More Questions Than Answers
A/N this chapter is going to be a heated chapter viewer discretion advised.
It felt like forever when my bio-father started to answer my question. He didn’t seem to like the way I asked him my question. But I really didn’t care as I had suffered so much due to their poor parenting. I know they had a whole kingdom to look after but they did it at the expense of their children’s happiness.
That thought alone was enough to make my stomach turn in knots. I felt like my twin sister had a right to feel angry. I would not minimize her pain because who was I to say what she needed to feel? Today I would get my answers before I decided what I wanted to do. I just wanted to hear their side of the story. My father cleared his throat as he prepared to say what he was going to say.
" When you and your siblings were born we loved you guys right away. We had no intention of giving you up at all.” He paused giving me time to understand what he had just said.
" But as you might know Your mother is a Greek goddess and Zeus has rules about children. After the Persephone, Hades, and Demeter incident Zeus made a law saying that goddesses need to give up their kids and have them live on earth. No Greek gods and goddesses get to raise their children and because of that law we were not able to keep you and your siblings.” My father said with unshed tears in his eyes.
I guess I knew less than I assumed I did but that still didn’t excuse them for what they doomed me to. that answer didn’t make me feel better at all, as the memories of my fake parents beating me sprung to my mind. I shook the memory from my mind and looked my father in the face as I said what I needed to say.
" I guess as far excuses go that one is not terrible but you still doomed me to suffer the abuse when you gave me to that family. though I do want to get to know you guys, You don’t get to waltz back into my life and act like parents when you left me to die in the mortal realm. I called to you Selene every night praying that you would help end my suffering but you did nothing. Why in the hell should I ever put my trust in you guys ever again?” I said my own temper starting to get the best of me.
I was seething with rage. at their confession and I am angry at the gods for the domino effect they set off by making that rule. They had no right to decide what a mother should do when they had a child. They had no right to dictate what a child of side gods or goddesses could or couldn’t do when they found out about their parent.
“We understand your anger but we want to make it bette-” Henrick started to say before I interrupted him.
“You have no idea what I have been through to make any of it better so don’t start with that. You weren’t there when I was getting beaten every day simply for not getting up on time to make breakfast. You were not there when that man chained me up with silver and beat me with that silver threaded whip. You were not there when My mate rejected me and I tried to kill myself because nobody cared about me. I have bottled it up long enough but not anymore. You guys are an even bigger disappointment than my mate rejecting me.” I said in my most heated state that I was having trouble calming down.
“Where is your nearest shifting woods I need to run some of my anger off?” I asked in the most tempered voice I had ever had in my entire life. I didn’t want to be in the same room as these people right now.
“We know that you are angry but please let us be there for you now. Let us help you. We still love you.” Selene tried to say and that’s when something in me snapped. and I felt void of any emotion like the day I was rejected.
“Where was that love years ago when I was suffering? Let’s face it you would have been happy if all of us were dead that’s why you didn’t save me from ten years of abuse and neglect.” I said in a cold voice that wasn’t me in the slightest.
“Now like I asked before Where is there a good place to run my wolf wants out.?” I asked for the second time.
I find it funny how they would try to justify damning their children to a horrible life while living in luxury here in wolf country in the judge palace. It was almost like they thought non of us kids would pick up on the unfairness of the situation. They acted like they did everything for us but I was feeling like they did it for themselves. I was starting to feel like all gods and goddesses were selfish.
“I will have one of the maids lead you to the east woods stick to the path so you don’t get lost.” My mother said with a sorrowed look on her face.
I didn’t need her pity and I didn’t really want her apologies, They were not warranted. I just wanted to know a drop of what I have felt for my whole life. I also knew that it might not be fair to take my anger out on them but I didn’t know what else to do. Yes I had been through many therapy sessions but there was still one thing the Deltra Female, Abby, And I had yet to talk about and that was My bio-mother and bio-father. I guess at this moment I just wanted to let my anger shine through to show that I would not be manipulated anymore.
When I began walking out the door Julian was standing there with a worried look on his face. I knew that he had felt my emotions through the bond. He must have been on his way back from seeing his brother. He didn’t say anything and just wrapped his arms around me as tears started running down my eyes. I really just wish I was never born. That way I could have saved myself from my own fate.
Julian held me patiently while I just broke down. No matter what I don’t think I would have ever been ready for that truth bomb. It just hurt to know that they never fought for my siblings or me at any point and I just don’t think I could see the goddess in a positive light ever again.
Julian stood there rubbing my back calming me down while my body settles into small shakes. We must have stood there for hours because when I was done my mom was behind me wrapping her arms around me and Julian. I think she was just letting me get my anger out and I was thankful but I would not forget what they cursed me into when they gave me up.
“I am so so so so sorry my child if I could have raised you I would have but Zeus is relentless with his rules and he doesn’t care who he hurts in the process. I loved you from the moment you and Delilah were born. I didn’t want to let you go, but I knew I could lose your future if I didn’t do it. But you need to know That your father and I would never do something to purposely hurt you.” She said while running her fingers through my hair.
As much as I hate to admit it, The way she did it was soothing my anger that was misplaced on her. When all was said and done I would be handling the situation with Zeus personally. I would beat it into his head that his rule would be damaging to the young demigods and goddesses out there. I would be their retribution if it was the last thing I do and I would start with getting my family together.
I really wanted to meet Delilah and my two brothers. I wondered what kind of life they had lived and what pack they were in. I wondered if they would look like me and Delilah or if they would look like our dad with his sandy blond hair. All I do know is that I needed to track them down and get them to my side.