The Guy Who Gave Up His Jersey(9)
“What do you mean you’re going to get heartbroken?” Xavier chased after me. He took hold of my arm and forced me to face him.
“I’m going to fall in love and when I get hurt you’re not allowed to protect me,” I responded, giving him a serious look.
Tonight I saw my own fate, if I kept being an overprotected fool like Xavier taught me to be, I would end up like him. He cares more about breaking girls’ hearts than actually finding a girl who actually has a decent one. I didn’t want to be like him, he was afraid to love. Why? I had no clue, but I never loved someone or had someone love me back.
Xavier always told me love was a complicated word. A word that only lead to fights, tears, and heartbreak. But I wondered if maybe he loved someone once before and that love made him who he was today. Wasn’t there a saying that said: Behind every player is a story?
What was Xavier’s story? A guy couldn’t just enter high school with that idea; something had to happen to make him be this way. I wanted to know everyone’s story; some of these guys had to have reasons. They all had to have a motive; a reason to sleep with girls and dump them, there had to be more than just a number and rank.
“You won’t be able to deal with the pressure and the pain Julie.” He tried to reason with me.
“How do you know that? I never actually loved someone!” I spat venomously at him.
“Because I made you into a stubborn, hardheaded, non-idiot girl. I never taught you how to deal with guys or how to take a break-up. You’re not ready to be hurt.” He responded sincerely, keeping his grip on my wrist.
I shook my head solemnly. “For three years all I have done is deal with boys. I know what they want, what they need, but I feel as if I don’t let go of your protection I will become a bitter girl,” I took his hand off my wrist, he stared at me for a moment.
“Is this what you really want?” He asked me, quietly.
“Do you really urge to get heartbroken? Have you ever thought you have a lot of dignity to let someone hurt you?”
My dignity was everything to me, it was my ego. Even if someone did manage to break me or fool me, I would never show it. Because I rather walk on broken glass then shed tears for someone.
“Just for once Xavier let go of me. Stop being the over-protective brother; I have to make mistakes so I can learn from them. I need to get hurt even if you don’t want too.” I told him, giving him a wryly look.
Deep inside I knew why I decided this; I knew why I had to force him let go of me. Secretly, I was already stepping on broken glass; my life was becoming complicated in the weirdest ways. For once in my life I was curious to know how all of this is going to turn out.
Was I still going to get revenge on Alejandro? Yeah, every single guy that was on that piece of paper, they would get played. Even Xavier would get played; I had turned my back against him and this stupid game.
I knew the consequences I think we all did, but to make this easier on both Xavier and I, he had to stop protecting me. He had to see I wasn’t as delicate as he thinks I am.
He sighed. “I don’t protect you because I’m afraid you’ll get hurt; I protect you because you mean the world to me. My life revolves around you Juliana and if you hurt I hurt too.” He explained to me.
Xavier had always been the brother and guy friend I needed. We both came from different parents; his mom didn’t want him so William-My stepfather- divorced his mom. My dad did the same with me; he didn’t want my mother or me so he left. When I turned three William and my mother met and a year later they tied the knot.
To me William is my real father; he raised me as his own daughter. Our family isn’t exactly perfect William travels a lot, so that’s how Xavier became the protective brother. He felt as if he needed to take the place of our dad; he had to protect both my mom and me. But sometimes I feel as if Xavier loves me and I don’t mean the sister and brother love. I feel like he literally loves me.
When I sit down and think about it; every missing piece connects. It explains why he over-protects me, why he wanted be to be in the game, and why it’s hard for him to love someone. It sounds weird, I know. I tried making sense to it all, but that was the best explanation out there.
I cleared my throat. “I don’t need to be the center of your attention Xavier. This girl that you say you like/love whichever one it is it doesn’t matter, you have to put the game aside for a moment. You have to think about what matters the most; a stupid game or a girl who finally seemed to break down your huge territory wall?”
He stayed quiet for a moment, looking down at the ground. “It’s time for you and I to let go of one another. I can’t rely on you for everything and you can’t keep protecting me.” I smiled at him, walking away.
He was going to be okay; I wasn’t sure what he was going to decide but it was time to get back into this game. It was time to finish what I started.
“How are you going to compete with that?” Demi asked me, as we stared at Yavanna.
She had came to school with tight white booty shorts and a neon green V-neck shirt, that exposed more than necessary. She had curled her hair making her face glow more than usual. Yavanna wasn’t kidding when she meant she was going to get him back.
I shrugged. “I’m not.” I responded, sipping on my JavaChip.
Demi snapped her eyes at me. “What the hell do you mean you’re not going to compete with that?” She yelled, moving her hands up and down in the air.
“What? She’s gorgeous! She has more boobies than I do! Not to mention her ass can full up those shorts!” I exclaimed, defending myself.
Yavanna wasn’t those types of slutty girls; you would never see her going from one guy to another. She had pride and dignity, if she finds someone she likes she’s going to be with them for a while. And I don’t mean two weeks; I mean three to six months if not more.
When you compared Yavanna and I; we had nothing to compete with one another. She was those mini plastic Barbie dolls you only see in the movies. So why would I waste my time trying to compete with a girl like her.
“I don’t know if you have realized but her boobies are fake and your C-cups are real. Yeah you don’t have much junk in the trunk, but i think Alejandro doesn’t mind,” Demi said, smartly.
I rolled my eyes at her. “I won’t compete with her; I find no reason to do that.” I informed her, annoyed.
“Why?” She questioned me, curiously.
“Because she has to beg for Alejandro attention. On the contrary I don’t have to beg for his attention he naturally gives it to me,” I smirked evilly at her.
Yavanna wasn’t a threat to me; yeah I would have to make an effort not to smash Ale’s face into a locker every time I had him near me. But I think this revenge thing could actually work.
“Ey D you ready to go?” I heard Enrique say.
I slammed my locker shut and watched as he put his arm around Demi. He glanced at me, giving me a smile.
“I have to walk her to class mind if I steal her?” He asked me, coolly.
“Yeah go ahead,” I chuckled.
The bell had rang leaving the hall deserted, a few newbies had dropped their jackets off, and because I had nothing better to do I began to put on their new numbers. School for me was like my job; I spent more time changing numbers than going to classes.
Even with my numerous absences I could still maintain an A-plus in all my classes. I was smart and hardly got into trouble, and that was because majority of my time I was either doing homework or changing numbers.
I sat on the hallway taking off numbers and putting different one’s on. The entire time I couldn’t help but to think why Ale hadn’t came to bother me. He had fifth period off and he usually was by my locker, before the bell rang. I guess being around him these few days did rub off on me. I was missing his presence.
“You Juliana need to slap some sense into yourself!” I muttered, slamming the number five on a jacket.
Ale usually missed school; unless he had business to attend to. But other than that he had all his credits; all he was waiting for was graduation day. Who could think a guy like him had the brains to finish school?
I pulled out my phone and texted Gabriela.
Me: Hey! Have you send jerk face?
Gabriela: Nope. I think he didn’t come to school today.
I chuckled quietly. Yavanna must be really disappointed her “boyfriend” didn’t show up to school. At least her effort to show off her behind didn’t pay off! Was I jealous of Yavanna? Probably not but it didn’t mean I could laugh at her stupid efforts to conquer Alejandro.
Me: Good>:] can’t wait to see Yavanna’s face when she realizes he didn’t show up to school!
Gabriela: Haha. You know I bet your missing him not being around you! Admit it Julie you still have feelings for him!
I rolled my eyes, the only thing I felt for that guy was: anger and frustration. When it came down to thinking about my feeling towards Ale I could say I had none. I saw him as an enemy; he was better being a close enemy than a faraway one. We had our moments this past week, but it didn’t change the fact that he called me a bitch.
You don’t call a girl a bitch and expect them to forget it. It’s like that saying: Call a girl beautiful and they think you’re lying. Call a girl ugly and they’ll never forget it. If he had called me ignorant or stubborn, than I could’ve let it go but no he had the guts to call me a bitch. You can’t expect me to stand here and let you call me a bitch without giving you a real reason to call me one.
Me: The only feeling I get from him is a big symptom of bullshit forming.
Gabriela: Lmao! Only you would say that! I got to go about to take a test!
I sighed, placing my Iphone down. He was full of bullshit; everything he says to me sounds like crap. Thinking about I have become to bitter towards him. I was a different person with him last year. I was more kind and sweet, but now all you’ll ever hear me say to him is “Fuck off. Jerk. Asshole”. It’s like I naturally became that way towards him, or my brain adapted to the surrounding I was force to be in. Who knows’.
When I got to my twentieth jacket, I dropped everything. I had grown exhausted dispatching and patching numbers. Why couldn’t they just wear the stupid jacket and keep count of how many girls they sleep with, then when they reach Pre-legend numbers give it to me. It would make my life so much easier.
The main doors burst open and walking inside was a girl with red hair, she kept laughing as the guy next to her kept tickling her. When they came into view I realize the guy was Alejandro. He had a huge smile plastered on his face as he pinned her against the lockers.
“Ale! Ale!...stop. Please!” The girl begged laughing hysterically.
“Arianna I haven’t seen you in years you deserve a nice welcome back tickle!” He chuckled, tickling her sides.
This weird feeling emerge from inside me; it seemed to be a mix of anger and craziness. Looking at them two I wanted to laugh at myself and I had no idea why! I literally had to stop being involved in his life! Alejandro and the girl stopped laughing and they stared at one another. He seemed so puny under his arms, it seemed like if he leaned any closer he would squish her completely.
“I can’t believe you’re back.” He said, smiling happily.
“Better believe it! I am here to stay for good this time,” She responded, sticking her tongue at him.
For an odd reason Alejandro seemed to act differently with her; he had that same smile on whenever he tried to be nice to me. But he wasn’t trying to be nice, he actually was being nice. Why didn’t he ever act that way towards me? He always had a temper from hell…then again I always went off on him.
“You better take me to the front office so I can get my schedule. Afterwards we can catch up.” Arianna told him, taking hold of his hand.
I bend down grabbing the jackets I had finished. I didn’t want them to think I was spying on them or anything. Alejandro and Arianna kept pushing each other along the hallway, fooling around. Ale wasn’t being the Ale I knew, he seemed to change. He acted one way with me and another way with this girl, who I didn’t know who she was. But clearly they had something going on.
“So tell me how Roosevelt High is like?” Arianna asked him.
Alejandro chuckled. “This school is nothing but average but I’ll let you figure that out on your own,” He told her.
I kept my face pointed to the grown hoping they wouldn’t notice me.
“Ah thanks! So where is your girlfriend at?” She blurted out suddenly.
He stayed quiet for a moment, giving me time to take a look at them from the corner of my eyes. What was he going to tell her? This was going to be my chance to find out if he is trying to play me or he was being serious.
“I don’t have a girlfriend. I was interested in someone but…lets’ just say that interest is never going to go anywhere,” He whispered, exposing his sadness.
Arianna squished his cheeks. “Cheer up mushyface! I’m pretty sure things are going to work out!” She tried to cheer him up.
He shrugged trying to hide his embarrassment. “Doesn’t matter now, I’m just happy I get to see you again!” He spoke out, sincerely.
She lowered her head, slowly her cheeks turned bright red. I banged my head against the locker. God, kill me now! I ask you to help me out her and you force me to watch Ale be mushy mushy with a girl! Erg! My hands balled up as I was ready to hit the locker, I stopped myself.
These mixed emotions were killing me but I couldn’t hit another locker. I didn’t know why I suddenly felt like this. I wasn’t the emotional type of person and when I did get emotional that’s when Mother Nature is going to pay a visit. I chuckled to myself that had to be it. That would explain why I felt so emotional and feeling different, it was that time of the month.
Just Breathe Juliana!
They passed me not noticing me at all. When I saw them make their way in the front office, I relaxed. I slouched my shoulder slightly while I took in a deep breathe. What did I just witness?
“What the hell is wrong with you?” Gabriela asked me as I hit my head against the locker.
I winched in pain. “I’m utterly confused in the weirdest ways,” I responded.
Gabriela chuckled. “What happened?”
I gazed up at her, not knowing how to explain it. “I don’t even know what happen but I feel weird,” I said, looking dazed.
“Did you walk in on a couple going at it again?” She questioned me, taking hold of my shoulder.
I growled at her. “I was barely getting over that traumatizing moment! Thank you for reminding me about it!” I snapped at her.
A couple weeks ago I stepped inside the girl’s bathroom and found a couple doing their “business” in there. That had to be the worst five seconds of my life, I literally felt as if I was going to die.
“Okay so that’s not it! Then how do you feel weird?” She teased me.
“Right here there is this really weird feeling and it crawls all the way to my throat,” I explained to her touching my stomach.
“Maybe you ate something bad?” She suggested.
I shook my head, when I heard that girl’s laugh my body tensed. “That’s what happened.” I pointed to the girl next to Ale.
Gabriela looked at them then at me. “Are they dating?”
“How the fuck am I supposed to know! The last thing I want to know is I have another girl in my fucking way!” I semi-yelled, holding back my anger.
Suddenly the unexpected happen, I started crying. Stop it! Why are you crying! God stop being such a baby! Sometimes I get on my own nerves and when that happens, I tend to cry.
“Why are you crying for?” Gabriela snapped at me.
“I don’t feel good Gaby…I feel really sick,” I responded, falling to my side.
I gripped tight onto my stomach as I felt this aching pain form at the bottom of my stomach.
“Julie! What’s wrong?!” Gabriela shook me but I couldn’t concentrate on her. Everything became blurry and all I was able to distinguish were Ale’s laugh and Arianna.
“Julie wake up!” She tapped me on my cheek. “Alejandro!” She called out for him.
Gabriela’s screaming out Alejandro name was the last thing I heard, before I blacked out completely.
So like I promise here is your chapter hehe!
So can anyone guess what happened to her?:O I think she over reacted lol
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