“are you tired? you look sick.”
well, last night I couldn’t sleep and now that you mention it,
my nose does feel kind of stuffy.
i also relapsed last night. three nights ago my anxiety was so bad that i tried to burn off my skin because there were so many things touching me and
two nights ago i took too many sleeping pills, not because i want to die
some days i do
but because even in my nightmares my depression still has power over me
and i’d do anything to just pretend that the darkness isn’t touching me.
last night i relapsed and forgot how to love myself so i didn’t
and i cried and screamed
so loud and so today
i am tired and thanks for noticing, my throat is a little sore.