The moment I step foot in Blueming packs house, I can feel a strong force and a strong scent.
"Tell them to wait for me for a while. I have to look for something outside first."
I quickly trotted my way into the back of the packhouse because the scent was stronger there. But I was face to face with a girl. I look at her up and down, she looks so poor. The girl's clothes were full of stains from which I don't know where it comes from. She's kind of disgusting but as I look into her face. God, she was so beautiful. And it kicks me in. The girl is my mate.
"Mate," I uttered unbelievably.
"Mate," she mumbled back.
I eyed her. Her hair was color brown that was cascading behind her back but it was so messy. Sweat was also dripping in her face like she just ran a mile in a hurry.
"Who are you?" I asked coldly. Then I saw the look she gave me like she was hurting. But I don't care. I can't accept that she's my mate, she looks so weak.
"I-I'm Alexandria Gregory, 18, an omega..."
Omega. She's an omega. My mate is a f*cking omega? There's no way I could accept this! This is disgusting. She is disgusting!
"Are you f*cking kidding me? The f*ck? My mate is an omega? This can't be f*cking real!" I spat unbelievably. H*ck, I must be dreaming.
"What if I am?" she said in a voice full of hurt. But I don't care. I won't accept this. I'd rather marry Liza than an omega. An Alpha is for an Alpha only. An omega is for omega only.
I growled and grabbed the collar of her shirt. "I am an Alpha and this mate thing is not f*cking real! Omega is for omega only! Do you understand that? I am an Alpha and I can't accept this." I said and pushed her then she stumbled into the ground. Her tears poured down. It kind of stung to see her cry but I ignore it. This is f*cking unbelievable. Moon Goddess why her? Why an omega?
"But you are my mate! You can't deny that!" she said angrily while still crying. I scowled at her.
"No! You're disgusting!" I spatted back angrily. I should reject her. I don't want her to be my mate. I'm going to marry Liza anyway for the union of our packs. This is for the packs future, I should think first about what is better for the pack than for myself. Damn, but why does it hurt to reject her? The looks she gave me was full of pain and hatred. But I have to do this.
"I, Alpha Azrael Shepherd, reject you, Alexandria Gregory as my mate," I said coldly and then turned my back so that I wouldn't see her reaction. I have said it and it's already done. I stopped in my tracks when she shouted at my back.
"No! You can't do this to me, Azrael! I will make sure you'll regret this! I, Alexandria Gregory, also reject you, Azrael Shepherd as my mate! I hope the Moon Goddess will curse you to never find your true happiness ever again! I hate you to the moon and back, Azrael Shepherd!!!" her words... it was full of hatred and rage. And why do I feel like I've made a bad decision?
And it hurts like a b*tch even though this is the first time that I have seen her. I wanted to look back at her and take back my words but what's done is done. I couldn't take back my words now. Instead, I continued walking towards the pack's house.
"Azrael! Where did you go?" Liza asked me when she saw me getting inside the house. I smiled at her like nothing happened a while ago. Liza is beautiful and she has been my girlfriend for almost 2 years now. I can say I loved Liza, that's why I abandoned my mate. I am already tied to Liza too, we were already engaged last month and I don't want to hurt her. So I have made a choice, that is to reject my mate.
Rejection. She also rejects me and it f*cking hurts. My wolf is also crying and he wouldn't talk to me because of my choice. I know I am a jerk and I feel bad for hurting my supposed to be mate.
It's too late now. I already reject her.
Her face. Her face was flashing in my mind every f*cking second and minute. She's all I could think of.
"Azrael? Are you listening?"
"Uh, are you saying something babe?" I asked and she frowned. Her eyebrows furrowed together then narrowed her eyes.
"Are you thinking of another girl?!" she scowled. Damn. What's with this woman?
"I don't," I said coldly and walked towards Michael, my Beta.
"Beta, let's cancel the meeting today. I don't feel good." I said then left quickly. Liza shouted my name but I didn't give a damn. All I could think was how my heart was aching.
I didn't know rejection could distract myself. I didn't know it hurts like a b*tch. Is she also hurting like this?
Damn, why can't I get her off my mind?
I groaned and shifted then ran towards the forest. I want to be alone for now.
Alexandria Gregory, what did you do to me? Why are your words stuck up in my mind? And why do I feel like I already regret the second you said it back? The second you accepted it because of hatred?
Ugh, you're f*cking kidding me!
I have to find her! I have to ask where she is. All I know is she's an omega.
I mindlink Michael to help me find this girl. I have to talk to her. 'Michael, can you look for the name Alexandria Gregory in that pack?'
'Why, Alpha? Who is this girl?'
'Just do what I said. I have to know all about her.'
I sighed and stopped running. I am too far away from Blueming packs now. I saw a big rock and sat while still thinking about my stupidity. I have also waited for her for years and then when I see her, I reject her? Stupid self.
I hated myself more than Alexandria did. But Moon Goddess why an omega? I still don't understand why her.
"No! You can't do this to me, Azrael! I will make sure you'll regret this! I, Alexandria Gregory, also reject you, Azrael Shepherd as my mate! I hope the Moon Goddess will curse you to never find your true happiness ever again! I hate you to the moon and back, Azrael Shepherd!!!"
I heard her words in my head again. I remember her beautiful face that was filled with tears. Two different colors of eyes were full of hate and disappointment. I f*cking disappointed my mate.
I'm sorry... I mumbled to my wolf but he never replied. He's also angry with me.
I know I am the dumbest of the stupidest werewolf on this planet! I groaned and ran again towards my packhouse. I slammed my door shut loudly when I reached my room. I slammed my body into the mattress. I buried my face into the pillow then screamed. My heart was still aching and for the first time, I cried.
I need Alexandria Gregory. I need to get her. I f*cking can't continue living because of the guilt I felt. I will forever blame myself if Alexandria won't want to see me again.
She's also hurting. I can feel it. My heart is also crying in agony. This feeling is all new to me. And it was because of Alexandria Gregory. The girl who stole my heart the first time I saw her.
"But you are my mate! You can't deny that!"
I heard her voice in my head again and it repeated again and again. And it was eating me alive.
I have to see her and take back my words.
'Michael, any news? I mindlink Michael again.'
'Alpha, the girl was missing. Her packs were looking for her now.'
'I have to go, Alpha. I'll talk to you about all the details later.'
I stood up and pacing back and forth. Did she leave? Did she leave because of me? F*ck! This is my fault.
I have to find her first.
I quickly stormed out of my room and ran towards the forest as fast as I could. You can't f*cking leave Alexandria Gregory.
You just can't leave me hurting because of my stupid decision.