. I thought you were never going to call.” She said blankly.
“Well, you didn't show. I had no other choice.” I replied in just the same tone.
We looked at each other with stern expressions till we both gave in and laughed.
“I missed you, darling.” She said.
“It hasn't been that long.”
“It hasn't but I miss you every second you're gone.”
“Of course you do, I'm me.”
“You’re just as can cocky as your father was.”
“Well, I am the one with the Alpha blood, so...”
“Yes, yes you are.”
“So, why’d you bring me here?”
“Well, I just wanted to see you, you know, look into your beautiful eyes, ask how everything is...you know, the usual stuff.”
“I’m just joking but I do have advice for you.”
“Well let's get on with it” I said subtly but excitedly.
“Okay...it's about Calvin and Kenneth. You need to forgive Calvin. He already apologized so wholeheartedly. This man is not ashamed to cry in front of you, his mate despite the huge ego that men are known to have. What more do you want?”
“Nothing. I want nothing else.”
“Kiara, I'm going to ask you a question and you need to be a hundred percent honest with me. Are you ready?”
“My question is What do you want?”
“I...I wa...I want Calvin” I blurted out.
“If you want Calvin then why are you pushing him away?”
“I don't know! Okay, I don't know. It just feels right sometimes”
“And the other times?”
“It feels like an obligation” I said meekly.
“Kiara, I love you. I love that you're brave and strong and independent. You're a proud woman but don't let that pride get in between you and Calvin. If he can let go of his ego and pride and shed tears in front of you, then why can't you do same?”
I thought about her words and as usual it made so much sense.
“Now about Kenneth, do not accept whatever deal he offers you. You own that position and he can not buy it from you. Understood?”
“Thank you so much, mom. You’re the best mother. In life and death.”
“I know, I know.” she replied blushing.
We both laughed and she beckoned to me to come forward to give her a hug. I did as expected and we shared a long hug.
“So, this is goodbye, right?” I asked.
“For now, though but yes, this is goodbye.”
“Wait!” I yelled. “One last thing.” I continued. “Is it True that if your mate is thinking about you, then you won’t be able to sleep?”
“Yes, it's true. Now, you need to go. It's morning already.”
“Goodbye, my love.”
I woke up to the sound of birds chirping and the sun shining through the curtain blinds and almost blinding me. As usual, the memory of I and my mother’s conversation was still fresh in my brain and I felt so rested despite the fact that I'd been talking all through the night.
I stood up and walked into the shower to have my bath. Calvin’s scent was still fresh in the bathroom and I was about to pull off my shirt when I realised I didn't have any clothes there. I walked back out and groaned in annoyance.
I opened his small wardrobe and his scent came like a tornado as my nostrils flared. His scent was something I would never get tired of. I picked up one of his shirts and sniffed it but then, remembered my problem. No clothes and I wasn't willing to wear any of his clothes. Wait, why did I open his wardrobe in the first place? I mentally questioned myself but then, it turned out to be a good idea. I smelled his shirt again and made my decision. I was going to track him.
I walked towards the door and opened it only to find him standing there with a stack of clothes in his hands. Obviously, they were clothes for me. I looked straight into his eyes and the look on his face was all it took for me to run into his arms and cry, which I did. I cried like there was nothing left for me to do.
“Shut up. I want to say something. I...I l...I forgive you. I forgive you and I'm sorry for everything I did and for putting you through so much. I'm so sorry. I'm so so so sorry. I'm really sorry”
“Thank you.” He said in a whisper like tone.
He was obviously expecting something more. Something like “I love you” but just like mother said, I had to work on my pride. It was literally on my tongue but I just couldn’t say it. At least he knows I’ve forgiven him and I don't hold any grudges against him. At this point, to me and possibly him, that's all that really matters.
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