The shower after the session with Luca felt always relaxing. The hot water calmed my aching body. Entering my room, Freya sat on my bed comfortably. Once she noticed me a wide smile adorned her face.
“Finally, I’ve been waiting for ages,” she stated, rolling her eyes at me.
I giggled at the reaction.“Why what happened?”
“You tell me” she was grinning at me, her eyebrows wiggled and her eyes shining with playfulness.
Oh god, I know where this is going.
"What do you mean,” I asked, trying to act as nothing happened.
"I saw everything...from the window” she gave me knowing look.
Then she added ”you got him good. It was really funny seeing my big brother getting beat up by a woman. You are my hero Reine.” barely holding in her laugh.
After she said, she let out a booming laugh, clutching at her stomach. I sat down next to her, smiling at her and shaking my head. I felt bad for hurting Luca like this but I couldn't help but start laughing at Freya. Not in a malicious way but her laugh was one of those where couldn't help but start laughing too. Seconds later I was laughing so much, tears were rolling down my face and I couldn't catch a breath.
Once we both calmed down she bore her grey eyes into mine excitement taking over “I knew he would kiss you sooner or later.”
I tilted my head to the side, my eyebrows furrowed “what??..how could you possibly know?”
“Don’t tell me you didn’t notice anything?” she said flatly, shaking her head.
I stared at her stunned. Seeing my reaction she explained "the way he would glance at you when you were not looking, he always smiles anytime I mentioned your name. He even said something to Thomas.”
My eyes widened and my jaw dropped to the floor. How did I not noticed anything? I looked at my hands then I registered the last bit she said and my eyes shot to hers."What did he say to Thomas?”
"That you’re beautiful and he doesn’t know how to talk to you. Which says a lot, he never had a problem talking to women until you.”
"Am I weird?? Is there something wrong with me?” my voice was nearly a whisper.
"I tell you that he thinks you’re beautiful and the first thing that comes to your mind is that there is something wrong with you?” she shook her head.
"He fancies you,” she said in a matter-of-factly kinda way.
A shade of pink rushed to my cheeks."Are you sure you’re not imagining things?”
She scoffed ”I’m pretty sure” the corners of her lips raised showing her white teeth.
After some more chatting, she noticed I was tired and left the room.
I was surrounded by silence drowned in my thoughts. I thought he was like this with every woman. He seemed normal to me. Hell, how would I know what he was like before? I barely had any interaction with anyone when I was a slave. How would I know anything about this? But then again, when Thomas talked to me he was friendly, when Luca talked to me he didn’t seem any different, I didn’t feel any awkwardness.
I lied down in my bed, the darkroom was illuminated by the moon shining through the window. I was tired but couldn't turn off my mind. My mind was occupied by Luca, the feel of his lips on mine. I immediately touched my lips and smiled, thinking of his warm touch on my skin. I felt butterflies in my stomach. After hours of tossing and turning, I finally fell asleep.
I was pinned down on the big king-sized bed. He held my hands above my head with one of his big hands. He was lying in between my legs, I screamed for help I tried to get free but I couldn’t, he was too strong. Noone came to help me. Tears were rolling down the side of my face as I was pleading with him. He licked my face tasting my tears and laughed devilishly. Then with his other hand ripped all of my clothing off. I laid naked and vulnerable under him. His hand roamed over every inch of my body as he kissed me. I felt his hard cock against my belly grinding. Once thrusting into me he cursed and called me any name there was. After he finished and moved out of the way I saw another ten naked werewolfs waiting for their turn with me. As the next one came over I was shaking violently.
“Reine wake up....wake up!”
I shot my eyes open and saw Luca's grey orbs boring into me worry plastered all over his face. I felt his hands letting go of my shoulders as he sat at the edge of the bed right next to me. I sat up from my laying position wiping my face with my palms. My face was wet, I must have been hystericaly crying from my sleep. I kept my gaze on my blanket not wanting to meet his eyes.
"Are you ok?" I heard him say gently, then felt his hand brushing against my cheek.
I raised my eyes to him and he dropped his hand. "Ya, it was just a nightmare" I answered. "I'm sorry if I woke you up" I lowered my gaze again.
“You didn’t wake me up. I was passing by when I heard you screaming. When I walked in you were kicking and screaming, so I tried to wake you up.”
I let out a sigh, then met his gaze again. “Thank you,” I mumbled
“Do you want to talk about it?”
I shook my head and smiled at him slightly. As I lay back down I covered myself with the blanket. Getting up he walked over to the door and before he turned off the light he glanced at me then left closing the door behind him. I wanted him to stay, to hold me so badly but I haven't had the courage to ask him. He would probably think I was needy. After few mins lying in the dark, I was back to sleep. Thankfully I had no more nightmares that night.
Few days have passed since my nightmare. I haven’t had any since then. I was at work with Freya like every morning. It was a quiet day so I decided catching up on my reading would be a great idea. I read about pregnancy, how it affects the body and the symptoms. My eyes widened and the colour disappeared from my face in shock as I was reading it. I learned while being pregnant there’s no period in most cases. I haven’t had a period for about two months. Then there is the ‘morning sickness. I haven’t been physically sick just a bit nauseous when smelling certain things. Then there were tender breasts. I noticed my breasts a bit painful but nothing concerning. I just thought I was going to get my period.
Oh my God...what if I'm pregnant? What am I going to do? The baby is Torben's. My heart sank. This can’t be happening to me. I was on the verge of crying. Freya noticed my uneasiness and moved towards me.
“Everything ok??” She asked sitting down next to me carefully. When I looked at her my eyes were filled with tears.
Her eyes widened and I felt her hand on my shoulder “Oh my god Reine...what’s wrong?”
Telling anyone wasn't my plan, but she would ask questions and I needed her to check me for pregnancy. I prayed this was all just a stupid coincidence and I wasn’t pregnant. Mustering all my courage I began telling her everything, from the rapes to how he treated me and all the beatings I received from Luna too.
She stared at me speechless, her lips slightly agape and her eyes wide. She didn't move and say anything. At this point, I stopped crying and dried my face with my hands. I felt uncomfortable with the silence. I let out a shaky sigh.
"You have to promise me you won’t tell anyone, I don’t want anyone to know,” I said urgently.
Her shock slowly subsided “Reine... You will start showing in a few weeks if you’re pregnant. How are you going to hide it?” she asked.
I lowered my eyes, I didn’t know what to do. What was Luca going to think of me when he’d notice my growing belly? He would think of me so low it made my heart sink.
I looked at Freya ”I don’t know what to do” I whispered.
She leaned forward hugging me ”I’m so sorry this is happening to you. And what you went through...I can’t even imagine.“
Silence filled the room and she covered my hand with hers. She squeezed my hand "let’s check first.”
She walked over to the cabinet and took out a thin strip of paper. Handed it to me and said. ”I need you to pee on this and bring it back to me.” I gulped then I took it and walked out of the office into the bathroom.
Once I was finished with my business brought it back to her. Freya asked me to put it down on the dish she had ready.
“Now we have to wait for a few mins.” She started walking over to me.
She held my hand while waiting. Those two minutes were the longest two minutes of my life. Every second felt like hours. My mind flooded with thoughts of Torben. Once he would find out about the baby he would go after me. I wouldn't be able to stay there any longer.
I felt movement beside me. Freya left to get the pregnancy test. I looked at her intensely as she turned around. I was fidgeting with my fingers and biting the inner of my mouth “Oh my god... you’re pregnant.” She quaked.
Tears filled my eyes to the point where everything was blurry and I began hyperventilating. In the back of my mind, I had little hope but it shuttered the second Freya said those words. She sat next to me and hugging me tightly. I was sobbing into her shoulder. How could this be happening to me? Did I do something wrong in my past life?
I detangled myself from Freya. She sent me a sad look.
"I’m sorry I need to go.” I got up and left.
I ran through the camp towards the house. Once entering I felt relieved no one was there. I ran up the stairs and into my room. I got into my bed and began crying again.
Few hours have passed when I heard a knock on the door. I didn’t want to see anyone so I kept quiet hoping the person on the other side of the door would leave. Then the knocking returned.
“Reine, I know you’re there...open the door.” I recognised the voice it was Luca. Quickly wiping my face with the palms of my hands I went to open the door. He was standing there, both hands on each side of the door frame. His eyes widened at the sight of me.
"Nothing,” I said calmly, but his eyebrows shot up, not believing my lie.
“I spoke with Freya. I was looking for you in the office. She told me you weren’t feeling well.”
Oh, thank god she didn’t tell him. Before I even managed to come up with a reply he said. ”Were you crying?”
I didn’t reply. I looked at the floor
He took a step closer to me and gently lifted my face so he could look into my eyes.
“What’s wrong, I don’t believe this is about being sick.” his brows furrowed.
I could feel his body just inches away from mine. I wanted to wrap my arms around him but I was a coward. I couldn’t do it. I turned around and walked over to the window. “I’m fine, just missing my family.”
He walked over standing behind me. If he knew I was lying he didn’t comment on it.
"I think you could do with a bit of fresh air” I turned around and just nodded. He slid his large hand into mine and led me out of the house