Brothers in arms
He was only 39 when he died or that was what they said At one point he was there driving down the dry sand road and them with flash of light he was gone. With one road side bomb it was all over. Ironic for man who said he was fast as lightning i thought while i put my cigarette out and looked over the ruined city . Brothers in arms until the end no one left alone he always said. Now i’m left alone to this god forsaken country and he is gone or is he? It has been 3 weeks from that day and i still see him . I see him walking down the road with clothes hanging on him, why has he stopped taking care of himself? He used to take so good care of him and his uniform. i'm kind of worried, i think i’ll talk to our commander about it .Visited commander today, he listened to my story and suggested i should take extra time and go home for couple of weeks. But why? there is nothing wrong with me. I'm worried about my friend and he would love to send me home for break? Why doesn't he offer that to Mike ? when there is clearly something wrong with him
This morning mike was at breakfast tent . I wonder if he is eating enough he seem to be so pale and his eyes where deep inside his head. Why did not anyone else see how he was .
At evening we had target practice . He was there like at right time as clock. “Good old Mike” i thought. He never fails his Brothers by being late. But why he was looking so sad and just observed others? He has changed and i just cannot sit back and see him go through that and do nothing
They did not believe me . Not the commander, not nurses or doctor that old bastard. They said i would be fine if i just took couple of weeks off and got some rest and maybe talked with someone.. PTSD – they said it was. They told that after that kind of thing it was no wonder my mind did take vacation of it’s own .
I have no idea what do they mean. Why do they say Mike is gone? He is here, he has always been here. He is different now, quiet , sad and maybe dirty but he is here. I should accept he is dead but how could that be.
I mean he is here now while i’ m driving my car. I cannot see good cause of all the tears and anger i feel so he is here even now when i face the minefield that is right before of us. He is here to push the accelerator while i close my eyes and get ready for the Bang of the year. Always Brothers in Arms he says…