Monday 16th January and a vast emptiness grows inside; a stubborn undiscovered fungi thriving inside me - this isn’t a matter of the heart or brain, this is deeper. This is a constant vexing of the soul that inhibits my previous longing to go to bed when everyone else becomes one with their rest sanctuary. I want to quickly turn to the bottle for memory erasing but what is life if it’s purposefully damaged so I turn to my secret place to let go of my own being. I lie down and slowly lift to the skies (this is non-monetary travel but costly to the brain in terms of concentration). I shut my eyes and my body levitates off the ground and off our home planet and past the moon into a zone only lit by stars and characteristic of water planets groomed with vegetation. There is a very distant sound here, one close to that of a small underwater ripple - no creatures (human nor animal). I lay down on the blue grass on planet Xtor and its coziness is next to nothing humanity encounters. The grass moves up and down and sideways in sync with my inner vibrations, it is one with me on immediate contact. It soothes and speaks a language of no sound - it calms, resets the mind, replenishes the soul and recreates and regenerates the strong points of my being but there is no skin here. I am in a liquid form and free to change state and move as intended - the true definition of free will exists here. There are no predefined climatic states here, no technology, no bills, no legal tender, no products, no lack of ease thus disease. The grass gradually conveys me to a higher point on Xtor and I see other planets in the horizon - planets i’ve previously had the pleasure to visit and all characteristic on their own (all is linked in this eternity). There’s a light breeze here, a slight scent of rain when it first touches earth. I see many stars but not in the sky, there’s a nebula in the centre of every planet here and the stars are born with every passing instant though time doesn’t exist here. I walk into a nebula and experience the powerful but silent birth of stars. There is a vast spectrum of color and a constant merging of various gases then the final release and levitation of a star but these stars stay on Xtor and a touch of one gives me a different feel depending on its color but all are calm and glow very light in luminescence.
I realize that the stars we see in the night sky from earth are within the different planets but we inhibit ourselves from seeing the outer lining of the planet itself as this exists in harmony with our well being - our completely open being to accept the dimensions existent around us. We must accept ourselves as a convergence of limitless vibrational segments to experience such realities. Everyone is unique as are the stars born in the different nebulae on these planets. Everyone is a star in their own right. I then make my journey back to earth and this time (for the first time), take a break to look at our planet from the outside in and it is as amazing as Xtor and the others are, atleast was. It is a sibling to the rest and it is one place we need to love before we even love another being. I see a large hole in the centre of earth, it is a dead nebula - sad and longing for affection, it saved one spark at the bottom of the pit which if treated well in unison with all that nature gives, will reignite the birth process and we wouldn’t have to take long trips to experience harmony rather variety. I slide down the spiral cortex to Earth and land home where I immediately water my two plants - they were a gift from Xtor; a passageway to the side that constantly reminds me of how beautiful everything was, is and can continue being. The plants were named November 13th and April 3rd by the blue grass on Xtor.