A Fresh Start
Being a social butterfly is not easy, especially if you’re like me. I prefer to be single, call me crazy. Not because I’m self-centered or antisocial. My best friends, my parents, and job are basically my life and I’m okay with that.
Unfortunately, they aren’t. They think I’m letting life pass me by, maybe they’re right I don’t know. That’s why I agreed to go on this vacation with the girls somewhere instead of staying home this year again. At the time I thought it was a good idea. I’d get out and enjoy the scenery, maybe even come up with a new idea for a new book. But things didn’t exactly go the way I planned.
Out of all the places to consider vacationing they had to pick somewhere up in the mountains, mumbled Lisa.
I reached over to take a drink of my bottled water when my phone rang. I answered it and switched it over to speaker mode.
“Where are you”, asked Rachel?
I couldn’t imagine driving in a car for hours by myself with nobody to talk to.
It’s not as bad as it sounds you know.
Clean air and beautiful scenery. Besides you know how I feel about planes.
I’m surprised I haven’t heard her mouth butting in by now.
She’s not with me.
She has food poisoning.
“It was the damn shrimp, wasn’t it”?
You got it.
I told her not to eat those things.
I really hope she feels better.
My flight just got called, I’ll call you when I land.
I guess if I look on the bright side it’s not so bad. I’ll still have Rachel to keep me company and I might be able to just finally let go of the stress and everything.
The truth is I need this time alone to myself.
Everyone has been very sympathetic about my recent breakup, too sympathetic actually. The pitied looks and whispers just make me feel so much worst.
I know it wasn’t my fault and there wasn’t any way I could have stopped it, but why did things have to end this way.
It’s been two months since I walked in on that scene and I still can’t get it out my head.
Even thinking about it makes my stomach and my chest hurt sometimes.
I’ve been getting a lot better though, improving each day step by step, even started back writing again, that was a big accomplishment for me in itself.
This trip is another big step too, in reclaiming my confidence and my happiness.