I am more than just me,
And not in a good way.
No one can be saved
If She comes out to play.
I’m not a bad person, you see.
I’m gentle, I care, I smile.
But just below the surface
Stirs a monster, untamed and wild.
I can’t help you once She’s in control.
My body is not my own.
Trust me, it scares me too;
Her power over me has grown.
She feeds off my pain,
All the insecurities that prick and poke.
And when She surfaces,
Her grip is like iron; I’m choked.
I’m sorry if I hurt you,
I guess She didn’t like what you said.
I tried to keep Her away,
But Her hunger must be fed.
I am afraid She will consume me.
Her insanity grows.
Soon, there will be nothing left but Her.
I’m losing control, I know it shows.
What am I supposed to do?
Her anger is the sun,
Brilliant and burning.
What have I become?
Losing control, I’m losing control.
Could I just open my eyes at least?
But it’s too late.
She’s here, and I have become the Beast.