My body was tired, hungry and hot.
As a young vampire, we had only heard rumours and stories about females who turn fertile. I didn’t imagine it to be so tiring to always be turned on, or being fed from all the time. The scent that Willow had given off was like a drug. It went straight into me and it was like she had powers of a siren, able to suck me in without touching or looking at me.
I glanced at her sleeping tucked up beside me and I had to fight back a smile. I had no idea that was such an animal in bed and I almost chuckled at the thought if her begging for me to take her once more. I was glad that it had passed because I wasn’t sure I could go any more rounds or let her feed on me for much longer.
I shifted and moved to get out of bed. Willow protested slightly, but she remained asleep. She needed the rest and I needed to eat.
I dressed quickly and left her in bed, then headed to the kitchen. I sniffed the air and my stomach let out a loud, painful grumble. My brothers looked up at me as I walked into the kitchen. I ignored their looks and I headed for the cupboard full of blood.
I tore into the packet with my teeth and downed it as fast as I could. I already ripped another one open before I finished the first one. I could feel my brothers stare at me, but I ignored it. I was hungry and I didn’t have the energy to fight my brothers. Even if I was stronger than them.
My ear twitched as I heard Emily running towards the kitchen.
“Leo!” She called happily and ran over to me, hugging me “We’ve missed you!”
“Yeah,” I said, not hugging her back “Can’t say I missed any of you.”
“You can let go of him now Angel,” Theo said glaring at me.
I tutted, “Xander, cook pancakes”
“There is a word missing from that,” Xander smirked at me.
“Oh. My bad” I said “Cook pancakes now"
“So,” Max said, “You...you wanna talk about it?”
I choked on air “What the fuck is wrong with you?”
My brothers laughed and I grabbed the empty packet of blood and threw it at them, and it hit Dylan in the head. He mumbled something under his breath and threw it in the bin. I rubbed the back of my neck and winced at the bit marks covering me.
“Wow,” Aaron said moving my jumper away from my neck “She really attacked you. So, is it true?”
“Is what true?” I said pushing his hands away “Don’t look at me, fucking losers. Just spit it the fuck out. I can hear what you are thinking anyway.”
“Well, then we don’t need to spit it out.” Callum grinned.
“I will fucking snap your neck,” I growled.
“Ok fine!” Theo asked hugging Emily to him “Do females really turn into animals when they are fertile?”
I smirked “Maybe.”
“Holy shit,” Theo said grinning suddenly “Baby, I can’t wait for you to go into-ow!”
“Theo!” Emily slapped his chest again “You pervert!”
“What?” Theo said trying to look innocent “I wouldn’t mind you tearing me to-ow! Ok! I’m sorry!”
“Where is she?” Emily pouted and turned towards me “Is she still...is she ok?”
I glared at her “Tell me what you were really going to say”
Emily went red in the cheeks and fiddled with her fingers “I was going to say that.”
“Don’t bullshit me,” I snapped and Theo stepped in front of her “You really think I’m going to hurt your precious Emily?”
“You’ve never spoken to her like that before,” Theo said.
“Theo, tell me what you were really going to say. Now” I said clenching my fists.
“I’m sorry,” She said “I didn’t mean to upset you”
I ran my hands through my hair “Yeah. Sure. Whatever. Forget about cooking, Xander. She won’t need fucking pancakes now. She is still sleeping.”
“Shut up Emily,” I said, glaring at her “Why would you even think that in the first place? Have I ever fucking hurt her before?”
“Well...no. I’m really sorry” She whispered “I just...I don’t know how everything works and Theo told me that sometimes the guy loses control and-”
“You think I killed her,” I said softly and I shook my head “You really don’t know me as well as you think you do Emily?”
“I have never harmed you,” I said turning my back on everyone “What makes you think so little of me? What makes you think that I could ever harm Willow?”
“I just...I’m sorry.”
“Whatever,” I said, “I might be an asshole, I might be aggressive, violent and short tempered, but I have never harmed those I care about.”
I looked over my shoulder at my brothers and Emily.
“I might be a monster, but I would never kill Willow,” I said “I would kill for her...but I would never kill her. Ever.”
“We know that,” Dylan said.
“We have never doubted you brother,” Xander said “What you say about yourself is only half true. You are short tempered and you are an ass hole, but you are no monster.”
I smiled with bitterness “Because you don’t know half the shit that I have done.”
They all frowned and Emily was trying not to cry. I sighed and shook my head. I walked away without another word and I went back upstairs to Willow.
I stood beside the bed watching her sleep and I rubbed my face, before getting back into bed. She sighed happily and turned into me again, wrapping her small arms around my chest. I hugged her back, feeling slightly uncomfortable. But not because I was hugging her.
But something else was making me uncomfortable and I didn’t know what it was.
It made me start to panic because I didn’t know what the feeling was, and it reminded me of when I was around...
No. No this could not be happening.
I shoved Willow away and she woke up with a jump.
“Leo,” She mumbled, still half asleep “Thank you”
“Y-yeah,” I said, “I...I have to go back to my room now. C-call me if you need me...ok? Ok. Good. You stay put. You need to sleep some more”
“You had a fight,” Willow said grabbing my wrist before I could run “I can tell.”
I sighed “Don’t worry about it”
“I’m not,” Willow smiled softly at me “Before you say anything, I have to get something across and you can’t just run away. Promise?”
I sighed “Whatever.”
“When you were downstairs, I could feel you,” She said “Your heart felt sad. Did you want to tell me why, or should I just come out with it?”
“You were disappointed in Emily,” Willow said “With all of your brothers. They thought that you had no control and killed me”
“I told them I would never hurt you,” I said not looking at her.
“And you know why that is.”
“I don’t,” I scoffed “It’s because I don’t want to hurt you. What’s wrong with that?”
Willow laughed and patted my hand “I know the real reason, but I’ll wait for you to come to terms with it. I can wait. I’m pretty patient.”
“You’re a pain in the fucking ass.”
Willow shrugged and pulled the cover to her chin “I know, but right now, I’m more like a pain in the neck. Am I right?”
I chuckled slightly “Yeah. A pain in the neck, but...I...never mind.”
“You wouldn’t have it any other way,” Willow yawned and closed her eyes “I know. You don’t need to say it, but as I said, I will wait for you to tell me why you panicked right then.”
“You know what?” I muttered “I hate that you have the same power as me. It pisses me off that I can’t keep anything fucking private.”
“Well, you better get used to it cutie.”
“Don’t call me cute!”