Chapter 13: Mission Mate
Chapter 13: Mission Mate (Devon’s POV)
It's been almost a week since Izza's blow-up, and she has been avoiding me. Every time I enter a room, she finds a reason to leave. I woke up early this morning and let Dexter go for a run. He needed it. He has been going ape shit in my head. He is upset that Izza isn't talking to us but super excited that I finally decided to stop being, as Izza put it, a man whore. He wants our mate. He always has. He's the whole reason she is here anyway.
If it wasn't for Dex, I would have fucked her and left her at the claiming. I may or may not have pulled out. I probably wouldn't have and I would have never known my boys. I do wish I was more gentle with her that night. I can't take that back. I will regret it for the rest of my life. But Dex is the smarter one of us two. He has been bitching at me all along to be with Izza.
"You think I'm smart? I'd cum in our mate any chance she gives us. I want more pups. Mate makes perfect pups. Mate is a goddess when she is carrying our pups. We should make more pups with mate."
"Very simple-minded Dex. How do you expect to do that when she is mad at us."
"Mate is mad at you, so be nice to her. That's all mate really wants dumbass. Do you want more pups with mate?"
"I want everything more with her."
"Finally we are together on our mate. Can we call it mission mate? Your new plan?"
"Call it what you want Dex. She's going out tonight, and it's our chance to make her ours."
At that last thought, I shifted and entered the back entrance to the house. Kelly mind-linked me that she had a special surprise set up for Izza and she was taking the boys for the weekend. Jax and Kelly had rented a hotel at a water park and Izza had the whole weekend to herself. Perfect. I love the twins but they really do know how to cock-block their dad.
I made it to my room and got in the shower to remove the forest from my skin. Dex likes to get dirty. So do I but not in the same way. I could do some very dirty things with Izza. If she was talking to me. Her birthday is on Monday. Maybe I can give her, her birthday spankings. I'm going to end up with Carpal Tunnel if I don't get Izza soon.
When I made my way to the kitchen, I was surprised. I found Izza sitting on the island facing the opposite direction. I don't think she noticed that I had entered the kitchen. This is the longest I have seen her since she stormed out of the house. Whatever she is doing must have her full attention. She seemed to be reading something as she ate.
"Boys still asleep?" I asked, even though I already knew the truth. Izza just handed me the note and keep from looking me in the eye.
"Nice. So what are you going to do with your weekend off." Trying to get her to talk to me. She is paying me no attention though.
She shrugged. I growled.
"Izza, Talk to me. You have barely spoken three words to me since you ran out of here last week. This is the longest we have been in the same room together." I pulled her close and she tries to escape my embrace. I just hug her tighter. I need to feel her. Since I started embracing the mate bond I crave her touch. Her scent. I crave just the sight of her.
"So I'm Izza again."
"Izza, it wasn't what it looked like okay. I'm sorry that I gave you the wrong impression. It was never my intention to hurt you." I know why she is mad but why is she this mad at me? Does she want me, like I want her?
"That's just it. You never intend to hurt me, but that's all you have ever done. If it weren't for the twins. I think I would have been better off returning to my father. To be sold to a stranger. It would be better than watching the other half of my heart parade around here with the entire unmated female portion of the pack. The boys are the only reason why I haven't tried to find a way the sever the bond and go home."
"Izza your Father is..." I was shocked she wants to sever the bond us. She wants to leave. I had to let her know she couldn't go back. Dex is howling in my head. Our mate can't leave us.
"I know Jax told me what you had your friends do. And, sadly, that is all you took from that point of the conversation. I know that all I have left is Xander and Xavier. Some days, I want to hate you but I can't. I'm just done is all, so can you please let me go. I'm going to follow Kelly's instructions for my birthday weekend. I'm going to go relax." I took a step back and she slid off of the counter. She was wedged between the counter and my body.
She finally made eye contact with me and all the hurt she was feeling rang clear in her eyes. I opened my mouth to say something but what was I suppose to say. Placing my hands on either side of her on the island I bent and breathed in her scent. I had to calm Dex down. He was trying to break free. He can't take the thought of her leaving and wants to tie her down so she can never leave us. We have tried that. We have trapped her and it only made things worse. She won't leave us Dex. Or at least she won't leave our boys.
This time she moved to leave and I let her. I didn't want to push her into doing anything drastic. I returned to my room thinking about all I have done. All the reasons she has to leave me. I can now only hope that I can show her I have changed. That I want her. That I want more than just her body. I love her. I need her. I just have a hard time showing it. I don't know how to show it. I have never had a real relationship.
I found Izza a few hours later relaxing in the hot tub. I couldn't wait. I had to get answers. "Do you really want to reject me?"
"Do we have to have this conversation today, of all days?" This may be the only chance that I get. Any other tome she can avoid me like she has been doing all week.
"It's just us here. Kelly and Jax took the boys to the water park." I said sitting on the edge of the tub. "Are you that unhappy? I know that I don't do anything to make you happy, but I do try to not be a complete asshole. I do care, and I don't want you to leave."
"What do you want me to say? That when I dreamt of my mate this is exactly what I imagined. No, it's not. It could be worse. I'm just tired of being let down by life. You're supposed to have a mother and father that love you. Well, I never knew my mom and you know what my dad was like. You are supposed to have siblings and friends growing up. My twin brother died when I was born and I was never allowed to have friends. You dream of your mate. You dream of the unconditional devotion, love, and passion. I got you. Someone who can't even commit to the one person who is made for him. I know that relationships aren't perfect. I knew when I found my mate it would be no fairytale, but I still want to be loved. I'm just disappointed that I miss out on that. I'm sad that I realized after three years that you will never love me. So I don't know what I'm holding onto now." Tears streamed down her face. I couldn't watch as she cried when I knew I caused it. I am the worst mate ever.
"You still want me to love you after everything I have done? I thought you hated me. I would hate me." I can't look at her while I ask the next question. I already know the answer will be no. How could she answer anything else. "Do you love me?"
"You are my mate, the father of my children what am I suppose to do. So yes, I do love you. I always will. I hope you find happiness one day, but I can't do this anymore. I can't keep hoping that you will one day wake up and realize the mistake you have made. I can't reject you, and I can't keep living the lie. I need to find some way to distance myself. I have some friends with a room to rent. I will work at the clinic and I can sleep in a place where your not. I can be here during the day and still "nanny" the boys." Her voice broke, with the pain my lie has afflicted upon her.
"I'm so..." I try to explain to her how sorry I am for ever even suggesting that we lie about who she is. But she stops me.
"I won't even get into how much it hurts to be nanny and not mommy to the two precious boys that I carried and protected for six months. Maybe the twins can come to my place for weekends and such. I really think that distance is what I need since I can't have the life that I want." Her place That is not happening. I just need to change her mind before Dex goes Alpha wolf on her and locks her away again. Who am I kidding I would be just as much me going Alpha wolf on her.
"I don't want you to go Izza." I have been distant for too long. I need you close now Izza not far away. Why are you leaving when I am finally ready.
"I guess neither of us gets what they want." She took that moment to stand up. I made a move towards her and she slapped me across the face. I was shocked. I wasn't mad I deserved it and a whole lot worse. By the time I got my head together she was gone. I sat on the edge of the tub for a long while going over what she said. She wants to move out. To be farther away from me. I should let her. If you love someone you should let them be free. It's only when they return did they ever truly belonged to you. I just don't think we could survive that. Not now. Maybe we never could.
I needed to blow off some steam so I went to the in-house gym and worked until my basketball shorts were dripping in sweat. I was just crossing across the living room when the doorbell rang. I opened the door and was faced by Doctor Gabe and a few girls from the clinic. I told them all to come in and I would get Nikki for them.
I should tell them who she really is., and I was about to do just that when she stepped into the room. She took my breath away and I nearly came in my pants at the sight of her. She should be nowhere other than in my room or my fantasies looking this fuckable. I was thinking this as I heard her ask "What? Do I not look okay." Oh baby you look more than okay. You look positively edible.
"You look great" Everyone shouted at once.
"I never knew you had that sick of a body under your scrubs," one of her friends said. She has the perfect body.
"Yea no one would guess that you are a nurse tonight. The guys are going to be falling all over you," another added.
With this comment, I growled. Izza trapped me with her eyes, as she silently pleads for me to still let her go. I'm sure my eyes were black from lust, longing, and anger at the girls' statement. I had to let her go, so I dropped my gaze to the floor, shook my head, closed my eyes, gave up, and walked out of the room. If I stayed there any longer I would have thrown her over my shoulder, took her to my room, and showed her who's mate she was. If I wanted her, she would have to come willingly. That's where my plan comes in. Tonight I'm going to seduce my mate while she drinks and parties with her friends.
After I heard them leave, I showered, shaved, and dressed for a night out. I had on dark blue jeans and a light blue and white striped tight-fitting Henley. I hopped in my Dodge Charger and made the five-minute drive to the bar, Temptations, that I knew they were headed to.
When I walked in Salt N' Peppa's Push It was playing. I located my mate, who was dancing with her female friends. Good girl. I located Gabe at the bar. He was staring with great intent at Izza, and I didn't like it. He was only seven years older than me, he had lost his mate, and he knew Izza's real story. If anybody else had a shot with my Izza it was him, and I would kill him if he ever tried.
I watched a few guys make advances towards her, but she dismissed them all. I really am a lucky man, that my mate is so faithful even though I haven't been, but now I am.
She had made her way to a darkened corner, and I needed to get closer. I watched as she closed her eyes enjoying her alcohol-fueled buzz. It was nice seeing her like this, happy and uninhibited as a twenty-one-year-old should. Ginuwine's In Those Jeans started to play and it gave me some ideas of what I wanted to do with my mate.
I found myself pressed against her back swaying to the beat along with her. I wrapped my arms around her waist and she melted back into me. Her hips continued to sway back and forth as she pressed her bottom into my front. She didn't pull away, so I continued with my assault. I pulled her tighter into me and kissed her mark. She is mine. My hands ran the length of her body stopping on all of the best parts before I slid my hand up the front of her dress. I found the spot I was looking for and rubbed circles over her underwear-covered clit as she moaned out her approval. Yes. A low growl emitted from my chest at her willingness.
I turned her to face me and pressed her back into the corner lifting her, causing her legs to wrap around my waist. I could smell her arousal over everything else, and I pressed my growing member against her core while rocking back and forth into her. I could give a damn who saw, I was Alpha and this was mine.
I kissed her long and hard, nibbling on her bottom lip asking for entrance, which was denied. I slammed against her hard causing her to gasp and allowing me entrance to explore all of her mouth with my tongue. She tasted like heaven, berries, and tequila. She allowed me to dominate her, so I slid a hand between us and slid my not-so-little friend out of my pants. Pushing what felt like a lace thong out of my way I planted myself at her entrance. She squirmed a little, and then gave in. At that moment of weakness, I eased in a little. Trying not to repeat my mistakes from the first time I did this, I slowly entered her little by little until I was fully in. Even then I moved slowly and gently inside of her. She was moaning loudly in my ear at this point and it took everything I had to not finish then. I wanted her to enjoy this. She has never had the chance to enjoy sex and I wanted to feel her come around my cock before I released my own pleasure into her.
It didn't take long, before her already tight pussy clamped hard around me, as I felt the gush of her orgasm coat my pulsating cock. I was preparing for my own finish when I was knocked from behind. Some dumbasses in the bar started a fight directly behind where I had been pleasuring my mate. I pulled out and tucked myself back in. I growled a menacing growl that overcame every other sound in the bar. I was pissed and grabbed the two that had been fighting, slammed their heads together, and watched them crumble into a pile on the floor. I turned around to return to my mate and she was gone. I had just caught a glimpse of her as she entered the restroom. Crap.
I needed a drink, whilst there I found Gabe leaning up against the bar with his own drink in hand.
"Stop staring at my mate Gabriel. I will break that pretty face of yours."
"Maybe you should treat her more like a mate than Alpha," I growled in response.
"I know you were watching us in the corner. Did that not look like something a mate would do?"
"Oh sex with your mate in a bar real romantic."
I was about to throttle him when I noticed Izza staring at us talking. I moved in her direction and wrapped my arms around her waist again. "Izza, don't run from me, baby. I'm trying. Please let me try. I can't lose you." She sighed. I moved us over to the table where their food was because I knew she needed to eat. She had more to drink than I realized on an empty stomach. Pulling her down on my tented lap, I watched her pick at their loaded nachos on the table. She seemed to be enjoying them as she continued to dance but on top of my lap. No Diggity by Blackstreet was playing in the background and I started to pant from the joy my mate was giving me with her very public lap dance. I was lost in this feeling until she suddenly jumped up. I pulled her back to where she was. Not wanting to break our connection.
"I just wanted another drink." I shook my head and mind-linked the bartender to bring us another round. Another mixed berry margarita and tequila shot appeared in front of her. She happily took the shot and chased it with her drink.
"If you keep knocking them back like that, I'm going to end your night short with your friends, to take you home and have my way with you," I whispered in her ear. Taking that moment to nibble on it. She shivered at the contact and didn't say no.
I was paying more attention to her, but something caused her to shrink back into me and I wasn't complaining as she turned and whispered in my ear, "Take me home." I did not need to be told twice.
In a flash I had her lifted up bridal style and the crowd parted, so we could leave. She snuggled in close to me with her face buried in my chest until I placed her in my car. We were home in a matter of seconds, I didn't stop once on the way there, as I didn't want her to have time to change her mind.
I picked her up again and carried her into the house heading for my room. "NO!" I stopped. She was changing her mind. "I'm not going to the room where all of your groupies hang out." I sighed, happy she wasn't rejecting me, turning around and heading for her room. Mission mate seems to be going better than planned.