February 25th (Suspense/Horror)
I wanted to smile. But there wasn't a reason to. We're told as kids that anything is possible, that the sky is the limit; that a dream can become a reality as soon as we put all our effort into it. And, that's right: that is absolutely correct. But, we as a species tend to forgot about a certain necessity for equilibrium; we forget that things always exist in a natural duality: the positive and the negative needing to balance and cancel each other out. It seems that happiness and beauty are subject to the mind, but that evil and ugliness can be agreed on by everyone. It seems that the ugliness outweighs the beauty, and that the evil engulfs and swallows the good: but that just isn't truth.
We see evil, and it sticks in our head like a bad dream we just can't shake. The little boy being bullied, the wife being abused, the grandmother being neglected, the man being jumped: evil, in all forms, shapes, and sizes. But, what about the good? When do we really notice the small justices and kindness that go on? The child helping an old lady with her grocery bags, the man returning someone's wallet or card they just dropped, the woman helping a frightened child find their family, the old man buying a stranger's child a toy car.
I can see you're fidgeting. Are you nervous? Worried? I wouldn't be, I have no intentions of hurting you. As you can tell, I think about the balance of the world's behavior a lot: maybe too much, some would say. I think of the world as just a giant scale, needing forces to continually tip it back and forth so that it stays neutral and safe. But, so many people commit acts in any given day, hour, or even minute, that it's hard for anyone to really know if it's too far in one side or the other. So, I don't leave these kinds of decisions to myself, because I don't know what the earth needs.
This...is a coin. A simple invention of man, for the sole purpose of being able to manifest the idea of superiority amongst brethren. A coin has two sides, a head and a tail. And, in many given occasions, a coin will be used to solve a matter in a neutral, non-biased way. Well, the earth needs neutral deciders like this so that it doesn't break its scale, and I am proud to be one of the many people in the world who practice this kind of...ritual, I suppose.
You see, I don't enjoy hurting people, or pain, or blood. But, I enjoy balance, and symmetry. And I know for every act of good that I commit during the day, an equal amount of bad has to occur for the world's equality quota to be satisfied. Sometimes, the world is fine with my kindness. Sometimes, I have to kidnap someone to make amends. And on even rarer occasions...I have to kill them. If you're here with me, it means that I committed a lot of good deeds today, so you should be happy knowing that at least I did enough good to merit your absence. Obviously, the question is: do I have to kill you?
I know you might be thinking that I should be in control of my own decisions, and you are right, and I am. But, you should also know that I am choosing to put my free will in the metaphorical hands of an entity which I am indebted to: this beautiful place we call earth has harbored and nourished me since I was born. And I will stop at no ends to fulfill its needs. The coin flip is always a frightening and awe-inspiring moment, because I never truly know what the earth will want. You'd think by now, I would be able to judge whether or not I committed enough good to kill or not, but it isn't that simple.
Because you also have to factor in the global effort of the world as a whole; in both, the departments of doing good. And evil. Sometimes, a day is so good that a person has to die. Sometimes, a day is good enough that the person only has to go missing for a few hours. And, sometimes, a day is so bad nothing has to happen, and I can just go to sleep. Most days are like that, and seeing how even with a 50-50 chance, that I don't have to go out and steal or kill anyone...that makes me sad. Because it means that there was enough evil in the day, and in a better world, I'd have to kill tons of people in a day to make the scale of bad equal to the good.
But, we don't live in a better world. We live in a shitty world where I rarely ever kill anyone because of how horrible we are as an entire race. But, enough about that. I know that the mask is scaring you, and you must be tired of wearing the ropes and tape: you must be as tired as I am. So, we'll see how the flip goes and hopefully I get to kill you because the day was pretty good. I really have no intention of killing you, but if the world requires me to do so...who am I to deny its request?
