Before I can walk past Gideon, he takes my hand to lift it and brush his lips over my knuckles. "Join me?" I ask him. Damn, I didn't mean to make it sound that desperate. He cocks his head, heat filling his eyes and I can tell he wants to. He leans in and kisses me softly on my lips and the pull in my chest flares to life, causing me to stumble. Of course, he catches me before I make a fool out of myself by faceplanting the floor.
"What the..." I mumble. "Did you feel that?" He nods, looking stunned for a moment. "Is it like this all the time for you?" he asks, rubbing his chest. I shake my head. "Not this strong it isn't. I can feel all of you the whole time, it's like my heart always tries to push me into your direction, but never this strong." He hums, thinking about my words. He shakes his head a little. "Go shower, I'm gonna talk to Roan." He smacks my ass and when I yelp in surprise he throws his head back and laughs, opening the door, leaving me to myself. Damnit, I like that sound. Before I can get lost in him again, I strip and step into the shower. Okay, I have to admit, this really does feel nice.
Not taking my time, I quickly wash my body and hair, and in and I step out of the shower to grab my towel. Shit, I forgot my clothes. I wrap the towel around my body and I rummage through the drawers under the vanity searching for a hairdryer. When I don't find one I shrug and walk back to my room to find some comfy clothes. First, I need to talk to Julian I decide. When I step into my bedroom I can hear them whispering to each other, but as soon as they notice me, they fall quiet. I ball my fists next to my side. You don't have to be a genius to know that I'm the subject of their conversation and I don't like it.
"If you've got something to say, say it," I state calmly. I don't want to jump to conclusions, I did that enough when I was alive and although I rarely was wrong, I do want to be a better person here. No, ghost, I remind myself. Or badass ghost thingie. I liked the nickname Roan used before my shower. Shit, I still need to talk to Julian about what exactly I am. It's exhausting not to know how to address myself.
They look shortly at each other and I close my eyes, trying to remain calm. Gideon scrapes his throat. "We don't think you should go with us when we go to earth," Roan elbows him in his side. "Okay, fine." he huffs. "I don't think you should go." I blink a few times, not believing if I just hear him say this. Where did this come from? "And why is that?" "When was the last time that you slept? When you were well-rested when you woke up?" I don't have to think hard about it. I know exactly when the last dreamless night was. He doesn't look away from me, challenging me with his eyes to answer his question. "Before my mom died," I whisper. Behind me, I can hear Roan gasp, but I keep my focus on Gideon. "You don't sleep, you don't eat..." "I eat," I interrupt him. "Not enough considering the amount of power that flows through your body the whole goddamn day. You need the energy to keep control over your power and you damn well, know it!" He takes a deep breath and I can't shake the feeling that he's gathering himself for something and I know it can't be good.
"Besides that, I don't want you to, because you have us. You know we would do about anything for you, right? Fuck, Jaleena, I would die for you!" he yells.
At that moment, everything around me stops. I take a deep breath and focus on what's happening inside of me. Energy is building up, rushing through my veins, it screams at me to be released. To let it go out into the world, letting it destroy everything on its path. My heart is pounding and when I feel my eyes roll into the back of my head I know I have to fight harder to keep control. I raise my head and my blood turns colder and colder and I realize I won't hold it much longer. My eyes slowly change color and he flinches at the sight of it. Yeah, I bet he regrets his words right about now. Power erupts in my body and I don't recognize my own voice anymore. "You don't get to decide that! It's my decision, not yours." Carefully, he takes a step towards me but I shake my head, not trusting myself not to hurt him. Focussing on the strands in my heart, I try to will my body to take over again and after a few agonizing minutes, I feel my power draw itself back to the core of my stomach, waiting for the sign to come play again.
"Are you calm now, babe?" I freeze at the nickname, I really don't like it. Levi used that a lot and it still makes me feel dirty and small like he's better than me. When I trust myself enough to open my mouth, I look up at him and plaster a sweet smile on my face. "Of course I am, babe. Very calm." I'm actually proud of myself that the walls are still standing. That could've ended differently. "You're right, babe, I'll just lie here naked, waiting for you three to come fuck me whenever you please. I'll even dress up and play house."
From behind me, I can hear Roan stepping a little bit closer, obviously scared to set me off. And he should. "You know he didn't mean it, right? He's just being an idiot." he soothes. Finally, we agree on something, but it doesn't change the fact that he tried to take away my only chance of revenge. Maybe not on my father, but don't they understand that I want to do this for Gideon? That it's my father that caused his sister to be taken away from a loving family, that my father is ultimately responsible for his death? How does he expect me to live with myself knowing this? My blood starts boiling again where it usually feels like ice and right then, at that very moment, I know I won't be able to hold back anymore and I open my mouth to warn them, but it's too late. Once again, my eyes roll to the back of my head, and for the first time since I tasted a little bit of what I can do, I don't have the power to stop it.
Radiating a new form of energy, the floor starts to shake and I hear loud bangs coming from every corner of the room when things fall on the ground and my body hurts like it never did before. Fuck, my nightmare from today was child play compared to this agonizing feeling. Not sure what's happening I don't have any other choice than to let go and pray that they can get themselves safe.