Devilish
In the middle of the night when I'm awake, sweats running off my face, confused, unable to speak or move. My heart pounding like a god damn generator, my eyes forced on the one thing that's right in front of me. A red light, like a flame.
My eyes burn as I'm focused on it. Even though I tried, I couldn't take my eyes off it. Then I saw the hellish red flame slowly turning into a cold blue sea of monster. And suddenly it vanished right before me. And as it vanished I began to feel a mix of heat and cold in my body. The thirst to hurt people, the devilish thought of killing people, the power to rule, the strength to fight, the desire to dream, but a dream full of nightmares.
And at that moment it felt like the world as it known for me was gone. Like it was overtaken by something greater than good. Something far more powerful than evil. That was the time I realized that I was trapped between the good and bad of this world. Unable to explain the things happening to me I rushed up from my bed to get to the bathroom. I was scared, terrified and most strangely I felt powerful. It was like a feeling that I never felt in my whole life.
It wasn't the first time that something like this happened to me. Sometimes in my sleep can hear a man's voice, telling me to give up. Telling me not to fight back. It feels like the voice inside of me wants to consume me. Slowly and in pain. Judging from the voice I could tell that it wasn't anything good. It's pure evil. And even though I don't want to admit, I feel like it's a part of me. Trapped inside my body. Unable to come out. And the more I think about it the more I can feel the pain, hate, sadness, regrets, and total darkness inside of me.
