How was this possible? He was dead. We saw his shredded body and we even burnt him. Why the fuck did the demon ask for little mousy?
“Shall I leave?”
Shit. I forgot she was here.
“No” I muttered, “You need to help”
“I don’t think there is anything I can do right now,” She said, with a shrug “Considering that your brothers are out, and Emily is with Theo. I should just leave.”
“If I let you leave, Xander will fucking kill me,” I said, shooting her a look, “He said you have to stay here tonight.”
She groaned “I can’t! I need to get home. I have things to do and people to see.”
“They can wait,” I said, sitting on my bed. She groaned again and went to take her heels off, but I saw right up her dress. I didn’t even feel guilty that I saw her underwear. I gulped as the heat built up again.
I quickly looked away from her as she sat up straight and I cleared my throat making her look up at me. She sent me a small smile and shook her head.
“Next time I go out, I’m not wearing heels.” She muttered, “In fact, I’m wearing jeans!”
“You looked good,” I said, and my face burned. What the hell was wrong with you Leo?
“That’s a lie” She whispered.
“I wouldn’t lie to you about that,” I muttered, and I turned away from her “What are you going to do about your healing?”
“Nothing,” She said, and I looked over at her “It wouldn’t matter if I take vampire blood. I’m newly turned so it wouldn’t make a difference. I’ll just wait until I heal fully. It’s not like humans can see the burn anyway.”
I winced, suddenly feeling guilty “It’s my fault you have burn marks.”
“Well yes. I didn’t set myself alight” She snapped, and she saw me wince “Shit. I’m sorry. I wasn’t thinking.”
I rubbed my neck “It’s fine. But I didn’t ask for your help.”
“And I keep telling you I know that,” She said, “I couldn’t turn your brothers down. If I knew a sibling was in trouble, I’d do anything to save them, even if they didn’t want it. I know what it’s like to lose family and I would hate to see them go through that.”
My mum’s face appeared in my head and I quickly shook it away. Now wasn’t the time to be thinking of that. I still hadn’t told my brothers...if I could ever tell my brothers that is.
“Thank you,” She said, and I looked at her “For offering me your blood. No one has ever done that for me before.”
I shrugged “I owe...no. I don’t owe you anything.”
She laughed “Yeah...you don’t.”
We sat in silence for a while and I could hear her heart racing.
“Leo,” She said quietly, “I know you still love Emily, but shouldn’t you try to move on?”
“If it was that easy, I would have,” I said, looking at the black and coloured tattoos wrapped around my arms “It’s hard to get over your first love.”
“Tell me about it,” She said, and I looked at her “But, you can move on. I managed to, so I’m sure you can. Don’t get me wrong, it hurts but when you let go, it’s like a weight is lifted away and you can...” She paused “You start to see in colour again.”
I tilted my head and studied her for a few moments. I tried to read her memories but it was locked and there was no way to get in. It would hurt both of us if I tried to break down that door so I gave up and thought she might tell me instead.
“Who was he?”
Willow looked at me and I saw her playing with the hem of her dress.
“I don’t know what you are talking about,”
“You can’t lie to me,” I said, “I don’t need to read your emotions to know you are lying to me. You don’t have to tell me, but...I’m a good listener. Believe it or not,”
“No one special” She smiled slightly “I only saw that when I fell out of love with him. I was blinded by my love for him. I ignored everyone around me because I thought he was the only one for me. Boy, was I fucking wrong.”
I turned to face her, feeling curious “How did you do it?”
She shrugged “I don’t know. It just happened. Ok, I may have slept with a few people to try, but it happened eventually. I realised that no matter how much I loved him, he was never going to love me back. His heart belonged to someone else...I was broken, but I was happy for him.”
“I don’t...” I stopped. I didn’t want to tell her how I felt, but from her emotions attacking my head, it was like she understood me “I don’t want to stop loving Emily”
“You won’t stop loving her,” She said, “But you won’t be in love with her. Someone else will come along and make you realise that having a dead-end love will eventually kill you. Shouldn’t you understand that?”
I laughed slightly “Yeah. I figured that out when I tried to set myself on fire.”
She Laughed, and I was attacked by goosebumps “Leo, you need to move on even if it is painful. But let me tell you this, don’t kill yourself because you can’t get what you want. If things worked like that, then there would be a massive decrease in the world population.”
“Did you...did you try?” I asked “Willow, did you try?”
She smiled softly at me and nodded “Yes. I did try to kill myself. So, I understand how you feel. Trust me. I understand.”
“I’m sorry. I didn’t know,”
“I tried to kill myself. So what?” She shrugged “I had family who helped me. So what more can I say other than it does get better,”
“Willow, do you think you could help me get over Emily?” I asked, and she sent me a small nod.