"The music playing for only two." (1)
When I woke up this morning, the dream I had last night kept running inside my head. I am not sure if it was a dream or a memory because I don’t really know what to believe in anymore. I was sitting in the passenger seat of someone else’s car I don’t really recognize. When I looked outside, I could see the Upper East Side by the buildings and signs. The rain was pouring down hard, and even though the drops of rain hit the windshield and roof of the car, the ticking of my wristwatch was the only thing I could make out. When I looked to see who was with me, my eyebrows instantly furrowed at the sight of Ryan sitting on the driver seat. His grey eyes widened when he turned to me as if he was frightened, and I could see remorse. I couldn’t pinpoint why, and then when the lights started to blind me, I realized it was the light of my chandelier hanging from my bedroom ceiling.
Mum or dad must’ve tried to wake me up because when I looked around, all my lights were on, also my door was ajar. It was still dark outside, and when I checked the time, five thirty-six glowed. I plopped back on my bed, letting my hair splay over my pillows. I tried to recall what happened before that scene in my dream, but I couldn’t remember anything. Trying not to get myself a headache, I sit up and think of the memory of what just happened last night instead.
Now, I can’t wipe my creeping smile off my face. It’s unbelievable! I don’t think I experienced any of this back when I was really fifteen, or did I suppress those memories? I shrug at the thought of blocking them. I don’t trust my brain anymore, and now the questions running in my head are:
1. Is Ryan serious when he asked to take the next step with me?
2. Does Nate really fancy me?
3. It’s my last day so… Have I done what I’m supposed to do? Did I feel what the soul wants me to feel?
4. So, what happens next? And;
5. Will I remember everything when I return to the future?
My phone suddenly vibrates on my side table, and I reach for it. I see the little bulb or whatever it may be lighting up and, I see 47 missed calls from April, Ros, mum and dad, and 12 unread messages.
From: April 10/18/2010 6:57 PM
MARIIIIII OMGGGG! Where are you?!?!
From: April 10/18/2010 7:00 PM
I HAVE TO TELL YOU SOMETHING! YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE IT! OMYGOD! CALL ME OR TEXT ME WHEN YOU GET THIS!!!
From: April 10/18/2010 7:19 PM
Are you with Nate or Ryan? Okay, okay, it looks like you don’t want to be bothered. I’ll tell you everything tomorrow, then! HAVE FUUUUUN ;)
From: April 10/19/2010 5:41 AM
Morning girl! I’m on my way to school to check if everything is good to go.
From: April 10/19/2010 5:42 AM
I’ve been calling Ros, but she hasn’t picked up. I might as well be ahead of her, just in case. See ya!!!
From: Ros 10/18/2010 6:33 PM
Mari? I need your help!!! April is useless hahaha! Call me!!!!
From: Ros 10/18/2010 9:30 PM
Andrew and I are heading out. We’re going to drop April off. We assumed that you’re with Ryan, so have fun and be safe, okay? Talk to you tomorrow! Good night!
From: DJ 10/18/2010 6:26 PM
Mari, what time are you going to come home?
From: DJ 10/18/2010 7:33 PM
Mari, we are waiting for you, dad doesn’t look pleased, and mum has been calling you many times. Natalie will be upset if you’re not here eating the lasagne she prepared for us.
From: Dad 10/18/2010 10:30 PM
Curfew is about to start. If you’re not home by then, there will be consequences, young lady.
From: Nate 10/18/2010 8:57 PM
Hey, Mariana, I just arrived. Sorry haha! I had to take care of something at home.
From: Nate 10/18/2010 8:58 PM
Where are you? I can’t wait to see you again.
My eyes widen at the realization, and I sit up. I freaking forgot about everyone and especially Nate and the family dinner! I suck the air through my teeth as I recall last night’s events. I must have been so tired that I had forgotten about dad scolding me when I got home. I think I just got a warning since it was the very first time I disobeyed the curfew. He grounded me by no telly allowed, starting today for a week, I suppose. It was totally fine since I don’t really watch the telly, poor real 15-year-old me, though, since I always looked forward to watching every new episode of Gossip Girl.
When I gather my thoughts, I clasp my hand on my mouth as I think of Nate and Ryan. Should I be worried if both of them are giving out hints they like me? I feel my lips curving in delight and suddenly frowning from confusion. I shouldn’t be happy about pulling two heartstrings, but I can’t control their feelings towards me! So, it shouldn’t be my fault, should it? Although, I am over the moon thinking these two give a shite about me.
I feel my heart beating in my throat; I gulp and feel the lump. I run my fingers through my hair and pull slightly as the thought passes my mind. I have no idea what to do!
Shaking my head, I have to pull myself together. Breathing in and out to calm my thumping heart, I get out of bed and start to get ready for the day. When I went down for breakfast, Mum and dad lectured me about staying out too late since the Founders’ Day will be occurring early for us who will be hosting it. They weren’t disappointed I was out late because they were actually glad I am mingling with kids my age and not holed up in my room or just hanging out with my only friends, Ros and April.
What bothered my parents was me being sleep deprived because today is going to be a looooong day. I apologized to Natalie and told her to preheat the leftovers so I could eat the meal she prepared last night for breakfast.
As I chew and enjoy the deliciousness of the food served for me, it dawns on me that it’s my last day in the past. I have to make the most of it.