They tell me to get up, but I can’t.
My past pushes me down, and the harder I try, it strengthens.
I’m not like you!
I can’t freely move about as if nothing has ever happened!
Because shit has happened!
You may choose to rid of it, but my mind works different.
I can’t forget my past, because it will never leave.
I can’t ignore it, because it just grows stronger.
I. Am. Not. Like. You.
Why don’t you get that!
I can’t get lost in the future!
I DON’T HAVE ONE!!!
My future is lost in the darkness that is my past.
I can’t find it, and what’s the point in looking for it?
It will just bring more pain and suffering…
So goodnight and goodbye.
I am done with this shit show.