Lost

Why all this pain?

I have nothing to gain?

So I've let you be,

But yet you still haunt me.

Why I ask?

What's the point in this task?

The helping voice always mute,

Quit playing the scene like a flute.

I'm starting to unravel,

My insides feel like gravels.

When will this ride end,

Trying to mend.

You're always causing me to stop,

And doing so I have flop.

Please leave me alone,

Every sight of you makes me moan.

All of this because of one man,

Some may not understand.

Whom I will never meet,

This I must beat.

Needing to keep my sanity,

Wishing this was just all fantasy.

Others may think I'm lucky,

While for me it's been fugly.

What was all this for?

Just to make up roar?

Leaving me wanting more?

Or was it some test?

Have I become the pest?

This is seriously sick!

To play around with emotions like a tick.

Enough of this game!

I must move on,

The togetherness is gone.

All of that is in the past,

That's where it will forever last,

We are both happy without one another,

Now I must treat you like a brother.

You and I,

Living our own separate lives.

Please stop holding me back,

From what I lack.

What all this would cost,

To know I'm just lost.