Day 17- HInderence
~I'm sorry for thinking
that you weren't perfect.
Because you are.
I'm starting to feel more and more worried for Luke. Despite his bout of energy days before after eating the rat, Luke is still sick. Not just a little sick, but very sick. His skin has taken on a pale greenish color and he is throwing up. I feel so bad for him but I don't know what to do for him.
The sickness is contageous and it hits me right in my mind. I feel sick and scared and confused. What if Luke dies. What of that? What would she do without him? I feel sad. I can't take the thought of being without him and the thought of being alone scares me though I had been alone for so many years as it was. The thought of being alone now terrified me. I couldnt' do it without Luke. I just couldn't.
I ask. "Luke, do you feel any better?"
"Not yet," he replied, his voice beginning to sound raspy. "The illness I suffer from is a small hinderence only. I promise it won't affect our journey."
"I'm worried Luke," I admit. "what if we don't make it. What will we do?"
"We'll be just fine, my Angel. I promise we will."
"I need you to get better Luke," I beg, crawling toward him. I reach out a hand but he does not reach for mine and I can not touch him because he is too far away. "I need you."
"I'm fine, my love," he says. "I'm just fine. Perhaps a little lightheaded but fine. You must stay strong if you want us to make it through this ordeal. You must hold on."
"Yes, Luke, I understand."
He gives me his hand and we reach across just barely able to make contact from opposite sides of the tower. "I love you, Angel. I do."
His hand is cold and I almost drop it at once. I force myself not to and keep holding his hand. "You're my inspiration Luke. I love you so much. I know you would never hurt me. I know you would never leave me."
"Then you know correctly, love. You are my angel and I would never do anything to hurt you. Everything is going to be just fine."
"Yes, of course, Luke."
I stare at his hand. The blood courses through his skin and I swallow hard. So thirsty. So hungry. What I would do to have a sip. Just a sip of his blood. I'm hindered by my love but I'm so thirsty.