1. New Beginning
"Today is the day Xayla. Your first day as a senior. There is nothing else new besides that in your young adolescent life."
But, there is though.
I spoke to the girl in the mirror with a convinced look.
"All you need to do is get through senior year without being seen.
You're a nobody this year. No one important.
Look at you, weird looking...
With your tanned skin, dark brown hair and of course your eyes...
Your big soon to be green eyes..."
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath trying to calm my erratic heartbeat. What I don't want is heading straight into the lane on panickville today. This will not do me any good.
"Breathe Xayla..." I told myself calmly.
"It's only senior year. The only thing you need not do is slip up this time."
I grabbed my specially made contact lenses and hurriedly put them in. I was already late for school despite waking up on time. Then again, I would be on time only if it weren't for my anxiety.
I looked back at my reflection in the mirror.
I'm nothing but a sun-kissed girl with long chestnut locks who has a special ability and a good sense of fashion... And of course....my now green eyes.
"Xayla, if you're not downstairs in thirty seconds, i'm dragging you down myself!" My much older sister yelled.
I grabbed my messenger bag, my brand new phone and my car keys before heading downstairs.
"You know you don't have to shout. I have perfectly good hearing and it will only be damaged by you shouting all the time." I raised my brows at her motherly demeanor.
"Whatever. Now I don't think I have to remind you-"
"Yeah, yeah, yeah. Don't slip up. Don't catch any feelings. Avoid drama." I cut her off before she could finish. I'm seriously considering putting duct tape across her mouth because i'm getting a headache from all her talk.
"Don't cut me off when i'm talking. You know i'm just looking out for you and you already know why. We don't want them to-"
"Yes you don't have to remind me 24/7 Kalina. I'm leaving now. School? Remember?" I cut her off once more. It was hard enough having to live my life so I rather not be reminded about it so often.
I walked out the door and got in my car before she could say another word.
"Be careful!" Kalina shouted with a concerned expression stretched across her face.
Without any hesitation I revved the engine and began the short journey ahead to the hell hole they refer to as 'school'.
I know Kalina's worried sick about me because of what happened a couple months ago, but I know what i'm doing now and I sure as hell won't slip up.
Not this time.
But, there is though.
I spoke to the girl in the mirror with a convinced look.
"All you need to do is get through senior year without being seen.
You're a nobody this year. No one important.
Look at you, weird looking...
With your tanned skin, dark brown hair and of course your eyes...
Your big soon to be green eyes..."
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath trying to calm my erratic heartbeat. What I don't want is heading straight into the lane on panickville today. This will not do me any good.
"Breathe Xayla..." I told myself calmly.
"It's only senior year. The only thing you need not do is slip up this time."
I grabbed my specially made contact lenses and hurriedly put them in. I was already late for school despite waking up on time. Then again, I would be on time only if it weren't for my anxiety.
I looked back at my reflection in the mirror.
I'm nothing but a sun-kissed girl with long chestnut locks who has a special ability and a good sense of fashion... And of course....my now green eyes.
"Xayla, if you're not downstairs in thirty seconds, i'm dragging you down myself!" My much older sister yelled.
I grabbed my messenger bag, my brand new phone and my car keys before heading downstairs.
"You know you don't have to shout. I have perfectly good hearing and it will only be damaged by you shouting all the time." I raised my brows at her motherly demeanor.
"Whatever. Now I don't think I have to remind you-"
"Yeah, yeah, yeah. Don't slip up. Don't catch any feelings. Avoid drama." I cut her off before she could finish. I'm seriously considering putting duct tape across her mouth because i'm getting a headache from all her talk.
"Don't cut me off when i'm talking. You know i'm just looking out for you and you already know why. We don't want them to-"
"Yes you don't have to remind me 24/7 Kalina. I'm leaving now. School? Remember?" I cut her off once more. It was hard enough having to live my life so I rather not be reminded about it so often.
I walked out the door and got in my car before she could say another word.
"Be careful!" Kalina shouted with a concerned expression stretched across her face.
Without any hesitation I revved the engine and began the short journey ahead to the hell hole they refer to as 'school'.
I know Kalina's worried sick about me because of what happened a couple months ago, but I know what i'm doing now and I sure as hell won't slip up.
Not this time.
