Sam is not our mate. He’s not our mate!! It doesn’t mean I won’t be strongly encouraged to mate with him if I do not find mine, but he’s not our true mate. That was the best news I could have received in that moment, to know that I was not meant to be with Sam. Thank the goddess!
As we all climbed into Eddie’s vehicle I leaned over to whisper to Renee, “Sam isn’t my mate, Nan said there was no bond when she reached out to his wolf.”
Renee did a silent squeal, “Eek! That is the best news Annie! Now you can look into Jeremy’s eyes and fall in love. Well, more in love than you are already. I’ve arranged for him to meet us outside the pavilion. Told him you wanted to walk in with all of your friends. Sneak right?” Renee sat back smiling, all proud of herself. I had to admit I was pretty proud of her to, she came thru for me tonight like she said she would.
It was about a ten minute drive from our house to the Pavilion. The Pavilion was the meeting place for our pack, everything of importance was held here. Weddings, funerals, birthdays, parties, emergencies, anything you can think of, it’s held here. We don’t have a pack house like most packs do, the pavilion stands in the middle and then all of our houses surround it in the woods.
As we pull up I can feel my nervousness start to grow, because standing right outside the door is Jeremy with his back to us. I got out of the vehicle and started up the walk to him.
“Don’t say anything Nan, I want it to be a surprise.”
“But Annie there’s something-“
“Nan, not now!” I had reached Jeremy, I tapped him on the shoulder and he turned to me. I looked into his eyes and……
Nothing. There was nothing! I didn’t feel the spark. I didn’t feel the bond. Everyone didn’t disappear, there weren’t fireworks. The world didn’t stop……. How could this be?! Jeremy wasn’t my mate.
He would never see me as more than a friend. I would be nothing to him. Nothing. Especially once he did find his mate, I wouldn’t even exist. How? How is this possible? Why would the moon goddess do this?
“I tried to warn you….. I’m sorry Annie.” I wish I had listened to Nan, because now I was looking at Jeremy trying not to let the tears spill.
“Hey short cake! Wow, you look great! Are you ready to get this show on the road?”
“Uh, yeah. Can you give me a minute? Then we can all go in.” I turned to look at Renee and shook my head slightly. She knew what it meant.
“Annie lets go to the restroom real quick, I want to fix a piece of your hair quick. You all go in and tell everyone we will be there shortly,” Renee dragged me to the bathroom before I burst into tears.
“Renee it’s not Jeremy, how can it not be Jeremy?!” I blurted out as soon as we walked into the bathroom.
“Annie I need-“
“I don’t know….. I really don’t. And I am so sorry, your heart must be breaking.” She was right, I felt like my heart had been shattered. After years of just being a buddy to Jeremy I thought for sure tonight was the night that he would finally see me differently. See me as a mate. How wrong I was.
“It’s really important Annie, please liste-“
“But, your mate could still be out there waiting for you. We could walk in there and BAM! Instant love story!” She’s not wrong. When we find out mates, all heart ache, all past lovers fade away in our minds. Not instantly of course, but pretty close. “And you already know your mate isn’t Sam! Our pack is full of great guys that you haven’t even met yet!”
She was right again, there were over 300 members to our pack. With my father being the Alpha I have met all of them, but I don’t know them well enough to know them as a person. My mate would be out there waiting, my mate would be better than Sam. My mate would even be better than Jeremy because he would be mine.
“You’re right. Let’s get out there and meet my mate!” I liked arms with Renee and we made our way to the main room.
If I had been listening closer I would have heard Nan. I would have heard her warning me about what I was walking into.