Just one chapter, relax
what's the genre? i don't know what i write, seriously but i will write something.
Where do you start the story? here right now.....
It started in 2013, i was very young, had a nice plan to be a hmm let's just say a white mage. However, it's just crash and burn because i didn't pass the test. Really messed up like a *#$%(#$% (sorry guys, i can't say it because everything what i mean might offensive for some people. So, i just censored it). That's not the end, i'd just destroyed my relationship with the girl whom i loved because i was so pessimistic that i couldn't maintain relationship. At that time, technically i was in friendzone. That's why i thought it's just Bs to maintain that "relationship". Now? of course she hate me and if i meet her, she might has kid with good husband. Absolutely, that's not gonna be me.
That's it? that's all your story? if you want to write about that, you better write a better story yo because that thing just a bastard creepy story that should post it on facebook, not in here. Relax yo, i mean that's not the whole story. That's just the beginning.
okay, next do you know jedi? yeah you should know that because it's really pop in this year. The newest movie just get a record for the fastest one billion dollars gross. It's really sweet. What i want to say is now i'm like a jedi. When people get holiday, eat bacon that can get them cancer, i just live in my house, not going anywhere because i have to work. Do some s--- , i mean do some project you know. Why do i do that? like mad max say, just for survive, *#$*#, i mean fella. What survive? yeah you know, okay you don't know about me. Here it is, next year i have to do internship for requirement to get graduation as bachelor degree. So, what's the correlation between project? to increase chance to get accepted by internship place that i wanted to. That's reason. You know my major study is related with science but the problem is i'm really f*$%*%& i mean freakin' mediocre. My GPA is just 3,5 (from scale 0-4)right now. I'm freak out, i won't get my favourite internship place because i have to compete brilliant kids that have higher GPA than me and some of them have medal of science olympiad. Thus, how do i compete with them? of course, i have to make something special but it's not meth cooking or weed cultivation or weed GMO. That's the reason why i am really busy but ironically i want to lounge because it's holiday (welcome to adulthood, i think?).
It makes me think like a jedi. Always "meditate" in my home, working, reading, like that on and on. Maybe i can use force when the holiday ended. Anyway, i'm still thinking that maybe i want to be writer but there's a problem. I'm not in united states or europe! Am i in canada? oh hell no, it's worse than that. Oh crap, i mean less worse? or should i write my country same as Canada? because if i write bad things my country maybe this story will get banned? so should i change it? No? seriously no? why? that's quite make sense, people who read this don't really know where i am. Ah i get it, even nobody will read this story, why do i care about it right? i got you. Okay, hmm i've just talked to myself that maybe this story is going controversial if i say bad things about my country but the other me say it's a-o-kay. Do you get bipolar disorder, mate? because it's really chronic. No, i don't get bipolar disorder, i'm still normal like a human being, i am not smeagol, trust me. Okay back to the point, why united states and european thing are the problem? hmm let me say this, people whether they are asian, caucasian, african, or something will get famous if they work in there. Nobody knows... hey do know people who is famous when they get career as writer in USA or european? you don't know? seriously you don't know? c'mon! okay the point is if you want to be famous work as writer just go to the good country not develop or third world countries maybe? why? here is it why in first or second world countries(i use that definition because it's easier for you to know what i mean although i know i use wrong definition about first,second,third world countries) they have better facilites and organization that want do develop writers while in third coutries , it is really hard to develop it. You can make it as a job because when you want give a something memorable and good quality, the publisher rejects it and says
"i don't need this thing, it's not pop. All we want is good drama, romantic, pop sugar, teenager things and it should have cheesy ending or cheesy things everywhere. Because the readers in here are labile you know what i mean right. okat that's it. C'mon make us some money, b*##*$#. "
Well that's not literally, they will say like that just figuratively. See, it's really hard in here. Of course working is hard but it's harder in here. Everybody loves money but sometimes writers want to give good quality too, not just cheesy and easy. The point is if you live in first or second, it's good for you. You just workin' hard, boom! you will be a rock star. In here, you just workin' hard, boom! you become worse that get razzie awards. What do i have to do? well nothing, just working and working and try to survive in this country. I just want to work international, you know, i don't fit with this place. But not just work international anything you know what i mean right but become a scientist. It's a really freakin' hard. It's againts all odds, fighting againts streotypes, and education because some people will think that people like me is not capable to work in there you know. Here it is, just trying to survive, become a "jedi", so i can work it out.
Are you depressed? because you know honestly this is wrong place to let it out like this? this is like a facebook post. Well, you know i ain't depressed, just thinking what do i have to do while it's a holiday where people can do anything happily. Is it the ending? no it's not. It's still 10 pm.
what's the topic now? i don't know, still trying to get topic. Please wait....... okay i find it finally. I think it's a good time to say that time is good to do for whatever you want. It's GTA but it's real life. Never go damn but this is it. Just let it be. Boom. Crash. S. Whatever. Still find it sometimes it's really hard. You know what i'm sayin'? no you don't because i just talk nonsense right now. Anyway i will talk about nonsense thing. Like in your childhood when you don't what to do, just do anything like it was a good day. just look it you know. It was happy day oh happy day. I know it's exaggerated. Do you like coffee? i like coffee but sometimes i hate it because it made my body sensitivity againts cafein decrease and it's bad for business. Just be cool okay because i'm cool although i don't know what i write now. Is it anxiety? this is how it feel? really good, don't ya? no, it's not. It's addictive, really good for your health. Hmmm maybe but not definitely. Sometimes i don't know how to keep this spinning. How to keep this is really good. How i met your mother? oh c'mon i'm too young to become a father. I don't do that, what the hell. How it is? Do you know the answer? i don't know. I'm just sitting in here, typing words so you know what i mean. Just let it out, right? keep playin' , keep workin' every day.
Project. What kind of project? well, just science project. Research article? of course not, nobody believe new in town + mediocre man. So? just workin' read something good and write insight? yeah. Just do it like a dre but i think it's fail. It's still me right? what? i know you don't know, i just keep it burn. Let me coat you with sec23/24 or do you want to know about transduction signal? i can tell you. Oh i forget, you just ordinary people not scientific guy. No offense anyway. Keep beatin' sec by sec. Fly it like a moonriver. Make it hits, so you can sleep in philly. Is it fun? is it funny? what do you think? i don't know. oh snap, not again, please no. If you don't know anything, i know a thing that can guide you to go whatever you want. It's sar protein. Do i write it right? no? yes? c'mon just give me the answer. Hmm... okay.
Is it done? i think you go too far away mate. You already mordor mate, you should play safe, just stay in rivendell. You know what? i don't give a damn about that i mean not 100% "not give a damn" just 50%-60%. I can write anything what i want. You say this is like a tearjerker facebook post? no, you are wrong. this is still a short story. Just another short story. I know this story is really crazy and confusing some people but this is natural. I just let it flow. Anyway, nobody will read this thing. I'm pretty sure of it because there is no plot in it. Just words that don't make sense. That's it. But i'm cool you know. i'm still cool with that and don't think about it because just let it go and workin' out