Well...that's exactly what he wanted,his exact words were 'I am going to love you until I bore you with my affection' first time he started courting me,okay now am all pink blushing alone as I remember that day.I make my way to my sugar ding ding after locking my car.As I open the door,there he was sitting in the corner looking lost in thoughts "Hello sweets" I greet him with a smooch.
"Hey baby" He responds with a smile that didn't meet his eyes,call it a hunch but while I was home contemplating on whether I should come meet him after our silly argument regarding that kid with a crush on him called Nelisa,a friend of his little devil sister a week ago.He has been ignoring me for voicing out my insecurities...silly of me I know,than suddenly he sends me a text to come meet him for lunch.....okay not alarming at all.
We ordered some drinks,two beers and sandwiches,they make the best sandwiches here.I look at him in the eyes about to ask him why he has been ignoring me,he starts "Ayakha..." he never calls me by my name so this must be serious "We have to talk" he continues,I don't say a word because I am waiting on him to finish what he is about to say."I found a job and it's a very good opportunity for me,I'll be able to take better care of Khanyi.There's also a bursary available for her to go to varsity,so I'll be taking my family with me and we will be going next weekend" he pauses... "The job it is out of South Africa am afraid".
I took a moment to process everything he said not forgetting that,he said all of that without an ounce of sadness that he'll be living me behind..us behind,tears streamed down my eyes.For what felt like hours but it was only seconds I didn't utter a word to him,yes I am happy for him the poor guy had it rough it is his time to shine.
"I am not hearing you say anything about us,do we continue with this or what" I watch him fight an inner battle,he had already decided all alone about our relationship's fate,it is evident in his eyes "I don't think it will be fair..." I cut him off right there."Don't give me that...I can see it in your eyes that you have already decided how you wanna play this out so cut the crap" at this point am a mess,I didn't even see our drinks being served.
"You know what? am happy for you but you didn't have to be a jerk about it" and with that I took my car keys and left.I couldn't drive home immediately,so I sat a bit in the car and played Freeze by Jordan Sparks to ease the pain I was feeling.I cried letting my emotions take control,I am going mental,laughing and crying at the same time.I started asking myself questions after after questions trying to find ways to make this work in our favour,just trying to come up with a solution but nothing came up.
I had to pull myself together,clean up my face because I didn't want my parents to see me like this.My dad will go all hulk on him should he find out and my mom...well...she will be helping him.They taught me to be strong but whenever I need them,they were always there.I am skilled in boxing,karate and sword,I was so close to go wild on him but thanks to my mom I was taught how to behave like a lady.
When I got home I went inside with that jolliness I left with,by now I knew very well how to musk my feelings "Oh you back early honey,did you bore him that fast?" My mom teases while cooking in the kitchen "poor guy stuck with the daughter of king of seriousness" I laughed at that,my mom always knew how to lighten my mood."You always know what to say mom" I shot back laughing on the way to my room "Never mind her kiddo you gonna turn out great just you see...but this Queen of mine wants to be reminded how playful I can be in the bedroom later" my dad whispers the last part to my mom playfully slapping her bums in the process.
"Ewww! come on dad she's rubbing off on you" My poor eyes,I ran to my room I didn't want to hear nor see more of that.I heard them laughing at me as I ran to my room clearly proud of their acts.Now that am in the comfort of my room,I went to my gym and bowled my eyes out.I cried so much till I fell asleep.
I woke up in the middle of the and took a shower and went back to that punching bag.I kicked and punched at it using all that my dad has taught me.I continued to hit with all my might to get rid of the pain that is busy throbbing in my chest.By the time I was done it was already morning and my first day at Xolo Animal Wellness Institute where I'll be working as a Vet.
I cannot wait now that all the pain have been locked away,I start with my plans for a new job after I was done I went to take another shower.I need to look fresh and beautiful,makeup and all you know.I have on a turquoise suit tailor made with brown grasshoppers,white slim fit t-shirt.I tied my natural hair in a neat bun...yep I really went all out in this outfit.This is the day I grow up and finally become independent.