Chapter 12- New Friends
Voices erupted like a volcano around me as everyone was shouting over one another trying to be heard. I lowered my head in shame as I didn't want to be the cause of this, that I didn't want to tear apart another pack.
"I don't believe you, I think that you're making this up just to cause a rift in our pack. We don't know you and we don't trust you, why should we believe anything coming out of your wicked mouth?" My head shot up as I stared at the man who had spoken. His voice was cold and his stare could have turned me to ice if it wasn't for Ryker standing behind me.
"That's enough!" I felt Ryker's power flowing from his voice, yet he didn't use his alpha command but still, the room fell silent as every eye fell on him.
"Now whether we want to believe or not that vampires could be on our territory we do not accuse other pack members, especially when they are your future Luna, of lying. We need to investigate it and that is the end of it. I will not have any more pack members get hurt if it turns out Harlow is right and we ignored her. You are all dismissed." His voice left no room for argument as everyone stood up around the room and left through the door.
I sat with my head down staring at my fingers until the sound of people shuffling out of the room was gone. I looked at Ryker who's eyes were fixed to the door before they found mine. I wasn't sure if he believed me or if he even trusted me enough after all that had happened but, I could tell that his pack wasn't so keen.
"She's alright you know." His voice was soft and I was confused about what he was going on about, who was alright? Ryker could clearly see the confusion on my face as he laughed lightly and shook his head.
"Jara, the girl from training that you did something to her, causing her to relax even though she was hurt." His head was cocked to the side, his voice was light, as if he was teasing me waiting to see how I would react.
I shot up from my seat surprising Ryker as it hit him square in the chest. He smiled at me before he nodded in the direction of the door and started to walk out of it. I was assuming he wanted me to follow him. I stood there looking at his retreating figure before I dashed out the door after him and caught up with him in one of the winding halls.
He smiled down at me, something he was doing a lot lately, before he took my callused hand in his big one, enveloping it in warmth. It made me smile as I looked at our interlocked fingers as butterflies erupted in my stomach, their wings brushing the insides of my stomach making me feel giddy and nauseous at the same time.
We walked down many halls but I couldn't focus on which way was what as all I could feel was his hand in mine and how I had dreamt of this moment, to feel safe and protected.
I hadn't noticed where we had walked too as my brain was sluggish only occupied with thoughts of Ryker. It scared me that this all steamed from holding hands but at the same time I didn't want to run anymore, I wanted to embrace whatever was coming, hopefully for the better.
I finally cleared my head of Ryker for now as I looked around where we had been walking. It looked like we were in a small little hospital that the pack had, which wasn't unusual. The bigger and stronger packs had their own hospitals and doctors whereas the small packs just tended to have a doctor who lived in the pack or nearby.
I looked around, it was just white rooms and the smell of bleach that clung in the air. I followed Ryker to one of the doors, he nodded at me and stepped aside allowing me to enter. I wasn't sure if I dared but I knew I had to make sure that Jara was alright.
Taking a deep breath I allowed myself to get rid of all my nerves before I placed my hand on the cool metal and pushed the door open.
There was a soft beep coming from the machine in the corner that was hooked to Java, showing her heart was still beating. A drip was attached to her as well giving her fluids to keep her alive. Her pale face rested against the white sheets as she lay motionless; the only indication she was alive was the small weak breaths she took and the beeping of the machine.
I sighed as I looked around the room and realised I was the one who had caused this, that I had hurt someone I was meant to protect, as part of this back and a future Luna. I wanted to protect these people, most of whom had shown me kindness and welcomed me into their home and treated me well.
She looked so peaceful, so still it was scary knowing she wasn't actually dead. I got an overwhelming feeling that I needed to wake her up but I wasn't sure how.
"Just trust yourself, you know what to do," Keres said, her voice soothing and calming.
I placed my hands on her hand and stomach the way I did at the training grounds. I closed my eyes, allowing myself to relax as I searched for the Block on her brain that I had put there when I willed her to sleep. It was deep within her mind but I willed it to go away.
Slowly a white light started to dissipate from her brain and back through my hands. I willed it to move faster like a river towards me before finally it was all gone.
Taking a deep breath I opened my hands and pulled my hands back as I waited to see if it had worked. Slowly Java stirred slightly as her eyes fluttered open, she looked disoriented like she couldn't remember what had happened or where she was. Not that I blame her, I would feel the same if I was in her situation.
She sat upright, looking around frantically before her eyes landed on me, they widened slightly. I'm sure she was terrified of me after what I had done to her and I felt ashamed that I could have done this to her, or to anyone.
I didn't know what was wrong with me, why I was able to do this. I was a wolf, I wasn't a witch or some fea creature as far as I was aware I was a full blooded wolf and that was the end of it.
I didn't know what to do and the powers scared me, if I couldn't control them I could seriously hurt someone, I could kill someone!
I snapped back to my thoughts when I felt a hand on my arm, guiding me back to the real world and away from my thoughts. I looked into Javas eyes, they were comforting and calm, they were the colour of the forest which allowed me to relax slightly.
"Are you okay?" Her voice sounded strained and rough from not using it for just over a day. After all that she had been through and that I had put her through I couldn't help but laugh.
She looked at me funny as if she couldn't work out why I was laughing at her, I smiled at her and shook my head.
"After all you've been through, what I caused, you're asking if I'm okay?" The humour in my voice didn't go unnoticed as she smiled back at me with laughter in her eyes.
"Well I've got to know how my friend is doing as I haven't spoken to her in a few days, I've been kind of out of it." Her voice was filled with laughter but her face fell once she saw my face.
"What's wrong? I was only joking about being out of it." She sounded panicked and I stared at her curiously.
"I have never had a friend before, I was just surprised that you would call me one after only speaking to me once and what I have done to you." My voice was quiet and the only sound in the room was the steady beep of the machine indicating Java's heart was still beating.
I looked up to find her staring at me, her smile was gone as all the humour drained out of her eyes, she looked sad as she stared back into my eyes. She grabbed my hand causing me to jump at the sudden contact. Her hand was warm as she held onto me, sending me a message with her eyes, telling me everything was okay and I didn't have to feel that way.
"Look, I don't know what happened in your old pack that caused you to leave and go rogue but, you have to let go of what happened. I'm not saying you need to forgive them but you have to let go of all that pain and hurt, don't let it define you, and start fresh otherwise you will never be able to have the life you want here." I stared at her as she spoke, there was an edge to her voice that told me maybe she was speaking from experience but it was not my place to ask.
She was right though, if I wanted any future here I had to let go of what happened to me, I can't let what they did define who I was as a person but I also didn't have to forgive them, at least not yet. Maybe when I was old and grey I wouldn't be so affected by what had happened.
I reached forward and pulled her into a hug as tears started to fall down my face. I tried to be careful as I didn't want to hurt her but she pulled me tighter to her and crushed me against her.
"Thank you." I whispered into her hair as she held me as I cried.
Guess it turns out I have a new friend.