“I’m your assistant and nothing more.”
“I curse Selene for mating me with him.”
“I wish I didn’t have a mate.”
Aspen’s voice has been playing in my head for the past two weeks. I heard her thoughts as I walked away from her door. My stomach twisted in knots as I saw the disappointment written all over her face. Guilt filled me up.
I was frustrated with why did I care so much about her feelings. Why did I feel so guilty about a small kiss that meant nothing? I felt disgusted when Rose kissed me. I felt disgusted with the whole sight of her. I told her to leave and never come back.
I was walking past Aspen’s door when I heard her thoughts. “I wish he would just reject me so we can be over all this.” I stopped walking when I heard that. “Maybe I should reject him.” I heard her think and a crippling pain shot through my body.
I knocked on her door to try to erase that thought out of her mind. When she opened it, I just wanted to wrap her in my arms and show her what a real kiss looks and feels like. That whatever she saw with Rose wasn’t real.
But I knew she didn’t want that. So I left and I haven’t said much to her since. She’s completely distant from me. She doesn’t make eye contact with me. For a few days after I tried to keep her close to me so I could try to make her look at me. But she wouldn’t.
She would just give me short answers or nods. I just gave up trying to fix things and would give her whatever small task I could think of the keep us away from each other. But it was hard for me. I missed her so much.
Today was Beta Emily’s birthday and Jace wanted to throw her a big surprise bash her in the mansion for just the people we personally know. Jace spent all day getting things ready for her. He had Aspen keep her out all day and clear my schedule. I was happy for a moment of not being awkward around her. Jace and I had just got done hanging the banner up when he pulled me to the side. “Let me talk to you for a second.” he said.
I nodded my head and we walked upstairs to my office as the house staff finished laying out the food. We walked in and I sat down on my couch. “Whats up?” I asked. “So don’t be mad.” he started while running his fingers through his hair. I lifted my eyebrow and sat up straight.
“What did you do?” I asked skeptical. “Well I didn’t do anything directly.” He said. “Spit it out Jace.” I said. He took a deep breath and rubbed his neck. “So Emily might know that you and Aspen are mates.” he spitted out. I wasn’t mad but I did feel a bit agitated. “I told you not to tell anyone.”
“Well I didn’t exactly. She kind of figured it out and I inadvertently confirmed it.” he said as he sat on the arm of the chair in front of me. “What happened? I asked. ” Well, that day when Rose came over, she came up and told me everything that happened. She said Aspen was livid and looked like she was going to kill both of you.” He said and I just sat back and rubbed my head.
“She said she couldn’t understand why she was so upset or why you looked so worried. She said you even chased after her.” He spoke. “Did you?” He asked after a pause. I nodded my head. “Holy shit dude you must really have feelings for her.” He said as he got distracted “Finish what you were saying” i told him.
“Today she said she has been watching how you two act around each other for the past few weeks. She said it looked like two magnets refusing to connect with each other. Then she said that you two had to be mates. And I was shocked by her comment. The expression on my face gave it away.” he finished his story.
I let out a deep sigh. I was irritated with this whole ordeal. “Fine. Just tell her to keep it quiet.” I said as I got up. “So your not mad?” Jace asked. I looked at him and shook my head. “Nah. You could never keep a secret. I’m surprised you kept it this long.” I joked with him.
He gave a goofy grin and reached out for a bro hug. I gave him one and he excused himself to go finish getting ready for the party. I waited until the door was closed before I let out a deep breath. I was stressed about this mate thing. And only two things distracted me from stress. Work and sex.
Since I wasn’t interested in having sex with anyone else, work was going to have to distract my mind. I logged on to my computer and did some work until Jace linked me saying they were pulling up. I turned off my computer and walked downstairs.
“Here they come.” Jace said to everyone as I slipped in the back of the crowd waiting for them at the front door. The moment they walked in, everyone yelled “Surprise!” and popped streamers. Everyone attention was on Emily but my eyes were stuck on Aspen.
Her hair was down in messy curls. She had on a long black dress that stopped just past her knees and hugged her curvy figure. The dress had designer cuts on it so parts of her smooth soft looking almond skin peeped through. She looked gorgeous. I wanted her. She turned her head and for the first time in weeks, our eyes laid on each other.
She held no emotions on her face. “Why do I still want him?” I heard her thought as she turned away and walked towards the large den that the party was in. She walked past me and my arm automatically reached for her and grabbed her.
I lead her upstairs to my bedroom. I lead her in and closed the door behind us. I turned to look at her. She played with her fingers nervously. “Is there something you need Alpha?” she said looking down at the floor. I walked up to her and lifted her chin up. I stared into her beautiful green eyes and took in her scent. “I’m sorry I hurt you Aspen.”
Her eyes grew in shock as she heard my apology. Truth is I don’t understand why I’m apologizing to her. I just know I want to do whatever it takes for me to keep looking at these eyes. “Rose is nothing to me. She never was and never will be. I only want you.” I said as I noticed her breathing became shallow.
I wrapped my arm around her and pulled her body close to me. I swiped my thumb across her soft lips as I leaned in and finally touched hers with mine. Electricity ran throughout my body as our lips touched. Her arms wrapped around me and one of her hands played in my hair.
Our lips parted as our tongues danced with each other. She tasted so sweet. My hands roamed down her ample behind and I gave is a soft squeeze. She let a moan escape into my mouth and it made me hungrier for her. “Rykie honey. Are you.. What the fuck!” I heard Rose voice and I turned around.
What the hell was she doing here? “You whore! Get your hands off my man.!” She yelled as she charged for Aspen. But I stood in front of her. “What are you doing here Rose?” I asked feeling irritated. “What is she doing here?!” Rose asked pointing a finger at Aspen.
“Because I can.” Aspen came around me and stood with authority over Rose. Aspen was only a few inches shorter than Rose but she stood with power. Rose narrowed her eyes at Aspen and started to walk up on her but Aspen gave a threatening growl that caused even me to stop moving. “You don’t belong here. I’m the Alpha’s chosen Luna.” Rose said.
Before I could say anything, Aspen let a snort. “You were his chosen lay. Just something to get his rocks off. Your old news. ” Aspen said as she shifted her weight and looked Rose up and down.
“If I was old news, then why did he sleep with me the last time I was here.” Rose said as she folded her arms across her chest. Both Aspen and I’s eyes grew wide. She turned towards me and walked up to me. “You slept with her that day?” She asked in a tone the struck me speechless. I stuttered a few times before I was able to speak. “No. Well yes but.”
Was all I could say before I felt a hard sting on my jaw. I saw fury in her eyes. She lifted her hand to slap me again but I caught it. I was fighting my Alpha mentality to not hurt her for hitting me. We both stood there staring at each other, flaring our nostrils.
“Give me a minute with Rose.” I said after a few breaths. She snatched her arm away from me. “He can have all the time he wants with her. Cause I’m rejecting him the next chance I get.” I heard her thought. I snatched her hand again as she turned to walk away.
“Don’t reject me Aspen. I just need a moment.” I linked her as I gave her a pleading look. She looked taken aback for a second but just snatched her wrist from my grasp and walked out the door. I looked down to the ground to collect myself.
“What the fuck was all that?” Rose asked as she walked in front of me. “None of your damn business. What are you doing here? I told you not to come back here.” I said through clenched teeth. “You think you can just kick me out. I am the chosen Luna.” She said.
“I never said you were my chosen Luna. You are nothing to me. Now get out!” I yelled. Rose looked taken aback then her face turned red. “Ever since she’s been here you’ve tossed me to the side. What is she your mate or something?” She asked and I stood there quiet just staring at her. “She is your mate isn’t she?” She asked.
I grabbed her by the arm lead her towards the door. “You need to leave.” I said but the she snatched back. “No! Is she your mate Ryker?” She demanded. “Yes!” I yelled. There was a silence that fell on us. “You are going to leave here and never come back.” I stated in my Alpha tone. She looked at me and narrowed her eyes.
“No.” She said. I let out a growl. “I wasn’t asking Rose.” I said as I took a step closer to her. “I don’t care if she’s your mate. She’s not going to mess this up for me. I will be your Luna.” she said and for once I let out a genuine laugh. “You will not. You never were going to be.” I said.
“Yes I am. Tell me Alpha. Do you know who my father is?” she asked. “No. And I don’t care to know.” I said as I grew frustrated. “Well you should. Because my father is Council Terrin. Head of the science sector.” She said with a smirk. “What does that mean to me?” I asked two seconds away from throwing her out.
“I know about the little project you were working on about the cancer treatment.” She said as I lifted my brow. She started walking closer to me. “It’ll be a shame if that treatment would get leaked to The President. Then you would lose your leverage and won’t be able to find out who killed your father.”
My anger started to rise and I lost my temper. I grabbed her by the neck and squeezed. She gasped for air as she tried to scratch at my arm. “It isn’t wise to blackmail your Alpha pack member.” I said through clenched teeth as I dropped her. She gasped for air as she layed on the floor.
“Get out or else I’ll have you thrown in prison.” I said. She took her last few breathes and stood up. “Well lets just see how everyone will feel about their new Luna being a murderer.” She said as she stormed towards the door. I grabbed her back and forced her to look at me.
“Your not going to say anything to anyone.” I said “Why shouldn’t I?” she said through clenched teeth. “Because I order you not to.” I said simply. She looked at me and stanched her arm from me. “Fine.” She said and walked out the door. I followed behind her and watched her walk down the steps and out the front door.
I ran down the stairs to find Aspen. I needed to explain to her what was going on. When I walked in the den area, Jace bombarded me. “For fuck sake Ryke. What did you do to her?” he half whispered half yelled. “What do you mean?” I asked.
“Ever since she came down here she’s been throwing back shot after shot. She’s fucking drunk.” he said. I looked over all the heads trying to find her. “Where is she?” I asked. “She umm. Nile took her outside for some air.” he said and fury filled me. “Fuck!” I said as as walked out the back door. I tried to find either of their scents but I couldn’t find it. “What happened man?” Jace came behind me and asked.
“Fucking Rose. She told her we slept together last time she was here.” I said as I rubbed my hands down my face. Jace eyes almost popped out his head. “You slept with Rose? Even after you found Aspen?” he asked shocked.
“No. Well yes. I thought if I could just sleep with someone else I would stop wanting Aspen. I would stop wanting to mate with her. I thought it would get me over this mate thing but it didn’t. I couldn’t even finish. All I wanted was her. All I kept thinking about was Aspen. I kicked Rose out after I got frustrated.” I said in one breath. I stood there looking at the ground trying to reach the link for Aspen but I couldn’t feel her. I let out a frustrated grunt as I gave up trying.
Jace patted my back.” Come on man. You need a drink or maybe ten.” he said as he lead me back into the house. I kind of just zoned out for the rest of the party. I wasn’t drunk but I wasn’t mentally there either. Eventually I just retired to my room and laid down. I was tossing and turning. I looked at the clock and it was only 8:30.
I got up and went down stairs to get a drink of water. The party was still going on but I just didn’t want to be bothered. Before I walked in the kitchen, I could see Aspen from the corner. She was smiling and laughing with Nile. Her smile was bright and beautiful. I’ve never seen her smile and laugh like this. Jealousy filled me up as I realized that I never make her happy like that. I stepped into more the kitchen drawing their attention.
“Alpha.” Nile nodded but Aspen just went back to eating her ice cream. “Aspen. I need to speak with you.” I said to her. “No. I’m off work right now.” she said nonchalant. My patience became thin as I wasn’t use to being told no and I had enough with that word today. I let out a growl ,grabbed her by her arm and pulled her upstairs.
“Let me fucking go.” she kept saying as she kept trying to wiggle out my grasp. I went into her room and pushed her in. I closed the door behind me and walked up to her. “Listen to me. You are my mate and you work for me for the next eleven months. You will do what I say when I say and I never want to see you around Nile again. Is that understood?” I said as I pointed my finger in front of face.
She glared at me and stayed silent. “Is that understood?” I asked again with more authority. She mumbled a yes and I told her she was done for the night. I grabbed the door handle and opened it. “I hate Selene for mating me with you.” she said as she rolled over in her bed. “That's probably the only thing we have in common.” I said before I slammed the door shut.
I didn’t mean what I said but I was growing tired of this game with her. I’m over it. After these next eleven months I won’t have anything to do with her and I can’t wait for it to be over.