It was a regular day in my life of getting abused. I was absued even for small things, like by mistake putting less or more salt in a dish or not sweeping the water of the counter in the kitchen. It was a everyday story, they never showed any kind of affection towards me but still I don't know why I feel broken. They never loved me, my brain know it so well but why my heart cannot understand the fact that I am am not wanted in the family.
I crave for begin wanted, being loved but it can only happen in my fantasies not in reality.
I had studied till the age of 14, till my grandmother was alive. My parents never allowed me to go school after her death. Whenever I requested them to send me to school, they would always say that they don't have a money plant at their house to spend money on such a worthless person.
When my grandmother was alive, she always made sure that I got my education properly. She would always say that education is the most important thing in one's life.
It's been a month since my 18th birthday. So my lovely family allowed me to work in a nearby library. The pay is not much but still I agreed to went there without any complaint because it was a much better place than the hell or better know as my home.
Today, I woke up at 4 O' clock in the morning, cleaned the entire house, made breakfast, took a cold shower and wearing tight skinny jeans and an oversized hoodie, I left the house by 7 O' clock.
As I reached the library, I noticed Mrs. Whites, struggling with the lock of the main door. Mrs. Whites is the owner of the library. She is a really sweet and kind hearted woman. She is her late 60s. Her husband died ten years ago. She has always treated me as her daughter.
She kind of knew about my situation. Well! She only knew about my being abused by my parents but she doesn't that it was extreme level abuse. She has just seen some scratches on my hands but she has never the bruises on my back or rest if the body. She has offered me her help many times. She has told me that her nephew is a very powerful person, he can help me. But every time she tries to talk with me about it, I always make a excuse from getting into the conversation.
I know she wants to help me but I just couldn't bring myself in hurting my family. Even they have hurt me the most, I couldn't the same and even if hury them in return so what difference would be between them and me. I can afford myself in begin like them.
I suddenly come out of my day dream.
"Are you alright dear ? You seemed lost."
"I am fine Mrs. Whites."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes Mrs. Whites. I am completely alright."
"Ok. As you say dear."
Mrs. Whites went to the counter and started arranging things according to her. I went to the shelves and started cleaning and arranging the books according to their genre.
Nowadays very less people go to libraries and issue books to read. It was one of the reasons for my family to allow me to work as they don't want to having any human interactions.
When I completed with the books arrangement, I asked Mrs. Whites that if she needed anything and then I grabbed a book caller "Little Women by Louisa May alcott."
Little Women is a coming-of-age novel. The story follows the lives of the four March sisters—Meg, Jo, Beth, and Amy—and details their passage from childhood to womanhood.
One thing for which I agreed to work in the library was my love for reading books. My love for reading, originated from my grandmother. She would always read me bed time stories and always tell me about the creatures hidden deep in the woods. She had always warned me about the dangers of roaming in the woods alone.
The stories had scared me when I was a kid but now I feel desperate to go deeper in the woods and find out if any of the stories are true.
My whole day goes through this same routine everyday. I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner with Mrs. Whites. In evening I help Mrs. Whites in her garden and by 5 O' clock, I prepare myself for returning to my hell.
When I reach home, I prepare dinner by 6 O' clock, sneak some snacks in my hoodie and lock myself in my room.
It was 8 O' clock, when I heard my mother banging at my door. I became terrified and I knew that I was in trouble.
Without making any further adieu, I opened the door and saw my mother standing at the door with a disgusted look on her face.
"How can I help you mo... madame?" I said in a very low voice.
She threw a red dress at me and said "Get ready. And make yourself presentable. Some important people are coming up tonight for dinner so make sure you atleast look better. "
"Get ready as soon as possible and come down immediately. Then I will tell you further. Did you understand?"
"Yes madame. "
She left and I slowly closed the door behind me and looked at the dress. The dress was a short floral dress with long sleeves. I was not a fan of the dress because it was too revealing. But I did not have time to think about the dress.
I rushed into the bathroom, took a quick shower and put the dress on me. I combed my hair and made myself presentable. When I looked myself in the mirror, I realized how short the dress was but I still felt beautiful in it. The dress made me look mature. This was the first time in my time when I was feeling mature while other times I would be wearing some oversized clothes which hid my most of the body.
"Come here fast you bitch. There are lot of things for to do before anyone arrived. Come here immediately."
As soon as I heard my mother's words, I rushed down the stairs and went to my mother. She explained me everything, like how to address them, show courtesy or if I didn't follow anything they ordered me to do, I would be punished.
After revising all the orders, I went in the kitchen to make some more snacks and desserts for the guests.
Little did I know that the visit of these guests would be life changing for me.......
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